A/N: Oooo holidays and a little "somethign make writing so good. Enjoy the long awaited second chapter of SP. All of this is in Shizuru's POV because I relate so much to Shizuru. Afterall us Sagittariuses got to stick together.
Disclaimer: For this I shall admit one thing only I do not own Maihime/otome because Sunrise does.
Self Portrait By Kara papas
Endearment
Why is it that with time optimism fades? In my solitude when the world cannot see the fear of everything crashes on me and I welcome it. I so willfully would do anything for my most precious one as I am crossed to even be apart from her. The times will not tell how far we must go to stay within each others hearts. I am a cold calculating woman at time, but it is necessary to create my reputation of sorts. I must appear suave and ever so graceful. No one but she has seen the feats I am truly capable of in each and every lifetime we have share for I know there must be more than this. There has to be more than this. My bond to her most oblivious nature compels me so.
It was not to long ago when we had youth in our hands and with what fortune did we have when we strove to become something more. I came from nothing, but a hard working family that was buried deep in frustrations of gaining a superior image of social class. My mother's goal was to rise from the lowest position in our society to become a noble member. I was content as a child from what I can recall. My mother went as far as to place me into a school for Otome. I had just barely gotten in and struggled as a coral, but I could never really fall with such help from my onee-sama. I could never quite understand her feelings towards me until the day she became a meister and went off to her very own country.
Yes, her feelings, she showed them to me on many levels. She was ever the flirt and such a dangerous tease and probably the only person ever bring to a full blush. However I did not feel that way about her. I did not understand how much she wanted someone to see her as she was; for who she was. I became a pearl and grew into arrogance as the number one student. I became very famous among my peers and the corals. So I instantly disregarded anyone who'd approach as merely a fan girl. I even disregarded her. I had never seen her, but in my heart she had always been there. Those sleepy eyes when deep in thought and the dark tresses she pinned to one side and let hang loose on the other. I found her perplexing when I finally encountered her.
-Flashback-
Here I am standing my place of solitude and nothing can bother me. I know hardly anyone dares to come to this side of Garderobe but me and Ann-Lu. I cannot image being without my precious one-sama anymore and this year has been so tough.
"THAT STUPID ORANGE HAIRED FREAK!" A loud almost boyish voice said invading my space which was then shortly followed by a gasp when I turned around somewhat shock that anyone would dare disrupt such tranquility. I forgot to shield myself my eyes are unguarded and she can seen me. The girl with emerald colored eyes and porcelain skin.
"Ara, I did not know anyone could be so rude here at Garderobe and as I recall corals should be having class right now." I said as gracefully as I could including a teasing edge. The girl mouth moved from an open and closed position many times before she started making sounds which even then weren't into the form of words. "I see you must be one of those annoying fangirls then." I said in my defiant mood turning away from the girl. I was so angry by her approach because it did remind me of many of those self proclaimed fangirls. I heard feet and a grunt and I turned around to accost the girl one more time when a hand contacted my face.
"Snobby bitch." The raven haired girl said in her deep voice before walking away.
-End Flashback-
My first encounter with my love did not go well and I was to full of myself to see her as what I would today. Our youth and status so blinded us from what took until my last week as a pearl to figure out. Although the time she used to open my eyes was my second encounter which broke my resolve to be so cold around her.
I was in the music hall of Garderobe as I have often loved the skill I learned thanks to Garderobe. Music became a way to transmute my emotion that were so hidden into something tangible. I kept playing the piano one day until I heard the door creaking open and shutting. I had assumed someone peeked in and then left. I was terribly wrong. As I finished when I heard light applauds.
-Flashback-
"I'm sorry for bugging you again." The raven haired girl was there again and I could only glare at her with the fresh memory of her slapping me the month before. This girl was put here to make my life miserable. I had her as my room attendant as well. However she seemed compelled to say something but was instantly insulted by my glare. "You know I was just about to compliment you. But I don't know if I want to now. You are some god damn snobby bitch, do you know that!?"
"And you my dear must really be in denial because I do think you are a fangirl." I smugly said in defense. The girl sneered at me and then sighed.
"You know…I was going to say this. Such music like this only can say something about the depth of your soul. You are misunderstood and looking for someone to see you as who you are, but when you act like this to me. When you do this!" The girl was almost distraught but she continued and the ice around my heart began to melt fast. "You can't possibly know what I am thinking…your music is so beautiful like you are, but when you play it I now have to wonder do you even know who you are? Because when I heard this…I could see you as you are beautiful and alone." The raven haired girl ran out.
-End Flashback-
From that moment on our relationship would never be the same as I fell into a deep love with her; my Natsuki Kruger.
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