WARNING: scars of memories, trashed relationship, sneering eli's, METRIC! Every scar there! Locking kissses! && bad words!


Chapter Two: Seven Scars (Clare's POV)

I squinted as the morning sun was blinding me through the slit between the two brown curtains covering glass windows. I turned away and rolled onto my back, I could feel the immediate soreness on my shoulders from last night. I winced softly as I rubbed the sore shoulder Eli shook hard during his episode. Like always I have a hand outreached to help him and he grabs onto my shoulders furiously. I turned my head looking at him now. The covers covering his rising body as he took shaky breaths. I sat up slowly to get a better look at him. His thick brown hair was a mess around his head and I still remember the blood vessels breaking in his emeralds from strain. I allowed my hand to skim his face, feeling the cool touch of his skin. He doesn't understand that after all these years of marriage, that I could stand the sight of him. Deal with the horrific episodes that send his body into fury and agitation. I bent down and broke his rule of no touching after episodes, and swiftly pecked his cheek. He let out a moan before moving his body slowly before going back to sleep. "Have a good day's rest Eli." I murmured as I pressed my lips to his cracked dry ones and moistened them with a kiss. He didn't budge. I smiled and swung my legs over the edge of the bed, slipping my slippers on, I proceeded to the curtains, closing the gap to allow no light to awaken Eli. I gave his slumbering body one last glance before silently slipping from the room. I walked down the hallway, checking Bentley's room to see him asleep with his thumb in his mouth as he clutched at a teddy bear. I checked Willow's next and saw that she fell asleep with a book on her chest. I bookmarked the page and set it silently by her bedside. I covered her small body with the sheets and gave her swift kiss on the cheek. After slipping from that room, I proceeded to Julia's. To my surprise she wasn't in bed like a usual summer morning she enjoys sleeping in. I furrowed my brows and walked down the stairs. To my astonishment Julia was at the breakfast table, dressed in a Metric shirt with purple skinny jeans and combat boots. She had on Eli's guitar pick necklace and even his skull ring on her thumb. Her dark brown hair was pulled back into a messy ponytail, only a purple plastic bow stuck in there. She wore her makeup heavily, her eyeliner thick and eye shadow being a midnight black. Her lip ring laid on the table as she ate her cereal quickly, taking my word of eating without the snake bite. "Good morning Jules." I said in a tired voice as I passed by her to the refrigerator to grab eggs. "Mornin' mom." Julia said in a muffled voice as she shoved two mouthfuls into her mouth. "Take a bite at a time Jules. Don't swallow the spoon, We only have one set." I scolded with a smirk. Julia returned the smirk like a true Goldsworthy before taking a slow bite. "Now why the rush on a summers day?" I questioned while cracking eggs. Julia shrugged. "Out to see Y and Vicky today. Maybe Teddy." Julia said Teddy's name rather quickly. "Do you like Teddy, Jules?" I quipped. Julia shook her head. "No. Y likes him though. I think he likes her. Y wants to go out with him." Julia informed me. "Oh." There was silence after that. There was me and my daughter's conversation for today. I wanted to ask her more. Did she like Teddy, KC's son. KC.. My ex boyfriend… My abuser. I shook my head. Julia didn't need to know this. Neither did Willow or Bentley. All three of them will live a perfect life without knowing me and Eli's past with KC. I didn't want to wreck Julia's timid friendship with Teddy, he seemed polite, shaking my hand and shaking Eli's hand also. I could tell by Teddy's look, Eli's handshake was more firm than useful. Thoughts interrupted by footsteps. I turned my head to see Eli walking in. His eyes were bloodshot, heavy bags underneath. I took a quick glance at the wrapped bandage around his forearm. The red scar. If the bandage were to be unwrapped and the scar hadn't been forced open by vicious fingernails than it would glisten in the sun. I noted that Julia took a quite glance before her face was back at the cereal. "Good morning Eli." I said quietly while flipping eggs. "Good morning Clare." Eli retorted in more of a sneering tone. Was he seriously going to play the sneering game? Eli proceeded towards the coffee machine, grabbing a cup and was about to pour a cup before I turned my head, "You know that since you have your medication in your system that you can't take coffee. Don't try to sneak a fast one by me." I said, returning my attention to the eggs. Eli slammed the cup down in aggravation and I glanced at him seriously. Julia turned her face toward Eli and cowered over her cereal. "Elijah." I scowled. "Behave." I added in a serious voice. Eli glared at me under his lashes with the glazed eyes that held no love. He was part sane and insane. He needed more sleep to sleep off the insane side. Before I knew it he was walking away and I turned around and placed my hands on my hips. "Where are you going?" I snipped. Great. Now I'm the snippy wife. Eli turned his head and sneered. "In the living room. Where my wife won't bother the living fuck out of me." He looked straight and walked into the living room. "Julia want any-" I turned to see that Julia was already gone. Her bowl half eaten and her chair left out. I saw Morty's car keys were off the hook. "Great. Now I drive my daughter away." I muttered to myself as I was thinking of how much of a great mother I am to Julia opposed to Willow and Bentley.

