- A/N; Still don't Glee
I promise that this will actually get interesting soon. Sorry it's so boring. But please, PLEASE review :]
Quinn heads down the near empty hall of William McKinley High School humming under her breath. It's a relatively nice day and it's hard to feel sad when the sun is out. She puts her things onto her locker and pulls out the notebook she always takes to glee practice that's filled with sketches.
She hears a familiar laugh down the hall and glances to her right. Down at the end of the hall, Quinn can see Sugar and Mercedes laughing about something. Quinn can't help but smile, she loves seeing her old friend happy.
"Hey Quinn." Quinn jumps at the voice and immediately looks around for the person that voice belongs to. When she finally finds Puck, she smiles and closes her locker.
"Do you want to walk to glee with me?" He asks, trying his best not to make that smirk she says he makes. She laughs and curls her arm around his.
"I'd like that." She says quietly, walking towards the girls she heard earlier.
As she walks passed Sugar, she can feel her heart pounding in her chest, Sugar looks her in the eyes with something Quinn can only describe as sorrow. She feels so bad, not being able to cling to her old friend, or read to her when she's sad or have movie marathons. She misses Sugar so much.
And she misses Blaine too.
Quinn is trying hard to stay mad at Blaine. She can't believe he was so careless as to come here, to a public school. Blaine was safe at Dalton and he went and blew it for Kurt.
But really, she wasn't mad for that reason at all. She was so very happy for those two, but she was mad at Blaine for making her hurt. His presence taunts her. She just wants her friends back.
But Quinn knows that this is for their safety. She can't be Lucy anymore. She has to be blonde, pretty, ice-queen Quinn Fabray. It's safe. Not having anyone close was safe.
Not keeping Beth was safe. It was for Beth's safety. What if she had kept her and he came back? What if he tried to hurt her baby? Her perfect, little, baby girl.
Quinn didn't want to think about the what if's. This was for the best. Lucy being Quinn was for the best.
Puck messes with her hair and pulls her closer, sensing her distraction.
"You okay, Q?" He asks as they walk in to the choir room. She catches Blaine's eyes and smiles softly.
"Everything's okay." She says this more to Blaine than Puck. So maybe he catches on and know that she's okay.
Only she isn't, because this is hard. Very, very hard. She just wants her friends.
"Stop it, Lucy." She whispers as quietly as she can. She has to stop thinking about it. She watches as Santana and Brittany walk through the doors, smiling and holding hands, followed by Sugar, Mercedes, and Artie. Sam and Rory came in behind her and Puck, while Mike, Tina, Finn, Kurt, and Blaine were already here. All that was missing out of the students was Rachel, and Quinn had noticed that her and Finn had been acting strange lately.
She secretly wondered what that was about.
Quinn pulled out her note book and started sketching Sam and Rory who were laughing loudly and doing impressions. She loved drawing, it reminded her that no matter what happened, she was still Lucy, no matter how many lies she told about it.
Because ultimately, her and Blaine, they were liars. They weren't themselves. Lucy was Quinn and Blaine was…different. Blaine was no longer a mess of curls, glasses, geekiness and curse words. Blaine was a polite, dapper, good guy who gelled down his curls. But he was still a complete dork.
Quinn laughed softly at this, because it was funny that no matter how hard Blaine tried he was still a nerd. She loved it.
She missed him.
Quinn turned now to watch Blaine and Kurt. Kurt was rambling on about the latest bit of gossip and Blaine was watching him but hardly listening. She could tell by that spaced out look he was day dreaming of Kurt. Probably something dirty that she did not want to know.
Quinn is jolted from her thoughts as Rachel walks in, quietly. Which should be a warning in itself since Rachel is never quiet. Rachel takes the only available seat - right next to Quinn - and sighs, wiping some tears away quickly, but slow enough for Quinn to catch.
"Rachel, what's wrong?" Quinn asks quietly, as she's almost positive Rachel doesn't want anyone to see she's upset.
Rachel stares at the blonde for a moment, confused. She knows that they're kind of friends, but she doesn't really see why Quinn is actually caring.
"You know what? Don't answer yet. Do you want to see a movie tonight then maybe stop somewhere and talk? You look like…" she takes a deep breath, "you could use a friend. And I don't want to be alone tonight. Is that okay?" Quinn asks, and receives a one thousand watt Rachel Berry smile.
"I'd really appreciate that Quinn, thank you."
They decide on which movie and what time right before Mr. Schue walks in. Out of the corner of her eye, she sees Blaine jump up and talk to Mr. Schue in hushed tones. After a while, Mr. Schue claps his hands for their attention.
"Guys, Blaine has a song prepared for today. So listen."
Blaine smiles at them all and gives Quinn a quick wink that almost goes unnoticed.
The band starts a familiar tune and Blaine tries not to stare at her as he sings.
"You can go, you can start all over again. You could try to find a way to make another day go by. You can hide, hold all your feelings inside You could try to carry on when all you wanna do is cry."
Blaine dances around the room, keeping her, Sugar, and Kurt's eyes as he sings. The others either don't notice or don't care.
"And maybe someday we'll figure all this out Try to put an end to all our doubt And try to find a way to make things better now that Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud. We'll be better off somehow, someday"
Blaine sits on the piano with Brad and plays the parts he knows, singing out and with so much emotion Quinn forgets they're not close and sings the next verse with him.
"Now we wait and try to find another mistake. If you throw it all away then maybe you could change your mind You can run, oh, and when everything is over and done. You could shine a little light on everything around you Man, it's good to be someone"
They get to the chorus and Quinn catches herself. She stops and allows Blaine to sing the bridge by himself, the rest of the glee club joining in after that.
"Cause sometimes we don't really notice Just how good it can get. So maybe we should start all over, Start all over again."
The song comes to an end, while all their friends clap and laugh and praise Blaine's song choice.
Quinn can't help but lock eyes with him, she know what he's saying and she know he misses her too.
"Maybe someday we'll live our lives out loud
We'll be better off somehow, someday."
