Midday

Jane drove to her apartment with her head completely spinning. "What just happened?" She finally reached her destination and quickly headed up the stairs hoping to get a moment to figure all this out.

She opened her fridge, immediately grabbed a bear, and headed for her couch. Jo Friday joined her snuggling into her side. "Maura just kissed me on the cheek." Jo Friday looks up at her almost like she has the ability to understand exactly what is going on.

Jane's inner monologue continued for what seemed like an eternity.

Did that really happen? What did it really mean? Does she have feelings for me? Is this what I want?... And there is the main question, Jane. Is this what I want?

She smiles so big it almost makes her start giggling.

Of course this is what I want. She is everything I want. Why am I so scared? Why did I walk away? O ya, because I am a scared loser. Pull yourself together, Rizzoli. This is Maura we are talking about. She is your best friend. You spend all your time with her already. She is who you want when you are hurt. She is who you think about all the time. She is who you want to keep safe. She is….She just is. And that is all that matters. I love her...period. I am such an idiot. I just walked away from the one person I love. I have to fix this.

Jane looked at the clock on the wall, "She should be home by now." She grabbed her keys and headed out the door.

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Maura sat on her own couch in her big, empty house staring at her glass of red wine. She had left the office not too long after Jane did; she needed to get away and be alone. As soon as she arrived home she got out of the dress she had been in and went for her comfy heartbroken look. She sat there in yoga pants and an oversized sweat shirt.

I can't believe I did that today. I can't believe she walked away. When will I learn that people always walk away. That will teach me for sure. I mean it was just a kiss on the cheek. I didn't profess my undying love, though I could, but then she would probably never speak to me again. What is she so afraid of; I mean I am scared too! That was a risk I took today, but I had to know. Jane is so loyal, fierce, and stubborn. I wish she would just open her eyes and see what I see. She is amazing, always looking out for others and me, and she is dependable. I love her. But today Jane Rizzoli you broke me.

The doctor continued to sit there on her couch going back and forth between beating herself up and being upset at her best friend. She was brought out of her thoughts by a small knock on the door and a voice that was unmistakable.

"Maura, open the door please."