A/N: I own nothing.

Rosalie's PoV

I thought about it. What did I want to hear from Jasper next?

"You mentioned that you weren't really too comfortable being open about your sexuality," I began, trying to figure out exactly how to phrase my question. "Didn't that get in the way of having an actual relationship with Edward?"

Jasper chuckled, "All the time. In fact, I kind of ruined our first date because of it."

Alice practically jumped out of her seat, "Oh my gosh the first date! Tell me about it!"

I rolled my eyes at her eagerness, but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't interested as well.

~~~~~Begin Flashback – Jasper's PoV~~~~~

Edward and I had been "dating" for two weeks now. I mean, if you could call it that. As much as I hated myself for it, I still couldn't even be the least bit open about our relationship. Edward didn't mind. Most of the time.

Sean had tried to drag me to a party last night, but I faked being sick until he agreed to go without me. The second he was gone I invited Edward over.

We hadn't kissed since the night we met, but that was mostly my fault. Edward had definitely tried again, but I always pushed him away. He tried to hide how much it hurt him, but I could see past it. Even when we were alone, I had this irrational fear that someone would see if I kissed him again and that was something I couldn't handle. I was beginning to wonder if this arrangement really was a good idea.

While we were talking last night he started whining about how we never had a first date. I cringed at the thought of being in public with my… boyfriend? I didn't think I had the right to call him that. Not yet anyway. I tried to talk him out of it; I even tried to insist that the night we met could be considered out first date. But he wasn't having any of it. He wanted to go on an "official date" and no amount of protesting was going to change that.

I sat up in bed and looked at the clock. It was already past noon and I had just gotten up. Edward and I had stayed up until four in the morning just talking. Sean stumbled back in around three but I knew him well enough to know that I could have had ten guys in here with me and he would've been too drunk to notice. I wondered briefly how he managed to get back here but figured one of his friends from the party brought him back. He was still sprawled out across his bed and I was in no hurry to wake him.

My thoughts went back to Edward's mention of a first date. I could tell by the way he talked about it that it was something that was really important to him. I'd never done anything like this before; I didn't even know where to start. But the one thing I did know was that this was something he really wanted, and I was going to do my best to make sure he got it.

Sean started to stir in his bed and an idea came to me. I considered myself a fairly intelligent man, but when it came to matters involving… well, anything to do with relationships, I would gladly defer to Sean. Against my better judgment, I decided to ask him for some of his incredible wisdom.

"Hey Sean, get up," I said, throwing a pillow at him. He raised his hand and flipped me off, rolling over on his other side. "Come on Sean, I need your advice."

As I expected, he shot up and stared at me. He loved giving advice, especially on topics he knew nothing about. But in this case I was hoping that my issue would be somewhere in his area of expertise, however small that area may be.

"And what can the great Sean help you with, o needy one?"

"What do you do on first dates?" I felt like an idiot. What twenty one year old didn't know that?

"No way! Did wittle Jasper finally find someone to go on a date with?" Sean had been trying to set me up with a girl since we had become roommates. I wonder what he would think if he knew that this wasn't for a girl at all.

I gave him the best death glare I could muster. His laughing must have meant it was working right?

"I'm kidding dude. Is it for that guy that was here last night?"

What. The. Fuck.

"W-what are you talking about? You were drunk, don't make up things and try to pass them off as true." My voice was shaking and even someone who knew nothing about the situation could have been able to tell I was lying. But I didn't know what else to do. I wasn't ready for anyone to know, let alone my roommate.

"I wasn't drunk last night man."

He was lying. He had to be. I watched him nearly fall on his face trying to get into bed. "But I saw-"

He cut me off. "I didn't drink much because you weren't there to drag my sorry ass back home. I unlocked the door and opened it and heard you talking to someone. I thought it might be a girl but then I heard a guy talking. After a couple seconds I figured it out and pretended to be drunk so you wouldn't get weirded out. I fell asleep on the spot anyway, I didn't hear much."

