It was Thanksgiving break. Back in Lima, Ohio. Quinn sat alone in her bedroom, which felt like someone else's place. She lied down and closed her eyes. She lied there thinking about only one thing. Rachel. Did she come back home too? I wonder if she's thinking about me right now. Maybe I should call her. Maybe not. When she opened her eyes after a short nap, she forgot where she was. She couldn't believe living away from home would be so disorienting in so many different ways.
Her mom knocked on the door. "You hungry, Quinnie? We're going to Breadsticks for dinner."
"Okay, I'll be downstairs in five minutes." Quinn pulled herself up out of bed, groaning. She brushed her teeth and fixed her hair and put some lipstick on. She put on a new pair of jeans and a white tee shirt, and headed downstairs.
At the restaurant, her parents quizzed her about school and picking a major, and her future. She got through it with the most political correctness as possible. She hadn't picked a major yet and her parents were pushing the issue. She needed a break, so she excused herself to the bathroom.
Quinn opened the door to the rest room, walked over to the sinks and looked at herself in the mirror. She played with her hair, and put some eyeliner on. She was really just trying to find something to do so she didn't have to go back out there and defend her indecisiveness.
She was caught in thought about school. Maybe Philosophy. Maybe Journalism. She wasn't really sure. She had to take more classes. Then she heard a flush sound and the door to bathroom stall opened. Quinn paid no attention to it, until she saw Rachel's glowing face appear in the mirror. She dropped her makeup in the sink, fumbling to pick it up.
Rachel chuckled awkwardly. "Hi, Quinn." She looked down at the ground before picking her head back up. She washed her hands carefully.
Quinn put her makeup back in her purse. She gulped down the lump in her throat. "Rachel. Hi." She was drawing a blank on what to say next. Rachel threw away her paper towel and stood there awkwardly waiting for Quinn to say something more. She wanted her to apologize, but wondered whether she should go first.
"Rach, I'm sorry I didn't call. I'm really sorry. I've been busy, you know, with school. Adjusting and stuff." Quinn said. Rachel nodded her head the whole time Quinn spoke.
"Oh yeah, me too. I'm sorry I didn't call. I just couldn't find the right weekend. There was always something to do." Quinn nodded her head in agreement. They both agreed a little too much.
Quinn took a moment then picked her head up to stare at Rachel in the eyes. She knew they both were feeling guilty. What she really wanted was to grab Rachel, kiss her, and tell her she missed her. But instead, she took a step closer to her and brushed the hair out of her face. Rachel closed her eyes as Quinn rested her palm on her cheek. Rachel placed her hand over Quinn's, and her heart ached. When she opened her eyes, a glint of moisture had formed. Rachel hoped Quinn didn't notice, but of course she did. There was a long moment of silence between them.
"Can I come over tonight?" Quinn said as her thumb stroked Rachel's face. Her lustful stare shot right through Rachel.
Quinn took her palm away, but stayed close. Rachel nodded her head. It was hard to speak, so her voice slightly shook. "Yeah, later tonight. My dads will be home, but they won't mind. Stop by any time." Rachel swallowed, and the gulp echoed in the room. She licked her lips as she stared into Quinn's eyes, then at her lips.
Quinn leaned in and brushed her lips lightly against Rachel's, then with one arm, pulled Rachel in by the waist. She kissed Rachel's neck, brushed her bottom lip up against her skin, until she got to her jaw line, then reaching her lips again, very gently kissed her. She licked her lips. Rachel's breathing began to shake. She put her arms around Quinn and pressed their lips together harder, parting their lips with her tongue. She swiftly darted her tongue inside Quinn's mouth, hungrily caressing Quinn's tongue, whimpering softly, but Quinn stopped the kiss before it got too heated and engulfed Rachel in a big hug, her head buried in Rachel's neck. She smelled her hair and kissed Rachel's neck one more time, then broke the hug. She backed away toward to the door.
"Tonight. I'll text you before I'm about to come over." Rachel nodded and Quinn winked at her, then left the bathroom. Rachel braced herself on the sink. She closed her eyes and took deep breaths in through her nose and out through her mouth. She had to calm herself down before she had dinner with her parents.
Rachel had a pleasant enough dinner with her dads, but her mind would not stop racing with thoughts about Quinn's tongue in her mouth. She tasted so sweet, and she loved how gentle she was. She tried to forget about it, but managed to let the thoughts sit there on the sideline while she told her dads about school.
At home, Rachel sat on the couch watching TV with her dads. It was about 10pm and suddenly her phone buzzed. It was a text from Quinn: Heading out the door now. See you in 15 min. Rachel's heart raced in anticipation.
Rachel gulped. "Dad, Daddy, Quinn's gonna come over and hang out for a little, catch up. Okay?" They smiled at her in approval of her newfound friendship with an old enemy.
"Sure, sweetheart." Her dad said.
"I'm going to go tidy up my room before she gets here." She kissed her dads each on the cheek and briskly walked upstairs.
"Night sweetie." Her other dad said, but she was already in her room.
