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True Feelings

Light's P.O.V.

Well, another day has gone by.

Another day and I still don't understand my feelings; more namely, I don't understand MYSELF.

Misa came by to see me today, and to be perfectly honest, I didn't listen to a word that came out of that skank's mouth.

Something tells me that she just wants to sleep with me and nothing else. Not because she 'loves me' and all that love crap. Mostly, people get with me just to spend a night in my bed.

Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be with someone that would actually LOVE me for what I am, not because of my looks.

But I guess that would be next to impossible, wouldn't it?

Does love even exist in this world anymore, or do people just have sex for no reason?

The person may claim they love you, but right after you sleep with them, they leave and dispose of you like last year's trash.

I should know; it's happened to me more then once.

Just maybe...I might find someone, someone in this world...who wouldn't leave me after that.

I look over at the monitors again, just staring at them; like they would give me answers to my questions.

Of course, the fucking screen just stares back at me; like it is mocking the pain that I feel.

Ah, why the hell do I care about this anyway? I'm KIRA. I'm not SUPPOSED to feel LOVE or any sympathetic emotion.

But, why do I feel like this then?

"I don't think anything is going to happen with you having a staring match with the computer screen, Light-kun."

I jolt, surprised.

A hand is placed on my shoulder as if to calm me down. "It's just me. No one else."

I turn around...

And come face to face with YOU. "R-Ryuzaki?"

Ryuzaki's P.O.V.

You didn't notice me, that much is true.

But I noticed YOU, Light-kun. I noticed your pained stares at the computer monitor, like it would give you answers to a question that you don't understand.

I am still confused about yesterday; why you gave me the exact same pained stare that you are giving the computer screen right now.

I still wonder what I have done to evoke such strong emotions from you, Light-kun.

Before, you would just do your work, not giving anyone a second glance. But, after a few days, you begin to stare at me.

First with confusion, then it evolves into pain.

Pain for what?

That is a question that I have yet to find an answer to.

"Ryuzaki?"

Your voice brings me back to reality, and I look at you, your brown eyes filled with confusion. But the same pain is hidden well.

I still notice it though. It's become easy for me to see the hidden emotions in peoples' eyes.

Call it a natural talent, if you will.

I sit on a chair beside you, and you cock your head, the same confused look on your face.

"Why are you still here?" you ask, confusion in the tone.

"I thought I could run some more things in before I went to my room. What are you still doing here?"

You look down, your eyes becoming clouded; glazed, and the pain is easily read. "I...I'm not sure. I was going to leave, but then...I don't know why I'm still here."

That look is one of the most pain filled looks that I have ever seen. It is like you are hiding a grave secret; something that you can't tell anyone.

Does that secret pain you, Light-kun?

"If you need help with whatever you have to do, I don't mind." you say, the faintest trace of a smile on your lips.

"I would appreciate it." I reply, and you nod.

So, that is how the night ended, and I have yet to understand the feelings that I feel whenever I see you.

One day, I know I will understand them.

Also, I know that the pained look will be erased from your eyes forever.

Quick ending AN: This update is quicker then I would usually update, but I had free time on my hands, so this came along. I also know that this chapter isn't as great as the last. Hope you can bear with me on that.