I was past freaking out now. I jumped out of bed and ran out the door, grabbing my shoes on the way. I heard Sean calling after me but I didn't care. I needed to get out of here now.

I left my dorm building fuming, and desperately needed an outlet. I practically ran over to Edward's dorm room and pounded on the door.

Edward opened the door and greeted me with his breathtaking smile. I momentarily lost track of what I was doing but quickly regained my composure. I pushed past him and walked in.

"Jasper, what's wrong?" I felt his hand on my shoulder as I leaned over his desk. I felt the warmth and comfort that only came from his touch, but I didn't want comfort right now. I turned and swatted it off of me, ignoring the hurt expression on his face.

"Sean knows," I seethed out.

"Sean knows what?" Edward was hurt and confused, and I wasn't even thinking clearly enough to feel bad about it. He should feel bad. It was his fault anyway.

"He wasn't drunk last night. He knows about us." I turned to look at Edward.

He grew a little wide eyed and sat on the edge of the bed and watched me, staying silent. I grew angrier with every moment that passed by. I wasn't sure what I expected from him. But I needed something.

"Fucking say something," I practically yelled as I threw my hands up in the air.

"What do you want me to say? That I'm sorry? Because I'm not sorry that I spent time with you." Edward maintained a look of defiance mixed with something else that I couldn't quite place.

"If you weren't there he wouldn't have fucking found out! It's because of you that he knows!" I knew I wasn't being reasonable, but I didn't care.

He pulled his knees up to his chest and wrapped his arms around them. I almost felt bad seeing him curled up into a little ball, but I was still incredibly angry.

"What did he say to you?" I heard Edward ask quietly. I had to think for a moment before responding.

"I asked him this morning what you're supposed to do on a first date and he asked if it was for you. He told me that he wasn't drunk last night and figured out what was going on."

"Was he mad?" I could hear his voice straining and I could tell he was on the verge of tears.

"Well… no he didn't seem mad. He sounded like he was just asking and then I left before…"

Fuck. Sean hadn't said one word to indicate that he wasn't okay with this, and I got angry about nothing and took it out on Edward. It wasn't his fault at all. It was my fault for being a fucking idiot.

I sighed and sat down next to him. I felt a pang in my chest as I heard him crying.

"Fuck babe, I'm sorry," I said as I wrapped my hand around his shoulders. "I shouldn't have taken that out on you, it just caught me off guard and I freaked out."

He stopped crying after a minute but didn't move. He remained in his balled up position and didn't even cuddle up into me. I never imagined that something could hurt this much. My boy was right next to me hurting and he wouldn't let me help him. Serves me right though.

"Edward, I'm sorry, please talk to me," I begged. I couldn't take the silent treatment from him.

"Jasper, I'm trying to be patient but I can't handle you acting like this from just one person finding out." His voice was still strained and it killed me to know that I was the cause of it.

"I…" I didn't know what to say. I knew he was right but I wasn't ready to come out and tell the world yet. As much as I was trying to work on it, the thought of being judged for that was something I wasn't ready to deal with yet.

"You don't have to go and tell everyone, but please talk to Sean about it. If he had a problem with it, he would have brought it up right away."

I thought about it for a moment. I guess the hard part was out of the way since Sean already knew. Whether or not I talked to him about it wouldn't change that. And since he didn't seem to have a problem it yet, I really didn't have anything to lose.

"I will, I promise. Forgive me?" I added a pout to the end. I mean, that worked with girls, so that should work on him too right?

My momentary panic was brought to an end when Edward leaned in to me and sighed. We stayed in that exact position for the better part of an hour before my phone rang.

"Aren't you gonna get that?" Edward asked as he reached around me to try to get the phone in my pocket.

"Don't wanna," I murmured as I tightened my grip on his shoulders. Sitting here like this with him felt so right, I didn't ever want to let him go. It wasn't until I felt him tense up in my grasp that I pulled away to look at him.

