A/N: I was meant to update 2 days, but SeaWorld was calling my name :) And then we drove back to Sydney yesterday, so there was no real way I could type and drive at the same time. Safely that is.

YAY! SEASON 5 TOMORROW (or later today for some of you) soooooo excited!

Hope you enjoy!


What had she been saying before? Kate's mind was vacant except for him and what he was doing to her. Castle's mouth was on hers, hungry and fervent; and Kate couldn't remember where she was or what they had been talking about five seconds ago. Somewhere along the way - after she had gotten over her shock - started kissing him back, wrapping her arms around his neck loosely.

All she could truly register was Rick. His cologne had her head spinning as his lips slid over hers. He tasted like scotch and coffee, and that intoxicating something that was entirely Richard Castle, that she couldn't help but moan into him. He took that as consent and his tongue entered her mouth. He was addictive and God, she wanted him right now. She had wanted him from that first taste of what could have been; the first kiss they had shared. So what, if it was in a warehouse parking lot, with a bad guy watching them. So what, if it was on a case and they were doing it only to save Ryan and Esposito's butts. He had literally taken the words out of her mouth: amazing.

Fantasies had spawned from that way too short kiss; good fantasies, that had woken her up panting in the middle of the night – who was she kidding, they were fantastic! – but the thrill of being on an OP and making out with Castle had been diminished because she was still dating Josh. But this, right now? This was amazing all over again, just multiply that amazing by one hundred.

Kate's heart was about to beat straight out of her chest, heat radiated through her, tingles coursed from her lips to the tips of her fingers and toes. This was much more than their first, much more than any kiss she'd ever shared with anyone; much more than some of the sex she'd had. Why had she been saying no for all these years?

Because you lied to him.

Because you're not ready.

Because you don't want to put him, Alexis or Martha in danger from the guy who wants to kill her.

The thought hit her like a bucket of cold water. She should stop this; stop his wonderful attack on her lips. How is that a fun idea? She asked herself.

A moan escaped his lips this time, making her forget what she was supposed to do. She had made Rick Castle moan! The fangirl inside of her was doing a little backflip, but the woman side just did an entire gymnastic routine, because quite frankly, there is nothing sexier than hearing someone moan quite like that because of you. The sound was filled with breathy desire and need, and Kate found herself wrapping her arms just that little bit tighter around his neck and pushing up on her toes, trying to get closer to him.

Kate wanted nothing more than to trail her tongue along his jaw, kissing his neck while stripping him down to nothing so she had a clear path to lick down his body. But she didn't trust herself enough to detach from Castle's delectable lips and not have them betray her by speaking; saying something she'd regret.

But she had to. Kate needed to get this out and to tell him. they couldn't spend every second for the rest of their lives kissing each other; not matter how much she wanted that.

And maybe - just maybe - he'd undertstand and they could get on with filling up her apartment with moans and sighs and a lot of pleasure.

She found her resolve, and was about to pull away, when he bit her lip and she gave in again; giving back as good as she got and all consuming heat inside her increased. Rick's tongue swirled around hers, making her traitorous knees buckle. Her arms wrapped just a little tighter around him, desperately hanging on so she didn't fall. Kate could feel the small smile pull at the corner of his lips as he kept kissing her, thrusting his tongue a little more bravely into her mouth. Rick's arms wrapped around her waist, pulling her flush against him and slipping under her shirt, making her skin tingle. A shiver ran through both of them simultaneously, and neither of them bothered to cover up how affected they were by the other.

Her fingers ran through his hair; that hair that was always so perfect except when they woke up on the mattress. How she had ached to run her fingers through it then, and now smiled as she got her wish. He felt the smile on her lips and his arms wrapped around her waist pulling her closer into his body. He let out a small growl as she sucked on his lip.

A few more moments went by and they were still attached at the mouth; both moaning and revelling in the fact that this was actually happening. Before she knew it, her hands were wandering, fingering the buttons on his shirt, feeling the desire to rip the offending piece of clothing off him again, closely followed by every other article of material he wore.

You have to tell him, a little voice coaxed her. Usually it was Lanie's voice she heard in her head; this time it was her mother's.

Kate tried to pull away but Castle held her closer to his body; never wanting to let go of her. She gave in for a few seconds more, trying to find courage in his mouth so she could pull away and tell him what she needed to. At least that's what she bargained with herself. Her body melted into his again as their lips slowed down, sinking into each other, lazily kissing. Kate could get used to his lips sliding over hers, coaxing moans from her mouth.

Do it now, Katie, her mother's voice scolded. You can have more of this when once you've told him the truth.

Kate pushed at him harder this time, and let go of his bottom lip that she had been biting. She only pushed him hard enough that his lips left hers and he still had his arms linked around her. His breath was hot on her forehead, panting; hers on his neck doing the same. Neither of them looked at each other for the moment. She couldn't have looked him in the eye at the moment anyway, otherwise she would have launched herself on him again, taking him to the bedroom and having her wicked way with him.

Kate clutched to the shirt she wanted on the floor of her apartment, trying to compose herself before telling him. She didn't want to, though. He would see it as a betrayal, and that's what it was; a betrayal of everything they had been through, everything they shared, all of the love they had. She was going to tell him she heard what he said at the cemetery. She was going to tell him she was unconditionally sorry and beg for his forgiveness because she can't live without him. She was going to tell him she loves him too; with every fibre of her being.

But it seems he got there first. He always did.

'I know you lied to me, Kate.' He breathed into her hair.

Her heart stopped in that instant.


A/N: I'm evil, I know. I like my cliffhangers, because its much more fun to drag it out, than get to the good part straight off. I agree with Stana, there is nothing sexier than sword play :P

I've also been asked if the story could go 'M'. I'm leaving that up to you guys. So far it isn't, but there's room for it, so I can add it to this story or post the saucy chapter by itself into the 'M' rating, so let me know :)

Let me know of any mistakes.

Reviews give me a happy.