I took hesitant steps into the living room. Eli sat on the loveseat with his feet propped onto the coffee table, he had the channel on MTV. A teenager at heart. "I brought you tea." I murmured softly. Silence. "Your allowed to have this. You like it after episodes in the morning." Eli turned his head slightly and looked up at me with his true emeralds. "Thank you." Eli murmured in his velvet voice. I smiled and handed him the cup of tea and took a hesitant seat by him, leaving a bit of space. After a couple of sips, Eli set it on the end table and I could feel his eyes on me as I pretended to watch Marianas Trench. "Any new scars?" Eli asked softly. I shrugged. "My shoulders sore, you rattled me last night." I admitted. Eli scoffed and rubbed the bridge of his nose. "Can I at least check your shoulders?" Eli whispered in a ragged voice. I nodded and leaned forward, shrugging my robe off, feeling the tense pain. "Fuck." Eli muttered. "Is it bad?" I murmured. Eli sighed. "Bruises. Huge purple bluish handprints." Eli sneered. I sighed and turned my attention to him. "Don't beat yourself over this Eli. It happens every once in a while." I reminded him. Eli shook his head. "Its more than that. I always hurt you someway. I remember what each scar is." Eli admitted. I furrowed my brows as he drawled on about every scar. "The one above your eyebrow is when I attempted to claw your oceans out. The one on your chin is when I tried to attack you when you strapped me down to the bed." Eli remembered. I shuddered remembering how ravaged his face was. "The was across your chest is when I tried to claw your heart out. You needed stitches and the doctor recommended you needed to stay away from me. I agreed." Eli murmured. I scoffed. "I sure as heck didn't." Eli ignored my words and continued on the scars. "The long scar on your arm is when I grabbed onto your arm during an episode at Declan and Holly J's wedding. The one on the inside of your wrist is when I broke your wrist when I tried to break you piece from piece." Eli continued, his voice more pained with each scar told story. "The one on your stomach is when I tried to claw Julia from your stomach when you were pregnant. I couldn't live with myself after that." Eli whispered. I closed my eyes remembering how he had been gentling touching Julia, feeling her kicks when he started clawing, causing Julia to stir inside of me in pain. "The one on your leg is when I tried to bite your leg and wounded up taking a chunk of your skin off." Eli was barely audible now. "Now you'll have a bruise to remember me by. Your abusive husband." Eli murmured. I could feel the tears sting as I heard his choked sobs from his chest. "I don't want to hurt your body or mind anymore. I hate myself a little more each time." Eli admitted. I clutched onto Eli's arm, ignoring his immeaditeate flinch and with my other hand, I turned his face towards mine and pressed my lips to his. Trying to store the scary memories into a case.. Locking it with a kiss.


Oh Clare Goldsworthy. We needed your thoughts! Intense shit here. Excuse my French. XD I show more into the family as Clare and Julia's relationship isn't very good, Clare and Eli's marriage during his episodes. I even showed Clare's scars she received after Eli's attacks. She'll be covered with more. Spoiler? In case anyone is wondering Metric is an indie band which I LOVE, I have all their songs on my iPod and just love their songs. Amazing shit there. I figured Julia would be the one to inherit Eli's things, like his guitar pick necklace, skull ring and even Morty! LONG LIVE MORTY! Gahh I love that hearse! Sorry for my ramblings! I shall post next in either Julia or Teddy's POV! As for now au revior (sp?) && Don't forget too..

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