I am a horrible person! I'm SO sorry about the wait. My goodness it's been FOREVER! With school and some family stuff going on, I just didn't have the time. But now, school is out! And I have the whole summer to write! I'm really excited about this :) Enjoy the next chapter.
Disclaimer: I don't own CCS. Clamp does :)
Sakura and her dad walked into the therapist's office at exactly 4:20pm that day. They sat on the chairs outside of the office and waited to be called.
"I've heard she's a very good therapist." Fujitaka said.
"So? I don''t need some shrink." Sakura said.
"Now, Sakura. I wanted you to behave yourself and do as the therapist says. No attitude. We want you to get better."
"Whatever." Sakura just brushed off her father as if he was just a peice of lint on her shirt.
"Miss Sakura Kinomoto." The receptionist called.
"Let's go honey." Her father said, but Sakura already had gotten up without saying anything and made her way to the doctor's door.
Sakura and Fujitaka were greeted by a tall, beautiful womam. She had long black hair and was extremely radiant. Her voice matched her face perfectly. "Hello, Mr and Miss Kinomoto. Please have a seat here." Sakura and her dad took a seat infront of the desk. "I am Dr. Yelan Li."
Sakura sat slouched, clearly showing she didn't want to be there. "Miss Kinomoto, how are you today?"
"Peachy." Sakura replied, not really paying attention to what was going on. Yelan took mental notes of Sakura's posture and body language. She noticed how Sakura seemed annoyed. She made sure to remember these things.
"Now, Mr. Kinomoto. You have filled in the form and I have read it over. Seeing the situtation, I think it would be better if I tried talking to Sakura alone first. Is that alright?" Yelan said in her sweet melody-like voice.
"Of course. I'll just step out." Fujitaka stood and looked at Sakura and gave her the you-better-behave look. After Fujitaka closed the door behind him, Yelan stood and made her way to the chair next to Sakura.
"Miss Kinomoto, uh, may I call you Sakura?" She asked.
"No." Sakura said rather rudely, but she didn't care.
"Fair enough. Miss Kinomoto, I want to start out slow. We don't need to rush into anything. I really want to understand you. Don't think of these meetings as a waste of time. Think of them as a life changing choice. Hopefully, these meetings will help you deal with whatever you need to deal with. How about we start, hm?" Yelan said in a very motherly tone, Sakura relaxed a bit, but kept her guard up.
"What do you want to know?" Sakura said bluntly.
"Well, I want to help you."
"You can't." Sakura said.
"And, why not?" Yelan questioned.
"No one can help me."
"Miss Kinomoto, everyone can be helped, but only if they choose to be helped. Otherwise they get stuck." Yelan said.
"Well Dr. Li, I don'\t wish to be helped, alright? I'm fine the way I am. Everyone thinks I need help. I'm fine!" Sakura cried.
"Miss Kinomoto, please calm down. Like I said, this process takes time. I don't expect you to get better in one day." Yelan said calmly, as if not affected by the outburst.
Sakura took a breath to calm herself down. The last thing she needed was to have one of her episodes in a therapist's office and be labelled crazy and put away. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to freak out like that. I just don't want help. I don't need it." Sakura said.
"I think it's time I talked with your father." Yelan concluded. "Call him in, and you can sit outside and wait for him."
"Fine by me." Sakura got up and called her dad in. After her father closed the door, Sakura sat down in a chair, worn out. She put her head in her hands and let out a deep sigh.
"Fuck." Sakura talked in her hands.
"I don't think a young lady should be using that kind of language."
Sakura looked up to see who that voice and comment belonged to so she could kick their ass. She eyes connected with a pair of deep amber coloured eyes. She felt herself get lost into them. She snapped out of the trance when he began talking again.
"What happened? Cat got your tongue?" He said.
"What are you, five?" An annoyed Sakura remarked.
"Of course not! I'm 18 thank you." He smiled at his witty pun.
"This place is a loony bin." Sakura whispered to herself.
"This isn't an asylum. It's a therapy office." He smiled.
"Do you have sonar hearing or something?" Sakura exclaimed.
"No, just normal hearing here." The boy said casually with a goofy smile. "By the way, My name is Syaoran. And yours?"
"None of your business." Sakura rolled her eyes. She reverted her attention to the opening door of Dr Yelan Li. Her father said his goodbyes and walked over to Sakura.
"Let's go Sakura." Sakura automatically stood and left the office.
"Hm...Sakura." Syaoran smiled to himself.
Kinomoto Residence
"So how did the meeting go?" Touya asked his dad after dinner and Sakura retreated to her room, a daily routine.
"According to the therapist, not so well." Fujitaka sighed.
"Oh no. What did Sakura do?" Touya asked.
"Nothing. That's it. She didn't respond to the doctor. And when she did, they were rude remarks or comments. Touya, I just don't know what to do." Fujitaka said, feeling helpless.
"Don't worry. They'll help her," Touya reassured his dad, "That's what they do."
In Sakura's Room, Sakura's POV
I'm sitting in my room, holding the albums close to me. I feel like every time I'm away from them, they'll take them away from me. They don't understand! They can never understand what's going on. Why can't they see that no one and nothing can help me. They can't have to old me back..It just isn't possible. The old Sakura died the day she died.
"I'm sorry daddy. I'm sorry Touya...I'm sorry." I whispered to myself. I know they can't hear me, but it helps to say it.
My fresh, warm tears begin to fall and I silently fall asleep...my dreamless sleep... diving into my nightmares.
End of Sakura's POV
At Penguin Park, Syaoran's POV
The wind is rustling my hair as it blows. It's a chilly October night and I randomly decided to take a walk. I feel stupid now. Damn it's cold! I sit on a swing near by and begin pumping my legs slowly. Ever since today at the therapy office, I can't get that girl out of my mind. How can I forget those perfect emerald eyes. Her petite figure. I could sense her vunerability, yet I was getting a piss-off vibe. I wonder what happened to her that she ended up their. The way she talked, she didn't seem the sweetest girl in the world, but I feel weird when she talks that way. I can tell she's putting up a shield to protect herself...but from what?
"Sakura..." I said solfty.
Sakura's Room, Sakura's POV
I woke up screaming. I had another one of my nightmares. When will they stop? When will they leave me alone? I know it was my fault. Why must I be reminded while I'm asleep? I punish myself when I'm awake anyways. Why can't I get any peace?
I look over at my alarm clock. It reads 5:30am. Aw, hell. I might as well get ready for school now. I start out of my bed until I remember I've been suspended. Now what am I supposed to do? I can't go back to sleep...I just can't. I walk over to my closet and pull out a sweater and head downstairs. I walk outside of my backyard and sit on the chaise that's on the patio. I let out a deep sigh. I really shouldn't be awake. It isn't good when I start thinking about that day, and thats all I do. I lay there until I fell asleep...this time, a dreamless and a nightmareless sleep.
And there it is. End of Chapter 2. I hope you guys liked it. I'm sorry for any grammical errors. Please review! Even it's like 2 words. Every word counts. I will see you in the next chapter :)
-Sabby
