I'm smirking, but look into my eyes.
Is happiness the emotion you see?
I remember it clearly, those days in where I could dream without boundaries,
Run alongside the wind, with no fear of tomorrow.
I doubt I shall ever see that side of myself again, as it's locked somewhere that barely exists anymore
The place where it all began,
My heart.
My soul.
I had a purpose then, pursuing the path to catalyze my dreams
But life's a winding road, where I had stumbled and swayed my way amongst the crowd
Don't get me wrong, I would never go back in time – or play God
But my fear of the unknown had been replaced with curiosity.
Curiosity that could only be replaced with actions.
After my mistakes have been made, I still hang on to one of my greatest strengths
Yet one of my greatest flaws, Hope.
But is there any way I could earn back that endless sky?
They can see in my eyes
Reminding me of my broken past
But I don't need anyone to pity me.
I've taken my fair share of risks in my life,
And I've earned the consequences that come alongside it.
Crying won't pave a way to forgiveness
Every sin carved is everlasting
Written in the scars on the hearts of those broken by them
I'm lost in this maze of emotion
What am I waiting for?
Now, these once blank pages of my life
Have become a plea to regain fallen virtue
All this time, I've been trying to run away from my own reality
One day, I'll live for something
And as soon as I find it
I've lived the life that fate had chosen for me,
But I'm not one to follow mindless roads, now am I?
I'll find a way, a silver lining.
The silver lining to the dark endless cloud,
Looming over me
Those lost memories,
Hidden beneath a façade of sins
My faith is lacking,
Yet, who am I to give up?
I don't deserve to
I must live for them,
The lives I have ruined, for the better of my own.
Live for the everlasting dream residing inside of me.
Since there's nowhere else to run
My life's goal,
To uncover and discover.
And with time, maybe,
Perhaps I'll let the feeling out
It's so nostalgic,
I can't continue on like this.
But what if all the love is worth the pain?
It's not a lack of pride,
I'm speechless in my own way,
I wish I could free the fear from their eyes
All I've been through and all that's yet to come
And all that I have become will remain as I roll the dice,
The dice of my destiny.
Once more, I close my eyes from the sight
But it's all a futile fight, for it's all etched inside my mind
The invite of a white lie,
Some can't resist the call to join in
But still, I thought I knew better than to give into the past
Once fury thorns in your heart,
The fire's quick to consume you
And what comes from those ashes – is none other than your reality
I'll live for something
My past and my present
Those people that I've torn apart.
Will I come across that future?
Can you hear me?
I'm screaming,
Inside the remains of my heart.
Lost chances,
But I got to make it through again
Because there's nowhere else to run
I try to make sense of why
I can't figure how to unlock the next door
I bleed on this path my past had paved
But I cannot turn back because my story's just begun
To open up my eyes to the possibilities.
There's still so much here, a life worth living
And with time I'll drown the feeling out
I need to right all my wrongs
And finish all things I've left undone
We've only just begun
I'll live for something
My past and my present
Those people that I've torn apart.
Will I come across that future?
Can you hear me?
I'm screaming,
Inside the remains of my heart
I'll live for something as soon as I find it
Will I come across that future?
Can you hear me?
I'm screaming.
Lost chances - but I have to make it through again
Since there's nowhere else to run
It's through my difficult life, I'll always be a closed door
I'll strive to become stronger
To face my life head-on,
And be aware of the price for my decisions
It's so nostalgic, maybe all the love is worth the pain
Maybe one day, they'll see
They'll experience the true meaning of hurt,
They'll realize
The pain behind my smirk.
This is the story of the misjudged being,
The one who looks through the windows of souls.
Now hear it from the perspective of an urban legend
The one they call
Izaya
The one I call,
Myself.
