A Long 14 Months

Chapter 2

Tara was so relieved when Salazar left the room but the relief didn't last long since Jax chased after him, at least Jax gave he something to protect herself with.

"Tara you want to give me the gun?"

Tara looked at Jacob and shook her head. She didn't want to talk she had heard footsteps and was tightening her grip on the gun ready to fire if necessary. When the doorknob turned Tara had the gun pointed at the door. When the first Swat officer came in and saw her with the gun he dropped his weapon.

"Dr. Knowles we need you to lower the weapon"

She dropped to gun on the ground and sank to the floor tears streaming down her face. The swat members unlocked the cuffs and Jacob ran out the door. There was a loud bang that came from the direction Jax had ran in and that snapped Tara out of it, she took off for the door but the swat guys grabbed her.

"Dr. Knowles you can't go that way it's not secured we are going out the front door" Tara kept fighting them.

"No I can't leave Jax is still here, he came in because of me"

Finally they got her moving toward the door fighting the whole way. When they shoved her out the front door and shut it she started pounding on it screaming at them.

"If you won't let me in you better bring him out here to me"

Clay seeing Tara fighting to get back into Jax had to laugh but at the same time knew that wasn't what Jax would want. It also dawned on Clay it couldn't be good for the baby so he started walking toward her followed by the rest of SAMCRO and Unser. When Clay put his hand on her shoulder (he wasn't thinking that she would be jumpy) and he got an elbow to the face (and barely ducking the punch that followed it) was more than surprised.

"Whoa Tara it's just us"

Clay said putting his arms up in surrender. Tara couldn't believe she just hit Clay. She put he hands over her mouth.

"Clay I am so sorry I didn't mean" He interrupted her

"Relax hunny. I'm the one who's sorry I don't know why I wasn't thinking you might be a tad jumpy." He gave her a smile "You got to calm down it's not good for the baby and Jax wouldn't want you in there."

Tara nodded then realization of everything that happened hit her and she sank to her knees trying to get air. Tig and Opie were the first to grab her and took her to the waiting ambulance to get sent to St. Thomas.

"No I am not going until Jax is out of that building"

The EMT's gave up and just let her sit at the back of the ambulance with Oxygen. The first thing Tara did was loose Salazar's Flannel shirt she didn't want any reminders of him. They boys gasped at the blood over her clothes. She shook her head when they asked if was hers. All of SAMCRO but Opie and Juice left to give Tara space they still had an eye on her but wanted her to be comfortable. They didn't have to wait long to get word on Jax it came over the radio within 5min of Tara getting out.

Jax was chasing Salazar and made it to the top of the steps when Salazar swung a fire ax at him making him fall down the stairs. He got up and found Salazar trapped unable to escape. All he had was a small knife and this asshole had a fire ax he had to get him to drop it. He reasoned with him convincing him he wanted him to rat not to die. Anyone who knew Jax knew he had been pushed too far this time. As soon as Salazar dropped the ax Jax rushed him driving the knife into his stomach and he didn't let go until Salazar died in his arms. That's just one less threat to my family he told himself over and over. When he heard swat coming he quickly cut himself with the ax this and to be self-defense or he would be doing a lot more jail time. When he sliced his arm he hissed, damn that hurt. Swat got him and escorted him out of the building. As soon as he got out the door he looked for Tara, she wasn't hard to find she was running straight at him. He jogged to meet her but stopped when he realized she wasn't slowing down and braced himself. She didn't hesitate she flung herself into his waiting arms, the force spun them a little. They both thought silently I'm home. He put her down and was looking her over when the guys came over. Clay spoke first

"I'm glad you're alright son" He wrapped him in a hug "Now that he's out what do you say Tara can we please get you to the hospital?"

Tara and Jax both nodded. She started to walk towards Jax and his bike then stopped and walked to the Ambulance and climbed in. Jax wasn't sure what that meant but he glanced in and saw Tara sitting with her knees to her chest, head in her hands and crying. He wanted to go with her but the ambulance pulled away. So he jogged to his bike and started to follow the ambulance along with the rest of the club. They surrounded the ambulance making sure the princess was protected.

Tara gave in to the tears she couldn't keep them in and once she gave in she couldn't stop. She heard the bikes coming then heard them surround her. She felt like part of the family, the one Jax rejected her from. She had calmed down by the time they got to the hospital and even made herself feel more presentable. People still saw her as one of the matriarchs even if Jax didn't. She was surprised to see Jax waiting as the ambulance doors opened. He held his hands out to help her out of the ambulance and once she was down she pulled her hands away. They walked into the ER side by side but Tara had never felt so far from him. She just didn't know where they stood and she hated that more than anything. She saw her friend and colleague Megan was on; thinking how good that was because she wouldn't judge whatever happened. About that time Megan came out of an exam room and spotted her she rushed up to Tara throwing her arms around her.

