Disclaimer: Don't own Naruto and making no profit of writing about ShikaTema.
A/N: Sooo I finally were able to finish the second chapter! The first chapter I corrected. Properly there are still mistakes but if so forgive me, I try my best. OK there are like always announcements to make:
1. (AND THE MOST IMPORTANT!) This chapter could be likely rated M. It is on the small grade between T and M. I don't think the sexual references (not sure if you could even say reference) are worth M but maybe some of you think so. But I thought it is better to say it now before it is to late.
2. Thank you for the reviews. It made me really speed up on writing.
3. The AuthorNote in the second chart I'll delete sometime.
4. I wasn't sure about the word backseat driver. In Germany you would say "Besserwisser" or "Klugscheißer" but I don't know if the English use backseat driver as an "insult" (In Germany it's a banter)
5. Now, have fun!
Chapter 2: After Night
"Make me stay."
She had breathed these three words to him and he fell into a deep hole of need and want.
Shikamaru had always imagined being with Temari would be a fight. Like the fight when they had danced around each other revealing and not revealing their feelings. Like the fight the times they had played with each other giving hints and secret flirts. Like the fight he had with his own body at times like this.
But no. It was more like living for the first time. Like survival.
Now that he was conscious again he thought about the whole night. His mind just needed to work this over now.
It was indeed no fight when they had finally given in and closed the door behind them. Oh no. It was like they fought together against an unknown enemy. Both fighting for breath, needing themselves, needing to breathe like they were drowning. They clung on the other not letting go. Never fearing the dark ground they hold onto each other as wave after wave hit them. Until they reached the surface.
For him it really had been like seeing the sunlight for the first time.
So now he was watching his love sleep. Even if she smiled now in sleep he wasn't sure if she wouldn't regret last night.
They had made a big step from being rivals to being allies. And now they had to face together a huge foe. It had complicated their relationship but even if he could he would never undo this night. And even if it was troublesome it was worthy to fight for her.
Now not time challenged them but the world itself.
A stray of her loose hair fell into her face. Like touching a butterfly he put it behind her ear. Nevertheless Temari woke up her eyes flattering in a breathtaking manner. He could watch her all day, never tearing his gaze from her just watch her breathing. It really seemed like madness but that didn't matter anymore.
She stretched her arms and embraced him smiling her beautiful smile for him. Just for him. "Good morning, loverboy."
He chuckled and leaned in kissing her tenderly. "Good morning troublesome woman."
"Hey!" She humorously hit him slightly on the arm.
"What? I thought we just stated the truth?!"
She hit him again playfully and he in turn chuckled again. "As I said."
Laughing she pushed him over towering him. "Now you will regret that."
"Oh really? And how?" He raised his eyebrows and she smirked.
"You should know that a good ninja never reveals his plans."
"Yeah but that does not mean he really has one."
"Backseat driver, I think you'll see if I have a plan or not." And with that she bend herself over him. Torturing him for the rest of the morning in really mean ways.
They lay silently on the bed savouring the moment. Temari let her head rest on his chest listening to his heartbeat while Shikamaru played with her hair watching her breathe with a raising and falling chest. "Do you regret it?"
He had been lost in thoughts and now he wasn't able to figure out her mood so he joked. "Being tortured by you?"
"No", she lifted her head meeting his eyes "being with me."
Somehow he was startled he hadn't expected her to expect him to regret it. More likely he would have thought she would doubt the step instead his feelings. But then again he wasn't sure about hers, too. Irony made him chuckle.
"What are you laughing about?" She raised her delicate eyebrow.
"Nothing. It's just that I wouldn't thought about the possibility of you assuming me to regret it."
"Well?"
"Well what?"
"Do you?"
"Do what?"
"Stop it! It's nothing to joke about! You should know how serious the situation is."
He looked deep into her eyes watching her slowly. Was she giving him room to escape? Did she wanted him to leave so she'll have it easy? "What if I don't want to know how serious the situation is and to ignore it for being just happy?"
