I do NOT own Fairy Tail, just the ideas that made this story.
So this is kinda like a flash back, but we will be staying the "past" for a few chapters. I don't want any confusion, and I don't want to jump around to much.
I woke up to an empty bed,again. Nastu never seems to be able to stay the night anymore. As much as I might of thrown a fit over him sneaking into my bed in the middle of the night, I miss waking up to the pink hair that barely made its way out of the covers. Maybe its time I figure out what is going on with him. He is my best friend, I can't help but worry about him. I summon Plue to accompany me on my walk to the guild, all the while I can't help but try to think about what it could be that made him pull back so much from me. Now don't get me wrong, we still go on our missions, and him and Happy come over for dinner from time to time, so its not like he is ignoring me. Yet it is in no way even close to how things used to be for us. I wonder if maybe I have changed and just haven't noticted it? Maybe I said something to him that hurt his feeling? As hard as I try I can't seem to recall anything that could of put this wall between us. I love Nastu, I always have. He gave me this wonder place to call home. He was always there when I needed him most. I have to figure this out! I refuse to give up on us!
As I near the guild a warm smile makes it way onto my face. I can hear the laughter from outside, and that is a sound I don't think I could ever tire of. As I open the doors I dodge the flying chairs and Elfman, and make my way to the bar. Setting Plue on the stool next to me I call Mira over. "Good Morning Lucy. What can I get for you today?" She always has that warm smile on her face. No matter what life brings her way. I hope I can be that strong right now. "Plue and I would both like a smoothie please. You haven't by any chance seen Natsu around have you?"
"No. Sorry Lucy I haven't, but don't worry. It's still early, and Natsu is not know to be an early riser."
"You're right, maybe I'll check on the rest of the team while I wait for him."
"Sure thing. Just wait a little bit and I'll be back with your smoothie."
I turn around in my stool while I wait and take in the rowdy morning at the guild. Elfman is telling Jet and Droy that if they were more manly then Levy wouldn't be going on missions with Gajeel. Levy turns bright red while trying to tell her team they are fine how they are, she just wanted to change things up a little bit. This of course fell of deaf ears as the two were now blubbering messes on the floor. I couldn't help but let out a giggle at the sight of the whole thing.
"Here you go Lucy, Plue. I'll make sure to tell Nastu you are looking for him if I catch him before you do." Mira says sweetly while handing me our smoothies.
"Thanks Mira you are the best!" I give her a wink as I make my way over to Erza and Gray. Plue wiggles his way on to the seat next to me and instantly gets to work on his drink, with a smile on my face I turn to look at my team mates. Erza is peacefully eating her cake while Gray has his head in his hand. " Everything alright Gray?" I ask.
"I am just the peace and quite before the headache known as Natsu makes his way here." I let out a laugh which has him lift his head up and smile at me. " I'm actually looking for that menace. I wonder if he will be getting here soon." I sigh causing Erza to finally look up from her cake, giving me a puzzled look.
"Lucy is everything okay? You seem stressed. I hope you know we are always here to talk to you if you need it." Gray just nods his head in agreement. When I wouldn't meet her eyes she took a different approach. " As a member of your team I must Insist you speak to us about your troubles." You can always count on Erza to pick up on things that you sometimes wish she wouldn't. In the end though I end up confessing to my best friends my worries about Natsu. " Ever since the Grand Magic Games he hasn't been himself around me. I understand that it is hard for him, he was there when he saw the future me die. I was there to though, but I know that I can't live just thinking about that. I need to live for me, I have to live for a future I almost never got. I just wish Natsu would talk to me about it. He means so much to me..." I was cut short by the said fire mage as he walked through the door. I exchanged worried glances with the rest of my team as we watched him silently make his way over to us. Natsu was never silent, no matter what he was doing. I wasted no time in trying to get to the bottom of this.
"Natsu I need to speak to you, we can either do it here in front of the guild or we can do it . privately. Just know this we will be speaking. Something is wrong and I can no longer just stand by and watch as my best friend is hurting the way you are!" His eyes widen at my sudden outburst but understanding soon made its way onto his face. "As demanding as ever aren't we Luce? I would rather talk just you and I for now. There is a lot I have to say to you."
Finally! I'm getting somewhere with him. Good or bad I will find out what is wrong, and I will try like hell to fix it! I stand up and lead the way outside, only for Natsu to take my hand and take me off in another direction. "I have the perfect place for us to talk." He informs me, and so I let him lead the way. Anyway it feels nice to have him hold my hand. To my surprise he brought me to the Sakura tree, the same tree he dug up for me so long ago. The memory brought tears to my eyes, what I would give to go back to when life was much simpler.
Both of us sat down under the tree, unable to make eye contact with one another, both of us seemed to be at a loss for words. You can do this Lucy, you have to! "Natsu what is going on with you? I am worried sick over you. You are hardly around anymore and when you are its like your head is off on another planet! You are my best friend, and I care so much, but you have to see how you are hurting me! I understand needing time to think, and understand what is going on in your head, but this has been going on for months. It needs to stop now. Please you have to tell me what is going on."
I looked up to see his face showing nothing but worry, with a shaking sigh I wait for him to open up to me. "Luce I am so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. In fact I've been thinking of all the ways I can stop any of the pain you may feel. I can't get that horrible image out of my head. The way your skin was so pale. I can still hear the sound of your heart slowing down, your breathes becoming shorter. There is not one day that goes by that I can just forget. I know I should be grateful that I have you, and I am! I just can't help but think about you not being around anymore, and that's not something I can deal with very well. So I took some time to myself to think about what it is I can do to protect you better. I think I have figured it out!"
I can't say I am shocked by his words. I knew that this was bothering him, I just never knew how much. I see a small dusting of pink grace his cheeks. Now this should be interesting. What could have the great Natsu Dragneel blushing." Natsu, just what is this idea of yours?"
"Well you see Luce...uumm... well you are one the most important people in my life, and so I can't afford the thought of you not being in my life. So I figured why not just be mine!? This way I can always be around without you getting upset because that's where I should be. By your side!"
Huuhh? "Natsu what in the world are you talking about? Be yours?" There is no way, he can not mean what I think he does. No no no. This is Natsu we are talking about. He can't mean that. Can he?
"Well yeh Luce. I really thought about it. I already spend most of my time with you. You are someone I can go to for any of my problems. I would give my life to save you, and all I ever want is to see your smile. I love you Lucy. I want to be more then what we are now."
At that point my whole world stopped. He loves me? I love him too, but I have no idea if I love him on that level. It has always been an idea in my head, but I guess I just got so comfortable with the thought of us staying just as we are now, I never stopped to think that this day would really happen. Now that it was here I had no idea what to do. What to say. How in the world am I suppose to respond to that!
(Insert cliffhanger here) MWHAHAHA. Well here we go. Chapter one is all done! I bet this isn't what you imagined. Well don't worry my friends. Laxus isn't here yet, and we still need to figure out what our poor Lucy is going to say to Natsu. Let me know what you think. I will try to have another chapter out by tomorrow night, but no promises! I don't want to be a late updater but life is pretty busy every now and then. Thank you Terrakion96, DeadendAngel4, FairyTail555 for your reviews! Also thank you to all of my followers! Last but not least thank you SeleneJade for reading, and laughing at me. You are lucky I love you so much ;) Well TTFN my friends!
