I pulled away flushed and scattered. 'I really have to go.' And before I know I was walking, almost running away.
'Liza slow down, we'll get a taxi.' He had caught up to me and grabbed my arm leading me over to the sidewalk and hailing a cab. Opening the door for me and beckoning me in before him, As he walked around to the other side I just tried to collect myself for the hundredth time today. Getting in and looking straight into my eyes he asked 'please let me take you out tonight, we have so many things more to discuss.'
Taking only a few seconds to debate weather this was a good idea or not I finally said 'I don't know Charles.' Well that was useful...
'Liza you can't just kiss me like that and we not do any thing about it.' He pleaded.
'It was just a kiss.' Before I knew it the words where out, his own words after the first kiss.
'It was never just a kiss Liza, your all I've thought about since we first met. I just... sometimes shut down when I get emotional and scared.' He paused. 'When you didn't meet me at the Carlelile, I told myself I had to pretend it didn't mean anything. But we'll it did, and when you thought you needed to explain yourself, I just got defensive... Why didn't you come?'
Hesitating know the reason to didn't show was actually seeing him talking to Roses parents a friend of my daughter Caitlin. But i sort of had the excuse of Kelsey needed me, she had only message just as i left the restaurant.
'You don't have to say if you don't want to. I understand.' He said sadly looking at his hands.
'No its.. I did come Charles.' I decided to tell him the second part of the night still evading the real reason and to why i didn't come meet him. He looked at me with surprise. 'I had just gotten to the restaurant when I got a urgent message from Kelsey she needed me, Thad had just died and I told her I would be there day or night.'
'Is that what you where trying to tell me. Ughhh and I shut you down the next morning.' He could even look at me he was so annoyed with himself. 'I'm sorry I was rude Liza, I wish I had just let you finish.'
'It's fine.' The cab pulled up to the curb and as I went to get out he grabbed my hand.
'Please dinner tonight?' He begged.
'Okay, I'll come talk to you before I leave tonight.' I promised. He smiled and I got out of the cab and made my way to the office preparing myself for the wrath of Dianna.
He followed me and as we both got in the elevator he gave me a knowing smile. I stood next to him this time hoping he could keep his hands to himself.
As I entered Diana's office she seemed relaxed even though it was 1.40pm. 'Liza, guess what!?' As I opened my mouth to speak she interrupted me. 'I've just been asked to interview for the New Yorker to talk about P is for Pigeon.' Snatching the salad out of Liza's hand and began to eat.
'That's great Dianna congratulations!' I said excitingly
'Now go and make sure everything's ready for my 2pm meeting.'
At my desk I sit down and focus on everything on my todo list making sure Diana's meeting room is all set up and stocked with refreshments. By the time I give myself a moment to breath it's already 6.15. Diana fluster past me on her way out 'goodnight Liza.' Looking around almost everyone has gone home. Kelsey left at 5 to meet for drinks with a aspiring author for millennial. So just me, I bite the bullet and head to Charles office. Pausing at the door about to knock the door opens.
'Liza, I was just coming to see if you'd left. It was getting late I thought you might have had second thoughts.' He said with a slight smile of delight.
'I was just about to knock.' Well like that wasn't obvious I reddened with embarrassment.
'Please come in.' He gestured towards the couch. I walk in sitting on the couch once again feeling slightly flustered. 'Drink?' He says while pouring himself a scotch.
'Sure.' Sitting there feeling so anxious. I should have spoken to Kelsey. Let her know how I really felt. 'Charles there's something I need to tell you.'
'Before you do please can I say something?' He asked without waiting for a answer he continued 'Liza I know you said before that there are just two many things in our way, and I know that they are all my issues. I get that I'm to old for you, I have 2 children and I'm your boss. So I understand that you might not feel the same what I do. And that's fine but I want you in my life, in whatever what you'll have me. Friend, colleges or something more. We can do what every this is on your terms.' He finished nervously waiting for an answer.
'Charles the only one of those things is a issue for me. You aren't the reason for the things in our way. I love your girls and your age doesn't bother me. But you are my boss.' I can't even look at him as I'm saying these things. He comes over and sits next to me on the couch. Lifting my head up from my chin so I'm looking at him.
