A Little Part of Me

Summary: He has to show her that he cares, even if it hurts her… InuYasha takes two things from Kagome that day; one is the jewel shards and the other she can never get back. Too bad he gave her something as well… KagInu

Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha and company, or do I?!?!?! Nope, just the storyline.

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...I think that's it, if not, you can figure it out…I'm sure you're intelligent enough!

I'm really sorry for the wait in the update. I don't think I like this chapter as well as the last one, but let's just see what you think. I want to thank all of you who reviewed and read this story. It means so much to me. Thanks again!!!

Much Luv,

Shel


Previously:

"Kagome, I'm never going to leave you, if nothing else, I promise you that."

Her eyes remain dry despite the sorrow filling her heart. She knows that she should be happy, for his words are sincere, but it's not easy recovering from getting raped. Especially if the one who caused you harm is the one you love with all your heart.


Chapter 2: The Strength to Trudge Onward

The hanyou is still holding on to Kagome's waist. InuYasha stares into her deep brown eyes, searching for the sparkle that always welcomes him, but there is none. All that is left are two empty holes blankly returning his gaze.

After a long moment of dead silence, Kagome's voice rings through the damp cave, "Don't make promises that you can not keep, I don't think that my heart can take anymore."

He is dumbfounded, but soon finds his speech. "What the hell is your problem? If I haven't left you by now, what makes you think that I'm going to leave you at all?"

Steam starts to build up in Kagome's fragile body, her blank expression quickly transforming into sheer anger. She longs to lash out on the half-demon that was once her love, but she settles for a stoic tone. "How dare you say that to me. Of all people, you talk about leaving. I wish you did leave, and I pray that you will. All the times you went running off to her, let's just add this one to the list. I don't want you here." She tries to push him away, but he will have none of that.

"I've never left you and I never will. Get used to it." He whispers into her ear, sending shivers up her spine…

Kagome tries to hide her now bare body, but all of her attempts are hopeless. Every time she goes to cover her self, he swats away her hands.

"Don't hide yourself; you don't know how long I've been waiting for this." He grins, examining her naked body with hunger.

He rubs two of his fingers along her lower half, one on each side of her opening. Her juices pour from her invaded being and her back arches. This causes his seductive smirk to widen.

"So you do want me, surprise surprise," he remarks, bittersweet sarcasm gracing his voice. His head inches towards her left ear and he whispers "Don't worry bitch, I'll take you soon enough. You seem to want me almost as much as I you. That's a good thing, you better get used to it."

His hot breath graces her ear, making her body yearn for him even more. He backs off and begins taking off is white shirt…

He firmly holds on to her waist, not allowing her to leave his grasp. She knows it is no use fighting him. He will always overpower her, always. But she needs to get away from him, if only for a moment.

The hanyou notices the disturbed expression covering Kagome's face. "Kagome, what's wrong?"

I don't know, let's just start with you raping me, then we'll go from there. "Nothing," she lies.

"I know something is wrong. Just tell me what it is."

Suddenly, an idea strikes her. "I'm hungry."

Guilt rushes through his entire being as InuYasha curses himself for not noticing his mate's need for nourishment. "What would you like?"

"Kaede's special herbal soup, I'll wait here while you fetch it." Her voice is distant, but then again, it has to be. Any emotion in her tone will set off his senses and alert him of her plan.

He nods a quick yes, and pecks her on the lips. She cringes at his touch.

He looks down upon his mate. She is stiff in his arms just as though she is trying to numb away the pain of his hold. He does not understand what's wrong with her. They are together, how can anything be amiss? He doesn't have a clue, poor naive soul.

Knowing that he shouldn't leave her while she's in this state, he questions "Are you going to be okay when I'm gone?"

"Yes," is her blunt reply.

His head descends for another quick peck, but this time she turns her own head away so that his lips only meet her silky, raven hair. Reluctantly, he pulls away from her and begins leaving the cave. He looks back at her once he reaches the cave's mouth and gives her a small smile before disappearing off of the ledge.

