Disclaimer: I do not own Naruto or Masashi Kishimoto other characters in the series. I do not own Paramore's "This is what you get."
Warning: Hints of Yaoi and shounen-ai.(boyXboy relationships) If you don't like, turn back now. Thank you. Don't steal this.
A/N: Late at night. Wanted some angst. Made a oneshot between our two favorite gents.
A/N: I am so glad that you all liked it. I meant it to be a oneshot but due to inspiring reviews I made it into a twoshot at least.
Andzminx, I am glad you like and just between us, I never meant for Shika and Sasuke to get together. I just wanted to stay away from the cliche of neji, gaara, sakura, sai, or maybe hinata so I chose an unlikely character and that's Shika. I love Shika too so maybe that's why I chose him.
Fungeki, I'm sorry I made you mad but I really meant for this to be a oneshot, it was the reviews that made me continue and I'm sorry for the wait between school and other unnecessary drama I was unable to write also I was in a sort of melancholy mood when I wrote this. I didn't want to change the tone and the mood of the story by being happy when the character is not. So I had to wait a bit before I could write. Please forgive me.
Lizz, thank you for reading, I really appreciate your review.
Kisayue, thank you for reading. I will continue and write another chapter but don't get too into the story. Remember it was only suppose to be a oneshot. Anyway, Neji is not a lover, just a friend. You will see the reactions of the other characters. And no, Sasuke doesn't have sex with everybody. I can't make him into that much of a whore. His reasons for sleeping with Shikamaru will be revealed in this chapter also the reason why he tells Shika and Naruto "I love you."
Leighbriel-Misokita, you're one of the reasons why I made into a two shot. I have no idea what going to happen in this chapter. I'm just going to let my fingers flow.
Animeangel999, glad to know I have your support.
Kendonall, after reading your review I knew I had to update but I been having a bit of a dry spell maybe because of school. I don't know but I am sorry for taking so long. I'm happy that you loved it. For some reason I had strong emotions running through me when I wrote it.
Sweetsong, we say things and mean another. Why can't Naruto actually be human this time and let his emotions go. I don't think that anyone in this situation would have reacted differently or the same. We all have our own reactions and that what I chose for Naruto cause if that happened to me, it would've been mighty different. Did you not feel his emotions or maybe you weren't in the same mood as the story. That's why I wrote the "venegeful girlfriend" remark into the story so it could show that he isn't in charge of his reactions and emotions right now.
Nemu Ame, yeah two shot are lovely. Also, Sasuke had to kiss him. It showed him that there were feeling still between them even though Naruto probably didn't appreciate it. I think during the time of the kiss Naruto-kun was so trapped in his thoughts that he didn't even realized it happened.
Rakuen Tachibana, I am glad this story helped you because that is what I truly wanted. Thank you so much for reading.
Shadowphoenix143, I'm happy that you think my writing style is "excellent" cause I think its sucks. Anyway, you right about the whole being strong thing. I didn't want Naruto to be weak, I read too many of those. I wanted him to feel but not be weak and wimpy. Yeah, the story is sad, I don't know why but it is. So, I guess I have to deal with it.
Yhaio, I felt the same way but I didn't want Naruto to be seen a some girl. He's a man, all man. And I will, sorry I took so long but school has been really tiring.
Looking-to-the-sky, You have so much questions, and I wanted to give you your happy ending but it wouldn't fit for them. You inadvertly made this fic even long since I started thinking about Sasuke and the other characters involved. So I blame you but reviewer and fans should thank you.
I was listening to Paramore's song "That's what you get", so I credit the mood and feeling of the story to them. Doesn't mean the story will be happy or something cause I have a twisted mind. Thank you to all who read, I am deeply sorry that I took so long to update. Please forgive me. Now on with the story.
Title: Just aren't worth it.
Chapter 2: Moving on.
No sir, well I don't want to be the blame
Not anymore
It's your turn to take a seat
We're settling the final score
And why do we like to hurt so much?
It was weird. The months seemed to fly by so fast, I almost forgot about what happened. The key word being 'almost'. You know, I could never forget about something like this. But you know what's odd? I'm not sad. I mean, a couple months ago I hated your very existance. But for some reason, I just couldn't hate you anymore. Of course, I won't forgive you. At least not now. I don't know what happened to us, Sasuke. It seems like yesterday we were laughing and enjoying the day together. Do you miss me? Neji told how much you've miss me but I want to hear it from your mouth. I want to know that I have that effect on you. Guess, I'm still not over you if I'm obsessing over your welfare.
You know, it really sucked when everyone found out. And no, I didn't tell. I wanted to forget about this but my neighbor heard what had happened. The nosy old woman told everyone what happened to "poor little Naruto". I didn't want pity especially from my friends. Their looks made every wound re-open. The soft, sympathic words and the guilt filled gaze. Why do they look so guilty? It wasn't their fault. This happened between the three of us and it should've stayed between the three of us. Unfortunately, the gods were not smiling on us or maybe you when this crap went down. I just wanted to forget and put this behind me. I didn't want any attention, or comfort. I wanted to be alone, so I could put myself back together. If I couldn't pull myself out of my own hole then I was no better than you.