'Liza you are the most amazing person I know.'
Standing up so he can't touch me I don't need to be distracted. 'You don't know me Charles that's my problem. I haven't been 100% honest with you.'
'I don't care Liza. Nothing can change how I feel about you.' He promised. Looking at her with such worry.
'How would you know. If I came out and said something crazy it might change your whole opinion of me.' I started passing back and forth across the office. He stood up and grabbed me on the top of my arms.
'Unless you're a murderer then I think I'll be able to forgive anything you tell me.' He said with a slight chuckle. Then he kissed me. Pausing slightly, I shouldn't be doing this... fuck it. He said he would forgive me. Throwing my self more into the kiss it was like he took it as a win. His hand moving down my waist my hands in his hair. I don't think I've ever wanted someone so much. And as that thought crossed my mind I pulled away.
'Charles, we can't do this.' I backed away from him up against the bookcase behind me. 'You deserve better. You have been through so much this past year. You deserve honesty.'
'Then tell me! Talk to me Liza I will do my best to understand!' He said with complete frustration in his voice.
'I can't.' I say with tears welling in my eyes threatening to fall over. 'It's so much bigger than me. It will ruin everything. I'm sorry Charles.' I speed out of the room and down the hall way stopping at my desk to grab my things. I make it to the lift stabbing the button furiously and the silent tears that treated earlier spill out and run furiously down my face. His hand is on mine stopping me before I brake the button.
'I'll let you go if you can honestly tell me you don't want this, that you don't want to be with me. You have no feelings for me.' He paused hoping for the answer he wanted.
'Charles please.' I pleased with him torn between my feelings and hurting him. The ping sounded as the lift arrived.
'No. Tell me Liza.' He demanded.
'I can't do that.' I whisper. The lift closed behind me.
'That's All I needed.' He whispered back. Both of us lunging for the kiss. Pressing me against the lift we kissed furiously. Weaving our fingers through each other's hair, exploring each other's body's. He picked me up and I wrapped my legs around his waist. Carrying me back to his office we didn't part our lips once. Placing me on the couch on my back I pulled at his tie trying to loosen it with no luck he sits up pulling it off and looking at me with Carnel appreciation. I grab his shirt pulling myself up to kiss him and twisting myself onto his lap.
'Are you sure, I'm literally telling you I'm lying to you.' I say hoping he is sure.
'Liza, youre what I've wanted for months, I can explain how happy I am to hear you feel something for me. We all have seacrets and I trust you'll tell me when you're ready. Please don't let that get in the way of us.' Begging me to stay put.
I give him a peck and stand up. He sighs and his head drops looking at his lap. I walk over to the window behind his desk and close the blinds the noise makes him lift his head to see what's happening. I then move over to the door lean my back against it never loosing eye contact and press the lock on the door. His expression changes for disappointment to excitement. Seductively, well as much and I can awkwardly manage I start to walk towards him. He is looking so sexy with his shirt in buttoned and hair all over the place from me running my fingers through it. Before I get to him he has reached out and grabbed me pulling me on top of him. Both Laughing we both let go, just doing what we both seemed to have been denying ourselves for months. It feels so good just letting go and allowing myself to be with a man I have such a connection with.
Straddling him I finish unbuttoning his shirt, his hands exploring under my loose flowing top. Kissing down my neck it felt amazing like no one has ever kissed me before. I take his shirt off and the lifts up my top. His eyes scan up and down my body and before returning to my eyes. 'You're just so beautiful Liza.' He croons.
Stroking his chest I move my hands down to his pants undoing his top button. He doesn't resist. But I'm so nervous. I've never done anything like this before let alone with my boss. He feels my hesitation and kisses me with more passion like he is trying to I urge me on. His hands leave my neck and make there way down my back, down my legs before making there way back up under my skirt. Kissing down my neck to my chest I look up to the ceiling as he starts to kiss my breasts while his hands explore under my skirt. And that's it I'm lost I just go for it.