Kagome runs over and watches the red blur disappear in the distance. Now she can escape, but she doesn't have much time. She must work quickly or he will surely catch her. She shutters. If he can cause so much damage in one night when she has done nothing to anger him, imagine what he will do when he is furious. Then again, maybe it's best to not think about it.

Carefully, she begins descending the cliff. Rock by rock, she climbs down. The distance between her and the ground becomes smaller and smaller, but unforgiving none-the-less. If she falls, it will not be pretty. Of course, she loses her footing.

She quickly slides down the slope of the rocks, hitting ever sharp edge on her way to the bottom. Luckily, all of her adventures with InuYasha fighting demons has toughened her once fragile skin. She probably will not receive permanent bruises from this fall, but she isn't too sure about the bruises resulting from the night before. Most of the wounds bore deep down, too profound for her to even wish they can ever heal. She can survive the physical abrasions, but the sores in her soul are gradually tearing her apart.

Hitting one last rock, she receives a slash in her leg before colliding with the ground. Blood seeps through the wound, but it is nothing compared to the gash in her heart.

She sits on the soft grass, fighting the tears that are now threatening her eyes. Her heart cries out for her lover, but it's all in vain. Even if he does come to help her, what good will result from it? He no longer is the strong fortress that she sought shelter in so many times before. No, in one night her castle collapsed and crumpled down to rubble. How can she ever forgive him? That's easy, she can't. Not after what he did. She gazes back up at the unforgiving cave where her life had ceased to exist…

His pants slip the floor, reveling a greatly aroused part of himself. She can't look, so she closes her eyes, but a part of her desires to see. She needs to know how to brace herself, how much pain she will be experience. No matter how much she fights, her eyes keep popping open. While her mind is screaming "No!", her body is shouting otherwise. She wants him, needs him, craves him.

"No I don't!" she mentally hollers, but deep down, she knows it's true. She has wanted him since the day she meet him. Oh that fateful day! One day she had hoped he would love her as she does him, but not like this. This is not how it's supposed to be. Her first time is supposed to be special, unforgettable. Well, at least she gets part of what she wants; this night will surely be one that she never forgets.

Her body growls in disapproval when he lowers himself onto her. It wants to gaze upon his nakedness, or rather a specific part of it, but he won't allow her that pleasure.

Kagome ends the battle with her physical being, there is no use. She gives up trying to close her eyes in an attempt to make the invasion less agonizing. Her body is calling for him, and he's going to answer. There's no denying the inevitable.

She searches the ceiling in hope of any sign that everything will be alright, but she finds only a cold, damp, unforgiving cave. She curses her body for demanding to see her lover's size. After all, he will soon be inside of her, where she can experience his length…

Now only a shell of her previous self, she makes her way to the stream, aware of the faint line of blood trailing behind her. But, she doesn't stop. She needs to reach the stream because he will surely lose her sent once she enters the water. All she has to do is make her way to the Bone-Eaters Well. From there, she will be okay.

But I can not go home. InuYasha has taken the jewel shards from her, just as easily as he has stolen her virginity. She accepts the harsh reality, but she isn't going to let that set-back stand in her way. She is strong; wise enough to except defeat, but determined in such a way that she will never give in, never give up. She will keep trudging onward. But isn't that what strength truly is? It's not the physical strength that vein creatures flaunt off. No, it's so much more. It's the power to realize your boundaries, but continue to persevere despite the odds. She has strength, it's undeniable, but that's about all that is left of the woman she was just yesterday.

Slowly she pushes herself off of the hard ground and limps over to the flow of water. Even if she can never return home, just being by the portal to her family and friends should be enough to calm her down enough to think. Or, at least that's what she hopes.

She stops in front of the stream, partly wishing that it can cleanse the dirty memories away, but she is not that naive. She knows the scares on her soul will forever endure, it is her cross to bear.