Rachel got to her room and went straight for her closet. She ripped off her baggy sweatpants and tee shirt, and stared, searching for something sexy. She finally pulled out of the back of the closet, a black lacey slip that Finn bought her last spring. She never wore it, but now is a good time, she thought - the perfect time. Rachel unhooked her bra and pulled off her underwear. She slid into the slip and rushed to the bathroom to look at herself in the mirror. Not bad, she thought. She brushed her teeth, and briskly brushed her long brown locks. She put on some lip balm and spritzed herself with her new Chloé perfume she bought at Bergdorf Goodman's in New York. She rubbed some sweet smelling lotion on her legs. She knew Quinn would like the smell.
Quinn pulled into Rachel's driveway, got out, locked the car, then from a pure adrenaline rush of excitement, ran up the path, then up stairs to the doorway of Rachel's house. She took a deep breath then rang the doorbell.
Rachel's father answered. "Hi Quinn. Nice to see you. Come on in." Quinn stood in the foyer. "I hope school's going well."
"Yes, I love it." She looked around in awkward silence.
"Well Rachel's upstairs tidying her room. You can go on up." Said Rachel's father.
"Thanks." Quinn said as she deliberately paced up the stairs, and down the hall, trying to mask her excitement. She noticed Rachel's door was open and peered her head in.
"Rachel. You there?" She noticed the door to her bathroom was closed.
"Yeah I'm in the bathroom. Be out in a minute." Rachel said through the door.
Quinn put her bag and jacket down on Rachel's desk chair. She wrung her hands in anticipation of seeing Rachel again. She bit the inside of her cheek again, like she always did when she was nervous. She fiddled with her top, and her hair. She spit out her gum into the waist basket.
Then, the bathroom door opened and Rachel walked out in her slip, her hair lying perfectly on her shoulders.
Quinn gasped. "Oh my god, Rachel. You look – wow." Quinn fumbled to close the bedroom door and locked it behind her.
Rachel smiled and fidgeted with the hem of her slip. "It's not too much?"
"No." Was all Quinn could say as she gave Rachel the biggest smile.
"My dads are downstairs watching a long movie. We have privacy." Rachel said.
Rachel walked over to Quinn and put her arms around her neck. Quinn buried her head in Rachel's neck, hugging her tightly around the waist, feeling the smooth silk fabric of her slip. She inhaled Rachel as she kissed her neck affectionately.
"You smell amazing." Quinn said as she picked her head up and faced Rachel. Rachel just smiled, then brushed her relaxed lips against Quinn's, slowly pressing them harder against hers. Quinn moaned and then licked Rachel's bottom lip, inching her tongue inside. She caught Rachel's tongue in hers and kissed her deeply. Rachel sighed with want.
Quinn moved her hands down Rachel's back and gripped her ass. No underwear! She thought to herself as her hands encountered her soft bare skin. She squeezed Rachel's ass as her tongue battled with Rachel's, their mouths opened up as wide as they could get. Rachel whimpered with desire.
Rachel broke the embrace and took off Quinn's tee shirt and undid her jeans. Quinn pulled her own pants off and threw them to the floor. Rachel took Quinn's hand.
"Come over here." Rachel said in a soft and sweet voice as she led Quinn over to the bed. Rachel let go of her hand and jumped on the bed. Quinn watched Rachel inch backwards into place, holding up one knee. Quinn gulped as she glimpsed only a little peak at the coveted place between Rachel's thighs. She couldn't stop staring, and Rachel opened her legs a couple inches wider, sending Quinn into a frenzy. Quinn felt her heart race and her core heated up with desire. She could feel the blood rush down to her center, as she stared at a glimpse of Rachel's wetness. Her mouth watered at the thought of tasting that wetness.
"Are you just gonna stand there and stare?" Rachel said as she gave Quinn a sly half smile.
"You are so beautiful." Quinn said and Rachel smiled back at her. Quinn crawled on top of Rachel and Rachel's thighs wrapped around Quinn's hips. Rachel hummed contently.
"Oh, I missed you so much." Quinn said as she pecked at Rachel's neck, then jawline, then her lips. They could feel each other's every heavy breath.
"Me too." Rachel let out in a short burst as she tried to catch her breath. "I think about you every night."
"Oh really?" Quinn said with a half smile, as she licked Rachel's bottom lip.
"Yes, babe, every night." Rachel confessed as Quinn pecked at her lips.
"Me too, Rach. Every night." Quinn admitted, as she looked Rachel in the eyes. Rachel smiled and kissed Quinn hard on the lips, grinding her hips up and down against Quinn's pelvic bone. Quinn caressed Rachel's tongue with her own, as Rachel moaned into her mouth. Their tongues slowly grazed each other's with deliberation. They both imagined a tongue on their sex and kissed harder.
"Tell me what you think about." Rachel said as she unhooked Quinn's bra and threw it on the floor.
"I think about tasting your soft skin, the sweet taste of your pussy." Quinn said as she continued to kiss Rachel deeply.
"I think about my fingers inside you, and the sound of you moaning as I fuck you." Quinn said, and Rachel let out a sigh of pleasure.