It was odd to see you after all these months. I mean, who would ever thought that we would actually meet up in the grocery store. I thought that we would meet at friend's party, we would see each other and there would be tension throughout the rest of the night. But you know how things don't usually go the way I planned. I mean, you was one of them. I was in the cereal aisle picking up some oatmeal. I was a little bit sick that week and thought oatmeal would help. I was looking for the best one when I heard your voice.
"Naruto?"
Hearing your voice made my heart jump and my body freeze.
"Sasuke?"
I can't decide, you have made it harder just to go on
Why all the possibilities where I was wrong
I turned around to face you. God, you look like shit. I couldn't surpress the happy feeling that ran through my head. I, me, Uzumaki Naruto, has broken through the patent Uchiha stone/iron wall and affected the supposedly non existing heart. A minute later shame ran through me. I shouldn't be happy. That would be petty and I'm not a petty person.
"How are you doing, Naruto?"
Your words wake me up and break me from my thoughts.
"I'm fine, Sasuke. I'm fine."
We make small talk. About the weather, friends, hell even the crack on the tiled floor. We are just avoiding the unspoken subject that hangs around our head like a weight. Finally, we get to the point.
"Naruto."
"Yes?"
"I miss you. I want us to get back together."
"Sasuke, I can't..."
"Naruto, I love you."
"You said that to Shika."
"I never meant it every time I was with him, I kept thinking of you."
"But you still slept with Shika."
"I know."
"Then why did you do it?"
"I don't know."
"You do know, Sasuke."
"No, I don't!"
I could see the anger in your eyes. But I didn't care. The wounds in my heart didn't fade away. It was still there and stung when I saw you. I knew I should've listen to Iruka, when he told me that you looked like a selfish bastard. but no I had to listen to my heart.
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
I drowned out all my senses with the sound of it's beating
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
I found myself staring into your eyes. I loved those eyes because I always felt like I was falling into them. You meant the world to me and then you destroyed it. You destroyed us. You destroyed me. When I was with you I ignored the so-called "writing on the wall". The distance, the missed dates, and the unanswered phone calls. Just thinking about it made my blood boil, but I couldn't lose control again. I lost control last time and I hated myself for it. You step forward and I stand still.
"Sasuke, don't."
"Please Naruto, can't we just work on it?"
Your pleads hits my heart. I'm a nice person, but I can't allow this to happen. Many people wouldn't forgive me, including myself. I was known for being a somewhat idiot when I was young, but I'll be damned if I'd be called one now. So I'll let go and you'll let me go.
I wonder how am I supposed to feel when you're not here
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here
I still try holding on to silly things
I never learned why when all the possibilities I'm sure you heard
"Naruto, we can work this out. You need me, just as I need you."
You say that I need you, yet I'm not the one whose begging. I shake my head and walk away. I can't seem to answer you now. You're still attached to me. I know the reason you want me back and you know the reason. Without me everybody would see the real you and that can't happen. Uchiha's don't fail and they don't give up. But you won't win this one Sasuke, remember I was your enemy and rival before I became your lover. I've lost to you and you've lost to me. Every time one of lost we would go away and lick our wounds, then come back again. But what happens we both lose. I haven't won, I may look like the victor but in fact I'm the same as you.
'Naruto, I'll always love you.'
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
I drowned out all my senses with the sound of it's beating
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
It's been a year since we've broken up now. Life has gone on and I've found someone new. He's so different from you and I find it refreshing. Sai is an odd person but he's my odd person. When I first saw Sai, he reminded me of you. I didn't like him because of it. I didn't need or want a replacement for you. Then I got to know him. He has your features but he's nothing like you. I know I said it before but it was so hard for me to wrap my head around it. Everyone makes fun of me on how I got with the Anti-Sasuke. Also I really hope that you and Sai don't meet in the street or something. I don't want to end up in court testifying about an incident between the two of you. But I can honestly say that I forgive you and it doesn't hurt anymore thinking about you.
'I'll always love you too, Sasuke.'
They make you wait to me, to me
And I'll always be just so inviting
If I ever start to think straight
This heart started right in me
Let's start, hey
Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?
'But I won't come back to you.'
We see each other at a party. You smile and I wave. And its ok. We're friends now, just like we were before. The smile briefly fades when you see Sai move towards me and wraps his arm around my waist. He holds me close, just as you used to. I can see the memories flicker through your eyes. You blink them away and raise your drink in salute. I smile this time before turning away and allowing Sai to drag me off somewhere. Even now I can still feel your eyes on my back.
'So we'll just be friends. Like we used to, right Teme?'
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
That's what you get when you let your heart win
I can't trust myself with anything but this
And that's what you get when you let your heart win
Whoa
'Of course, Dobe.'
TBC...
MBG: This fic is far from over apparently. Though I didn't intend for it to continue this far but I'm not finish. This chapter focused on the eventual ending of Sasuke and Naruto. So, I skipped to the end but we're going to do a reverse and read about Sasuke, Shikamaru, Sai and maybe other characters feelings, also we're going to have stories of rebound hookups and that sex buddy, Naruto was commenting about. So review and get ready for the next chapter of "Just aren't worth it"
P.S. I left the completed on so you guys won't get antsy with expectation of another chapter.