My phone had stopped ringing by now but Edward handed me the phone to show me that it was Sean who called.

"You should talk to him," Edward said quietly as he looked down at the floor. I knew he was still feeling a little uneasy from our fight earlier.

"Hey, look at me," I told him, lifting his chin up so that I was looking directly into his beautiful green eyes. I opened my mouth to speak but the look in his eyes left me speechless. I couldn't quite make out what I saw in his expression. It was the same thing that I saw when I walked in earlier. I'd have to ask him about that.

Before I was able to say anything else, Edward cut me off by gently brushing his lips across mine. I moved closer to deepen the kiss but he pulled away from me and put a finger on my lips.

"Later, after you talk to Sean okay?" He asked slyly.

I knew what his game was. I knew he was trying to bribe me into talking to Sean. I don't like being played. Too bad I wasn't thinking with my brain at the moment.

I readily agreed after a few minutes when I realized that I wasn't going to get anywhere with my pouty faces. We made plans to see each other the next day. As I walked back to my dorm room I prepared myself for the most difficult conversation I was ever going to have.

As I climbed the stairs to my floor I silently prayed that Sean wouldn't be there. I turned the door handle to find it unlocked, indicating that the universe hated me, as usual.

As soon as I opened the door, Sean got up from his desk and walked up to me. He had a concerned look on his face.

"You alright man?"

My nerves had gotten the better of me and I was unable to do anything but nod my head. I pushed past him and flopped down on my bed, just wanting to disappear. "Let's get this over with."

He sat down on his bed and faced me. "Get what over with?"

I gave him my death glare and he chuckled. Clearly that look needed some work.

"Jasper, I don't care that you like guys."

"But…?" There's always a "but" isn't there? I waited while he looked at me with a confused expression. I was ready to yell at him for lying to me, but I quickly remembered what happened just an hour ago when I jumped to conclusions.

"But nothing man. That's it."

This was too good to be true. My roommate, who had probably slept with enough girls to fill a small country, was okay with me being gay?

"I don't understand," I said, sitting up now.

"What's not to understand? You love who you love, I'm not gonna judge you for that."

I searched his face for any signs that he was lying to me, but all I saw was complete sincerity.

"So, what's this about a first date?" Leave it to Sean to completely change the subject. I told him that Edward had wanted to go out on an "actual date" and we ended up discussing ideas for hours. He eventually had to go meet up with some people and I was left alone in my room.

I thought about asking Edward to come over but I needed some time to myself to think. I couldn't believe how smoothly the conversation with Sean had gone. I always thought that if he found out, he'd hate me. I just assumed that he would end out friendship on the spot. I never for a moment expected him to be so… accepting.

For the first time in my life, I started thinking seriously about telling my parents. I knew all too well that my parents weren't the most open minded people around, but today's events made me realize that I didn't want to live a lie anymore. I always felt like I had to act and I was tired of being someone I wasn't.

I decided I'd talk to Edward about that too.

~~~~~End Flashback~~~~~

Rosalie's PoV

I had never really thought about how hard it must be for a person to tell the people they're close to that they're gay. I mean, I never really saw it as a big deal. But then again, not everyone thinks the same way.

"So where's Sean now?" Alice asked. She had been on the edge of her seat during the entire story.

"He moved to Texas a few years ago. We keep in touch though; he has remained one of my best friends over the years," Jasper answered with a smile.

"I don't see how you could have gone on a date with him with the kind of mentality you had," I told him, crossing my arms. I suppose my comment might have been rude, but let's face it; he was kind of a jerk to Edward.

"Oh yeah you didn't get to the date!" Alice practically screamed.

"It wasn't the most… pleasant experience, I'll admit to that," Jasper said with a chuckle. He looked out the window and I followed his gaze. The weather had taken a turn for the worse, and what was just light snow earlier turned into a near blizzard.

He turned back to us and said, "Well, it most certainly looks like we'll have time for that story."