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The paramedics walked into the bathroom and put their hands on Monica to take her out of Chandlers arms so they could examine her.
"NO!" screamed Chandler holding her tighter "YOU CAN'T TAKE HER!"
The paramedics looked at each other and decided to examine her where she was, they looked at Joey and Rachel and shook their heads.
"We have to take her now" said one of the paramedics giving Joey a "help me with this" look.
Joey walked over and went behind Chandler and grabbed his arms and pulled them open enough for the paramedics to take Monica.
"NO! Don't let them take her!" yelled Chandler as he struggled to get away from Joey's grip but Joey held onto him until the paramedics got her on the stretcher and got her into the ambulance, as soon as he thought it was safe Joey let go and Chandler ran to the balcony in time to see the ambulance pulling away.
"You let them take her!" said Chandler with anger in his eyes, he stormed over to Joey and punched him in the face, Rachel went and got him a cold wet cloth.
" I'm sorry buddy, I had to" said Joey trying to stop the blood that was gushing from his nose.
"Get out! he told Joey through clenched teeth, "I don't ever want to see you again!
"Come on Joey" said Rachel putting her arm around him and leading him out the door, "he's hurting right now"
"So am I" chuckled Joey holding the cloth up to his nose again
After they left Chandler went into the bedroom he had shared with Monica and laid down, he reached over and grabbed Monica's pillow and held it close to him and continued crying until he fell asleep.
As soon as they got to their apartment Joey called Ross and told him what happened and what Monica had written in the letter about him planning the funeral, after he was done Rachel called Phoebe and told her everything.
Over the next few weeks the others dealt with their grief in their own ways, Joey stopped going on dates, Phoebe stopped singing, Rachel stopped shopping and Ross still taught class cause he knew he had to but he didn't have as much enthusiasm for it as he used to, slowly they all got better but Chandler, the others realized that he was'nt getting better and decided to do what they could to help him, everyday they each took their turn spending time with them.
"Come on buddy" said Joey putting his hand on his shoulder, Chandler just pulled away from him and hugged Monica's pillow harder, except for when nature called he hadn't left the bed since he had gone in there after the paramedics had taken Monica, he hadn't even wanted to attend the funeral.
3 days after the paramedics took Monica
Ross, Rachel, Joey and Phoebe gathered in Chandlers bedroom trying to get him to get up and get dressed to attend Monica's funeral but he refused.
"We understand that you are hurting but you have to come" said Joey trying to get him up, Chandler pulled away from him and swung his arm out hitting Joey on his side.
"Leave me alone! he said through his tears, "I can't, I can't watch her being buried"
"If you don't go and say good bye you will regret it" said Phoebe " I never got to say good bye to my mom and I have regretted it ever since (AN: I don't remember if she did or didn't get to say good bye to her mom or not but it fits the story) so come one" she went close to him and he pushed her away too"
"Chandler! Get out of that bed and come with us" said Ross forcefully "do you think you are the only one that is hurting? Do you think you are the only one that misses her? She was my sister!"
"And our best friend" Rachel said pointing to Joey, Phoebe and herself.
"If we can pull it together enough to go then so can you" said Joey
Chandler just glared at them them buried his head into the pillow and sobbed louder
"Come on guys, lets go" said Ross angrily leaving the room, the others looked at Chandler for a few seconds and followed.
Back to present time
"Try to eat something" begged Rachel when it was her turn to be with him, her and Phoebe were in charge of getting him to eat and brought food when it was their turns, he let go of the pillow with 1 hand and moved the food around and took a few small bites then pushed the plate away and resumed holding the pillow, he didn't cry anymore cause he had no more tears left but he also never smiled.
After she left Ross entered, but only because Rachel had made him, his was still mad at Chandler for not attending the funeral.
"Rachel said I had to come in here and take my turn cheering you up but I can't do that, if you want to lay here and sulk fine, but don't expect me to forgive you for not coming to the funeral" and he stormed out.
He knew they were only trying to help but the more they tried to cheer him up the more depressed he became.
"I miss you so much Monica" Chandler said to himself after everyone had left, "Why did you do it? Why did you leave me? You could have looked for a doctor that could have helped you, you could have gotten better on your own, anything, I want to be with you, to hold you again, I want things to be back to normal." He had said the same thing to himself every night since that day
He laid there for a while wanting to be with Monica then remembered that on one of his trips to the bathroom he had noticed that Monica had left her tray our cleaning supplies out and remembered that mixing bleach and ammonia caused a deadly gas, he walked out of the room and got the bleach and ammonia and a big pot and a photo of Monica, brought them into the room and put them on the bed, then went and shut the door and windows then laid down on the bed.
"I know how I can be with you again my love" he said looking up at the ceiling, he poured the bleach into the pot and then the ammonia then laid back and kissed Monica's photo and held it to his heart.
"I'm coming Monica" he said as he closed his eyes and passed away. (AN: I don't know for sure if mixing those two things really can kill you or how it does or how fast but again it fits the story)
An hour later at Joey and Rachel's apartment
Rachel and Ross have been arguing about Ross not wanting to take his turn with Chandler.
"Ross quit being such a jackass, just go over there an apologize" said Rachel
"Fine!" said Ross heading for the door, he went across the hall and even before he opened the door he could smell the bleach/ammonia mix, he ran back into Joey and Rachels apartment.
"There is a really strange smell comming from Chandlers apartment."
"Like what?" asked Joey
"It's kind of a bleachy smell but also something else, I only smelled a little and it made me feel a litte nausous" replied Ross.
The all had the same thought...Chandler.
"We better go check it out" said Joey going into his bedroom closet and pulling out a couple of gas masks, Ross and Rachel gave him a funny look, " I took these from the set of a movie I was in once" (AN: They just seem like something Joey would have), "lets go" he said putting on his mask and handing the other to Ross.
The went over and went into Chandler room and found him laying there, they moved the pot of bleach/ammonia to the dresser then together picked up Chandler and carried him over to Joey and Rachels apartment where the air was fresher.
"Is he?" asked Rachel not wanting to finish the question
"I don't know" said Ross "you better call an ambulance."
"They sat there until the paramedics came not knowing what to do, they came and checked him over and shook their heads at the others, then called the corner who came and declared him gone.
"At least now he can be with Monica and be happy" said Joey, the other's nodded in agreement
3 day's later they had a funeral for him and burried him next to his beloved wife, to be with for all eternity.