Rachel squeezed Quinn's breasts as they kissed, playing with her hard nipples. Rachel moved her hands down Quinn's back and pulled her underwear off, discarding them on the floor. Quinn pushed her naked center down against Rachel's wetness. Rachel moaned some more.
Quinn kissed Rachel's neck, licking and sucking gently at her pulse point. She moved Rachel's slip up over her head and quickly discarded it. She took Rachel's breast in her hand and licked her nipple, sucking at it, and moving on to the other. She paid special and close attention to licking and sucking Rachel's breasts. Rachel closed her eyes and felt her core heat up with more intense desire. She caressed Quinn's hair as Quinn's tongue flicked Rachel's nipples. She sighed and then giggled as Quinn kissed her diaphragm, then down her belly very slowly, running her tongue along her skin.
Quinn kissed the inside of Rachel's thighs, and Rachel moved her hips in anticipation. Quinn licked her folds gently. "You taste so good."
Rachel hummed in pleasure. Quinn parted Rachel's folds with her fingers, revealing her sensitive spot, and placed her tongue on it. Rachel let out a soft cry of pleasure. She smiled in delight as Quinn massaged her spot with her tongue deliberately and slowly. Rachel's hips gyrated. She tried hard not to make too much noise, and closed her eyes again. Quinn's heart was beating so fast and her core was throbbing with such intense desire as Rachel purred softly. She sucked on Rachel's nub, and flicked it. Rachel yelped. Then Quinn took her tongue away, and moved her body up back on top of Rachel.
"Why'd you stop?" Rachel said as Quinn moved her hand down between Rachel's legs, sliding her fingers through her wetness.
"I want to fuck you." Quinn said in a low husky voice as she thrust two fingers inside Rachel. Rachel gasped and smiled. Then her face changed to an expression of pure lust.
"Oh god." Rachel said as Quinn's fingers curled and hit her spot. "Faster. Yes. Like that. Oh god." Quinn pushed harder and faster. She then pulled her two fingers out, to thrust three back in.
Rachel moaned a little loudly, and she put her own hand over her mouth. Quinn could feel Rachel's walls clench around her fingers and she pushed deeper and harder, her thumb rubbing against her clit. She felt her own core throbbing and wanted nothing more at that moment than to see Rachel's face as she reached her orgasm.
"Oh, Quinn. Keep going. Like that. Oh, I'm—I'm—God, yes!" Rachel said as she her walls clenched and her back arched. Her stomach spasmed, and her body shook as Quinn pushed slowly and gently in and out. Rachel's shaky breathing made Quinn crazy, and she swallowed a lump in her throat. She felt like she was going to explode herself.
"Oh my god, Quinn." Rachel said as she came down from her high.
Quinn kissed Rachel, their tongues gently caressing. Quinn whimpered into Rachel's mouth as Rachel reached her hand down between them and slid it between Quinn's legs, feeling her wetness. Quinn kissed Rachel again, and thrust her hips down against Rachel's hand. Rachel slipped two fingers inside. Quinn gasped and gyrated on top of her, matching her movement. Rachel pushed her fingers in and out, picking up the pace.
Quinn looked down at Rachel's naked body beneath her, as she thrust her hips against Rachel's hand. "Oh god, Rach, you're so hot."
Rachel smiled and pushed harder as her thumb made circles on Quinn's bundle of nerves. Quinn's breath caught. She was already almost there.
"Keep doing that, just like that." Quinn said. Rachel smiled.
"Oh." Quinn said in an almost singing voice, as her body shook with ecstatic spasms. She put her hand on Rachel's to keep it inside her as she rode out her orgasm. Quinn rolled over onto the bed beside Rachel. She glanced over at the clock: 11pm.
"Maybe you should just stay over." Rachel said as she caressed Quinn's stomach. They got under the covers.
"Yeah I should stay over. I mean, we should spend as much time as we—." Quinn stopped herself from finishing that sentence, for fear of bringing down the moment. "I'm going to text my parents." Quinn picked up her phone from the nightstand and texted. Rachel crawled on top of Quinn and kissed her neck, licking her pulse point. She ignored the almost buzz kill of Quinn's mention of the state of their relationship.
"What are you doing?" Quinn said.
"Nothing." Rachel said as she shimmied down, and ended up between Quinn's thighs. Quinn giggled as Rachel placed her tongue on her sensitive spot. Quinn hummed with pleasure. Her head suddenly felt dizzy as she felt herself getting more and more worked up. She grabbed Rachel by the hair and pushed harder into her center. Rachel sucked at her bundle of nerves and Quinn gripped Rachel's hair harder. She bucked her hips up and moaned. Quinn couldn't believe how amazing Rachel's tongue felt. She wanted to stay there in that moment of pleasure and unity forever. Rachel's tongue suddenly moved very fast against Quinn's center, and Quinn felt a surge throughout her body.
"Oh god, you're so good at this Rach. You're the best at this. Oh my god." Quinn thrust her hips up and down, riding Rachel's face. She tilted her head back and let herself come undone, her hand resting on the back of Rachel's head. She had one large violent spasm that caught her by surprise. Her body shook as Rachel licked up her remaining wetness.
"Oh my god. Rach." She said as she chuckled to herself, still shaking. