"Ok let's take it from the top

A/N Ok so this chapter seems a bit slow for me but I wanted to get them at least talking. So press that little button and let me know what you think.

Also Sorry if there are any mistakes, I'm lazy at the moment and it hasn't been beta'd so many mistakes are my fault.

Oh and disclaimer… Belongs to The N and Tommy, I'm just using them for a while, and all other character belong to my imagination!!

Ashley's POV

"Ok let's take it from the top." Nine hours in a studio with people that I can only stand for the smallest amount of time, please remind me why I do this. Oh yeah it's my dream. I wasn't touring, just writing the music, I wanted to do this. That little voice inside my head telling me that I only wanted to write so that I didn't have to leave her… Look where that got me.

I sit there waiting for another day to be over, spinning in my chair my eyes stop at the blonde that just walked through the door. It's the sandwich lady not named by me May I say. I guess now there are only a few things that get me through the day, sandwiches aren't one of them, but it's who delivers them that matters. She looks over at me, and I give her a small smile, just enough so that she can't take her eyes off me. I turn back around realising that the band is done.

"Ok guys, that's it for today, I'll do some re-arranging and get you back in for final touches. If any at all."

They all leave thanking me on the way out, inviting me to some party, I'll end up there anyway, I just can't say no. Supposedly I'm good at this, I feel like I'm just going through the motions, the way person I wanted to be proud of me, I ruined it for us. I again for the second time look over to the blonde; I know that she's starring at me. We're alone finally, again that little voice telling me that I shouldn't be doing this, it's too soon after. Too soon it's been 6 years, I need to move on. The only thing is its so hard to do when you know that you lost the other half of you, the part that makes you whole. Now my only reason to get up in the morning is knowing that I'm going to either get a fix or another one-night stand. Kyla always says that I need help, that it's not healthy to do what I'm doing, but to be honest I don't care.

I take her hand leading her into the recording studio over to the piano, I like to show off first what can I say.

I make out another line, taking it all in one go. The sandwich lady is already out cold, I guess some people really can't handle it. I hear the door open, but I can't quite make out who it is. I should probably wake up sandwich lady, but it just seems like to much work to go over there and do that, plus it's really comfortable in this chair. "What are you doing" Oh great Kyla my new mother.

"What does it look like?"

"It looks like you're being an idiot… What the hell are you high? Who is that?"

God when did I ask to play 21 questions, "that would be sandwich lady." Yes I know I'm trying to be funny, wow Kyla looks pissed, she's got that little vain in her forehead, I've only noticed it lately. Must just be for me.

"What… sandwich. I don't have time for this; you promised me that you would be there tonight."

"What was tonight?" I pause knowing already what I've missed. "Ky I'm sorry, for what its worth I did get you a present." I know that not going to lighten the mood.

"Ash I can't deal with this anymore, 5 years I've put up with you cleaning up after you. Telling random girls in the morning to leave our apartment because, you're not going to see them again. I've had it Ash, either you get some help or I'm done."

I probably shouldn't agree to anything while I'm high I won't remember it in the morning, but for some reason. "Ok I'll get help. But no rehab, I'll do it on my own."

"Ash I love you but I don't believe you."

Paula's POV

"Thanks for taking them today mom, work just wouldn't let me out of this meeting."

"Its fine I love having them, I always have lost of fun, and they make me feel young. Unlike my actual children."

"Ok I have to run. I love you mom, Rachel, Amy I'm going now I love you both." Giving them both a kiss before she leaves.

"No mummy stay." Rachel puts on her best stern face.

"Sweetie Mummy had to go, but I'll be back before you know it. And Nana is going to have lots of fun with you today." With that Rachel finally lets go, she gives them one more kiss each and heads out the door.

"So what shall we do first" I say.

3 hours later I'm being called into the ER, always on my day off. I struggle to make my way in with diaper bags and children hanging off my arms. Ok not quite but that's how I feel. I make my way down the hall stopping at the nurse's station, "Ok I'll exchange you my grand-daughters for what ever you have there."

"Dr Carlin, I know it's your day off but your patient from last night wouldn't leave for surgery without talking to you first. Some people are so clingy." Donna the charge nurse says picking Amy out of her stroller, swinging her round.

"Ok I'll do this, but then I'm back home to make brownies!"

Finally walking out of the exam room I see Donna still on the floor with Rachel and Amy. "I should take you home with me; they're never this quite, unless Spencer is there."

I head round to the other side of the desk bending down behind it to get the girls ready.

"Hi" Wait I know that voice. God I want to turn round to make sure I'm right. Donna answers before I have a chance to do anything

"Hello, can I help you."

"Yeah I'm here to see Dr. Pullson, at 12.10, just making sure I'm in the right place."

"You are can I take a name and I'll tell her that your waiting?"

"Ashley Davies."

"Ok, won't be too long just take a seat and she'll be right out."

I eventually look over the desk to see Ashley sitting down in the chair closest to the exit, her leg jumping up and down a mile a minute. Donna leaves to go get Dr Pullman, I know her from a few psych cases that have come through the ER. I know that I can't but it takes every ounce of control not to look at the file in front of me. Amy begins fussing and pulling at my leg. The younger of the 2 and always following everything that her sister does. I pick her up looking back over I see Ashley walking into the office.