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Recap:

... I heard the door knob start to turn... I started to panic as the door creaked open... 'Ah! What in the hell am I going do...' I thought frozen in my place...

Present time:

'I know what I can do...' I used the knife to put a cut in my forehead and I rubbed some of the blood on the corner of the wall on the outside of the shower, I pulled the blades out and tossed them back in the cabinet with my fresh blood still on them, I wrapped myself in a towel and splashed a little water on myself for effect and held my arms behind my back.

Ai walked in...

"Hey shorty, I know your upset and all but don't hog the shower", he had his eyes closed not noticing my cut.

I sighed, "You know I'm not naked right?" I said smiling a little, but I knew it was a fake. He opened his eyes with a slight blush on his cheeks, then his eyes widened

"S-Syo are...are you ok." He ran over to me looking at my cut.

"Yea, yea I'm fine I just slipped and crashed my head against the wall..." I smiled hoping he wouldn't ask to see my arms. He sighed "good can I at least bandage your head up for you so you won't bleed to death." he said half kidding. 'I wish I would.' I thought nodding my head. We walked back into our room, I had slipped my jacket on and sat on the new bed that replaced our bunks. 'I wish I could kiss him...' I thought as he looked down at me wrapping my head in a bandage. I could feel my cuts start to open again, I hoped he wouldn't see the blood running down my arm. Looked up and saw him staring at me. "w-what is it..." I said in a whisper blushing lightly. He leaned down, my face turned 50 shades of red darker than it already was... Ai was trying to kiss me... ' omg...omg...omg I can't believe it... my dreams are coming true... but I can't like him... he's my senior...and my senior only...WHY IN THE HELL IS BEING GAY SO CONFUSEING!' I mentally screamed/thought to myself. He leaned down closer, I waited for the feel of his lips to touch mine... but they never did, he kissed my forehead and leaned away. I blushed and looked away, "Hey I'm going to get something to eat you want to come with me." he said standing at the door.

I nodded, "mhm..." and put my hat on and zipped up my jacket and followed him out the door.

We left the dorm rooms and walked into town, he picked a cheap take out place, and we ordered and sat down at a booth together. 'Just like this morning...' I thought taking a bite of my food, Ai sitting across from me. I thought about our incident this morning... he looked at me with little to no emotion at all. 'Oh I love it when he looks at me like that...that's the same look he gave me this morning...' Ai noticed that I wasn't eating.

"Hey shorty...you ok." he said looking at me seriously.

I didn't lift my head, ' I...I don't know what to do now...I'm getting nervous around him...he probably doesn't like me so why is he...why is he with me all the time lately...probably so I don't do something stupid...again...like cutting myself, speaking of that.' I pulled my sleeve up and looked at it under the table. Dried...most of them, some were too deep to clot fully still. I sighed.

"Hey Syo..." Ai reached across the table and put his hand on mine.

My face flushed "W-what is it." I mumbled trying not to freak out.

He tugged at my hand making me look at him, he saw my cheeks were red. "Is your head feeling better?" He reached over to lift my hat, "its bleed through... I'll have to bandage it when we get back home... before vocal practice." he looked at me with a 'staring into your soul' look.

I sighed, "Yeah, yeah whatever you say!" I said trying not to think about the cute look he was giving me or that my depression was starting to take over again. I stood up, "come on let's go..." I said walking out the door with him following behind me. We started to walk back to the dorm rooms when it started raining. We ran to the forest, sitting under a big tree panting. "W-wow that came from out of nowhere." I said laughing a little bit, I started shivering as we waited for it to let up.

I looked at Ai from the corner of my eye, the hair that was kept down covered the side of his face and his tips changed into a different color of blue rather the turquoise blue it normally was. I pulled my legs up to my chest trying to keep myself warm, Ai scooted closer to me pulling me to him. "it'll help us stay warm." he said about an inch from my face, I blushed. "O-ok." I said my voice trembling. I stared off into the rain, I felt something on my shoulder, I looked up and Ai had fallen asleep. I blushed and smiled, I laid my head on his. 'This is nice instead of all the drama back with the guys...especially Natsuki...' tears started welling up in my eyes, I wiped them with my sleeve.

"What's wrong?'' Ai said lifting his head and rubbing his eyes.

"N-nothing just go back to sleep, doesn't seem like it'll be letting up any time soon." I said blushing a little trying not to think about how cute he was acting like a little kid.

He nodded and snuggled up against my side, I wrapped my arm around his shoulder trying to keep us warm. I closed my eyes and tried to sleep, for some reason I couldn't with Ai leaning so close to me, I looked at him and leaned up and kissed his cheek. I noticed him blush some and a hint of a smile tugged at his lips. I giggled softly to myself then slowly drifted off to sleep. Not knowing all hell was about to break lose in my dreams.

Syo's dream:

I was sitting in a dark corner of my bed, watching the man I loved as he slept in the bed across from me. 'Ai...' I thought. His blue hair was tussled and messy from the way he slept. I could tell what he was dreaming about because a couple times I heard him slightly moan my name. I smiled then felt something on my arms, I pulled the sleeves up on my pjs, my pale skin shining in the dark. I sighed and looked back down and saw there was blood all over me. I tried to scream but my voice wouldn't work, I tried to wipe the blood off my arm but it kept coming back up again and again and again. Finally I got the outer around my wrist to stop when my arm started glowing a gold color and slowly it started to carve into my arm, I had to cover my eyes till the glow went away. "N-Natsuki..." I read the blood stained imprint in my arm, then noticed something below it. "o-or Ai..." I read out loud. My eyes blood shot, pupils dilated, and my eyes were wide. I looked over at Ai, and walked over and sat on the edge of his bed, his face was turned towards me. I leaned down and pressed my lips onto his. "I...chose...you..."

End of dream:

I opened my eyes and saw I was outside, I started to move. "O-ow..." I looked up and saw Ai looking down at me smiling, he leaned down and pressed his lips to mine. My eyes widened, "W-what was that..." I started not knowing if I was still dreaming or not. "That's what woke me up shorty, and you kept rubbing me..." he said a smirk starting to play on his face, I blushed red "S-sorry..." I mumbled trying not to think about my dream when I realized that I was laying in Ai's lap. I quickly moved off of him, "S-sorry..."I said again quietly. He suddenly pulled me to him and kissed me. "You're not getting away that easily shorty..."

To be continued...

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