She slips into the frigid water, the liquid engulfing her shattered body…

"InuYasha…" Hearing the sound of his name, InuYasha can't hold it any longer. Soon Kagome is coated in a thick layer of slimy liquid. His being trickles down her sides, flowing from her delicate skin onto the ground beneath her. Blood red fades into burgundy as the fluid stains his top, her only cushion in this realm of grief.

He backs away from her face, making sure to slide his body over hers, his tongue gracing between her breasts on the way down. Once he reaches the spot of his spill, he quickly begins lapping it up, tasting not only the slimy texture of his own release, but also the sweetness of her invaded being.

His mess is cleaned up and he moves back up to her face once again. No emotion shows in her eyes as he thrusts his tongue into her mouth so that she too can enjoy the sensation of his fluid's flavor…

She doesn't have time to dawn on the past, so she slips the memories to the back of her mind. She forces her way upstream, cringing at ever particle of salt that caresses her open wound. Her leg stings from the water's impact, but she trudges onward. She's a woman on a mission, nothing is going to get in her way.

Eventually, Kagome feels the spiritual pull of the hateful object that started it all, the Bone-Eater's Well. Reluctantly she lifts herself up the riverbank, knowing that she is in the midst of creating a path for InuYasha to follow her. But somehow, that doesn't matter anymore. The well's pull is great, just as though it is drawing her towards it's now useless core.

Slipping through the monstrous trees in InuYasha's forest, she stops dead in her tracks. There it is, the well that had brought her into this world but can never take her back. Once again, tears threaten her eyes, but she's not weak. She will not give in. When InuYasha comes for her there is no way that she is going to present him with the satisfaction of her defeat. She will die before she lets that happen.

Slowly she continues making her way towards the well. It also seems to be sorrowful, just as though it can feel her soul's grief. But this ache is hers, and hers alone. No one will ever be able to understand, and the harsh reality stings, but it's true. She's been invaded and betrayed, but a part of her still…still…

"NO!" Kagome screams, breaking the serenity of the woods around her. She looks down into the well, now only a black obis. It's useless, and she knows it, but one last time, what can it hurt?

She leaps, and flinches, waiting for the impact. None comes.

Instead, the well pulsates. Immediately, Kagome is engulfed in deep blue light. She thinks she's dreaming. It's not possible. It can't be happening. Yet somehow, it is. Kagome closes her eyes, fearing that this is all some joke; some evil, cruel joke. Or maybe she's dying, at least her heartache would cease then…

Urges overpower him, clouding his mind. She's his, now and forever more. Just the thought arouses him. He can't wait until she is ready for another round, he has to take her now.

In no time he's in her. Not even giving her time to adjust, he begins thrusting with all his demonic might. With every shove, she is getting pushed into the firm wall of the cave. Her intensive passionate side doesn't even have time to enjoy. Before she can even register what's happening, Kagome is knocked out cold…

Kagome blinks a few times, finally releasing her eyes from being glued together. She examines her new surroundings only to discover that she is in her own time, 500 years after the dreaded night.

She doesn't have the jewel shards, so she shouldn't have been able to get through. But, here she is. How is this possible?

At the moment Kagome probably is more willing to accept death over her fate that she is now only beginning to comprehend.

There's only way I could have gotten through the well. Just the thought makes all the events of last night look tame. I thought I have suffered enough, apparently, I was wrong. Terribly wrong.


Well, there's Chapter 2!!! Did you like it? Please review...and please don't hate me. I won't be able to update for a while. This week is just hectic with school, maybe this weekend I'll finish Chapter 3 and post it, but I can't make any promises.

(Just to let you know, events are going to start to change in the story. I'm just warning you. It's not anything bad, but there will probably not be as many flashbacks in the other chapters...I'm sorry.)

When you guys review, would you mind putting in how you think she got through the well? I wonder if any of you have figured it out...

Thank you so much for reading!

Much luv,

Shel