"Oh Tara thank god! I was so worried are you ok?" Tara smiled as Megan continued "Have you been checked out yet?"

"Megan let's take this one thing at a time. Jax will need stiches and I am fine other than I need a ultrasound room if its open" Megan cocked an eyebrow but said nothing so Tara continued "Jax won't be much I think his head will be fine with butterfly bandages but his arm definitely needs a few stitches if there is an exam room open I can do it."

Jax interrupted "Tara no I am fine let's get you checked first."

Megan stopped the argument brewing "Actually Jax it will be about an hour before the ultrasound is ready so you can be first. I will let Tara take care of you and when you're done I can check on her and hopefully and ultrasound will be ready."

They went to an exam room and were alone for the first time since he went to Belfast. She took a few calming breathes while she washed up. Then she got everything ready and started sewing him up. She had made about 3 stiches when she got the nerve up to ask him.

"I take it Abel is back with you or with Gemma at the moment."

"Yeah we got him back and were on the way back to you when we got the word about you."

She just smiled and continued to sew once she finished up with him she looked at him.

"How does this work Jax? I mean you pushed me away for weeks and when I wouldn't give up you slept with the porn slut. I know what you were trying to do so I could forgive you all of that as protecting me but you said You, Abel and the Sons weren't my family. Do you have any idea what that feels like?"

Jax knew this had been coming but he never thought she would be more upset with something he said then sleeping with Ima, both were dick head moves but after the way she flung herself at him when he got out of the building he had hope.

"Tara I am sorry" He stopped and walked to her grabbing her hands "Baby when I did all that stuff it was to get you away from my lifestyle. I don't know how to keep my club life and my life with you and Abel separate. I realized over in Belfast I couldn't live my life without you in it, and I know it won't be an easy fix but I will do anything to get you back."

Tara smirked it's not every day you saw Jackson Teller, Prince of Charming begging and it made her feel good that she made him willing too.

"You can't keep us separate. You need me and the club you can't separate us without ruining everything; So you have to quit trying. I just need you to be honest with me and then we can handle anything. Now I have a question for you…You and the club knew about the pregnancy. Obviously Gemma told you how did that come about?"

He dropped her hands and looked at his feet. She walked over to him and put her hand under his chin and lifted it begging him to tell her what made him shut down.

"In Belfast I had found Abel." He paused and looked in her eyes drawing strength "The guy who was hiding him had him at an orphanage and he had been adopted" she drew in a breath and let him continue "well the parents were great she wasn't you obviously but he certainly wasn't me and I thought that would be best for Abel so I let him go right past me. I told Gemma and she slapped me and asked what I would tell my other son about what happened with his big brother. The club knows because I told them."

Before they could go on Megan came in.

"Ok Tara I got into your locker and got your extra clothes so you can change when we are done. Go ahead and get out of those clothes and into a gown I will be right back"

Tara began to change out of her clothes and heard Jax make a hissing sound. She saw in the mirror what had him made she had bruises around her upper ribs yep that's going to hurt. She finished changing and got finished with the exam. She was getting anxious she knew she was fine what she was worried about was the baby. Finally she got her ultrasound; Jax was by her side and holding her hand. When the heartbeat came on Jax gripped her hand a little tighter and that's when she decided. She would have to get past this because this was where she belongs; with her family.

Once they had gotten the all clear from the hospital they left and headed to let Tara see Abel. When she walked in and saw Gemma holding him she started losing it. When Gemma gave Abel to Jax seeing the two together she knew she made the right choice. She is right where she belong's.

Later that night after Jax and Tara had gotten Abel to bed they lay curled up together. It didn't take long for it to escalate to more but that was fine with them. In the aftermath Tara turned to Jax to clear the air.

"I love you Jax and I want to be with you but I want to be clear on something. If you ever try to push me away and tell me Abel is not mine I will not forgive you again no matter the circumstances and make sure you listen to this carefully. If I ever catch you with another woman there will NEVER be another us. Do I make myself clear?"

Jax looked at Tara "Tara baby I love you too! I won't push you away and I swear I will never be with another woman. I have all I need in this house. I have our son, my old lady, my future son and their love. I am set" They seal this with a kiss and drifted off to sleep.