The flames in her eyes died leaving wavering emotions. "What if it never can be this easy? Would you reject me?"
He felt anger rising in his chest. An emotion he usually didn't felt. He grabbed her shoulders and lifted her a little more to him. "Do you really believe I could reject you? How can you speak so low of me?"
She stared before yanking her head away from his direction. She mumbled but he understood her perfectly. "I never thought low of you, just unworthy of myself. And now I want to know if you think it is worthy enough to face the world." She turned her face and looked directly at him. "I'll never give up on you."
He leaned in and kissed her forehead. "You know what I feel like I know what you feel."
She sighed breathing her doubt outwards. Finally the nagging doubt was released on both sides.
He began to kiss her neck and nibbled at her earlobe. She pushed him slightly away. "Do you have plan?"
"No, why? Do you have one?" He again started to attack her body with his lips making his way downwards.
For Temari his treatment made the situation more difficult. She tried to push him away at least halfheartedly. "You're supposed to be the genius."
Surprised he looked up from his business. "And that means I have to do all the thinking? And me thought you weren't stupid yourself."
"I'm not!" Where the hell was her fan when needed?
"So why should I always do the thinking? It's troubleso-" He seldom got to speak when she was around and now she even held her hand over his mouth. This really was troublesome.
Patience was never a great virtue of Temari. "Now the we don't have to fight our feelings but society and policy. You know that?"
His eyes showed a strong passion instead of his common laziness shining with confidence. "Yeah, I know. Don't worry, I find a way for us." With that he returned where he stopped his business.
Silently they walked to the gates dividing Konoha from the outer world. They didn't want to talk about it. Why should they? Everything they were they were and knew. Nothing could reverse that now or ever.
The disappointment and burden of love was crushing on them but being ninjas they had to be and were brave. So they simply avoided each others gazes.
In Shikamaru's mind the way to the gates began to swim like a dizzy mirage. The ground passed to fast by and it was like he had fever. His throat was dry and he was nearly shivering. It was to hard to let go of her. Everything became blur to him and little did he knew that Temari was experiencing the same.
When they were just a few meters distant to the gates he spotted a few cornflowers. His head snapped out of the dizzy mode, he was in. Disregarding the gate for a moment he headed for the flowers.
"Shikamaru?" Temari watched him puzzled. He looked like being obsessed by something not minding his surroundings just heading for the city's wall. She bent her head sidewards her gaze following him.
After he reached the cornflowers he bent down to pick one tenderly and strolled over to Temari again.
When she knew that he was going to give it to her she blushed and tried to escape not wanting to make their relationship obviously public.
Being Shikamaru he knew Temari wouldn't accept the flower in public so he pushed it carefully into his pocket and escorted her to a few meters outside Konoha. "I can't make you stay for tomorrow?"
She giggled knowing what he implied. "No you can't. You know that I cannot leave my brothers this long for themselves."
"Troublesome siblings." Denying policy and loyalty was good. It would hurt to much to tell the truth or hearing it of her. They both knew it. So why should they salt the wound?
"Sometimes they are. Next time I come around I hope you used something of your brain, genius."
"Can't promise, troublesome woman."
She smiled for him.
He smiled for her.
"Well then until next time." With that she turned around.
"Wait!" Shikamaru again stepped up to her his lips forming her name.
Startled Temari turned around again and suddenly she held the cornflower in her hands.
That was when their fingers had brushed each others for quite a long time again.
Now it was not only longing connecting them over miles but missing.
Not needing to foresee it they just knew it was going to be harsh from now on.
Being them they knew how to survive.
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A/N: Sooo (I should stop the "Sooo" I know) how did you like it? If somebody thinks it is to much fluff I can assure you it is very very important for the story. Anyway speak your mind to everything you might have in head reading this.
I started with the next two chapters. Momentary I have a few of problems at my study but I give my best at updating as fast as I can.
