so I'm updating fast becuase I want to so here you go...

I don't own Twilight sadly enough.

Edward POV


I miss you.

I trully do.

I never meant those things I said.

My heart is dead without you here.

I just need to see your face.

I just need to hear your heart beating gently against your ribes.

I must have you with me.

Or I will surly drown.

If you've moved on I will not force myself.

I just need to know your in good health.

I needed her. I craved her warm skin against mine. I didn't care if she could be hurt! Its selfish I know but I needed her like the stars need the sky.

So I went back to Forks back to the town I'd left only one month ago. And I sat at her window until Charlie left for work. I wondered why she hadn't gotten up yet for school.

I saw her toss and turn then finally look dully up to the ceiling. Her hand was on her arm I saw her grimce slightly that in its self made me curious.

And as soon as she slipped her feet to the ground I saw her body it looked so worn. So frail and unused like it was shutting down. She looked so weak weaker then any other human being that is. This was not my Bella she looked so helplessly lost my Bella was convident and strong.

She rolled up her sleeves and I gasped involunterily. Her arms, my Bella's arms what had she done? I saw her raise a razor to it I slipped into the window with every intention of stopping her not my Bella no!

But I froze when she started to cry. She placed the metal to a bare spot the sight sickened me. This is what I had caused I did this to my Bella.

I didn't even have the erge to bite her when the scent hit my nose I was complelty and utterly repulsed by what she had done but not by her never by her.

My breathing hitched when she sighed with releave. Releave? How could she be releaved when she had just cut her arm?

I just couldn't stop myself from whispering her name, she stopped and looked at me her puffy blood shot eyes froze me again.

"Edward?" She gasped she seemed surprised to find me real.

She took a step back dropping the razor so it cut her foot and holding her arm as the blood seeped into her light blue shirt.

"Your not real" She sobbed her back currently pressed to the door.

My sweet sweet Bella my sweet innocent Bella.

I ignore her pleas to just vanish like all the others and pick her up taking her to the bathroom. I sat her on the counter ignoring the skattered cosmetics I'd sent skipping across the floor and gather her arm in a towel.

"Why?" Her eyes full of dull pain and sadness looked up at me as I wiped the blood from her arm.

"Why what?" I asked looking back down at her arm. So many scars.

"Why did you come back?" I froze my hands unmoving as the blood contuined to drizzle.


How was it? I am glad you enjoyed my last chapter and I hope you like this one just as much!

Love,

Collections of a Tattered Soul