Title: Her Saving Grace

Author: Tay/JethroGibbsMistress

Category: wrestling

Characters: Lita, John, Stacy, Trish, and many others. Brief appearances by Mickie James

Disclaimer: All characters you recognized belong to the WWE and themselves. The ones you don't belong to my crazy mind

Distribution: my myspace blog, otherwise just ask first

Rating: M

Spoilers: Not a single solitary one

Summary: Her best friend is gone. She's lost. How will she ever make it through. Deals with suicide, death, severe depression and probably drugs later on.


Her Saving Grace

Chapter One

Shattered and Torn

Lita walked into the funeral home with her sisters Stacy and Trish by her side. She was holding onto them for dear life. She didn't know how she was going to go through with this. How could she say goodbye to her best friend? The one and only person that was always there for her. The only person that knew all of her little secrets. The first one she'd call when anything happened, good or bad. How was she to go on without the biggest part of who she was no longer there?

The funeral home was crowded with all of Mickie's family and friends. There were bouquets of flowers all around but the only thing Lita could smell was death. That rancid odor that made her dizzy and sick to her stomach. She looked around at all the people there. So many people. Some she didn't know. She wondered if Mic knew how many people cared about her. Obviously she didn't know how many peoples lives she impacted. She had to believe that. Had to believe that if only she'd known how many people truly loved her she wouldn't have taken her own life.

She wished this were some horrible dream. But in her heart she knew that wasn't true. She could feel it. She could feel a piece of her heart missing, There was a whole there that could only be replaced by her best friend. Standing there at the entrance so many things ran through her mind. Memories that hurt to think about. The first time they met almost 27 years ago. She remembered it clearly.


(flashback)

It was in early September. She was 4 almost 5. She had just entered her 2nd year in preschool. She walked into the small room that they put her in that year. There were toys neatly stacked in the corner in various shelving and toy boxes. In the far right corner was a small carpet area with box shelves and books a plenty. There was a large banner over the windows that said Reading Area. There was the nap area in the left of the room with red and green nap mats stacked up. In the middle of the room there were tables with child size chairs lining the tables. It was there that she saw her.

A little brown haired girl with her head down on arms. Her shoulders were shaking and almost inaudible sobs were coming from the little child. Lita walked over to her and sat down beside her. She looked at the child and said, " Hi, I'm Lita." The little one lifted a tear stained face and replied with, "I- I'm M- Mickie." "Why are you crying Mickie?" Lita softly asked. "I m- miss my m-mommy. And I don't know a-anyone here. And I'm all alone." Lita looked at the younger girl with a child like look of innocence and sympathy and said, "Well Mickie you do know one person. You know me. And I think I'd like to be friends. And if we be friends then you won't be all alone." A big bright smile illuminated Mickie's face as she said, "Really. I think I'd like that."


Everything after that was history. They'd become instant friends. They'd spend all their days together after that. They were inseparable. Time passed quickly. She didn't have near enough time with her best friend. Lita was shaken from her thoughts when a pair of strong warm arms embraced her. She looked up and saw the face of her friend John. His eyes were red and puffy and she knew he'd been crying.

"How are you holding up Li?" he asked softly. "I- I, oh god I can't believe it," she said as she broke down in tears. John wrapped his arms around her and gently rubbed her back. He was choking back sobs as tears streamed down his face. "Oh Li I'm so sorry. I know how close you two were." He choked out. Litas tears subsided. "I promised myself I wouldn't do this. That I wouldn't cry because I knew she wouldn't want me too." she said teary eyed.

Out of the corner of her eyes she saw Mickie's sister Alanna crying with her stepsister Maureen in the back of the funeral home. Lita turned her head sharply not being able to bear the sight of her best friends sisters crying and hurting so much. She looked at the entrance to the viewing room and saw two of there other friends, Victoria and Randy standing there looking at them beckoning them to go in there. They all 4 started walking towards Randy and Vicky. Stacy and Trish followed Randy into the room.

Lita stopped in her tracks at the door feeling a wave of unbearable grief wash over her. She didn't want to go in there. She just couldn't do it. She couldn't see her best friends body lying there cold and lifeless in a casket. Trish turned around and saw her big sister standing there in the doorway completely white and looking like she was about to pass out so she hurried back to her sister and grabbed her hand as John grabbed her by the waist.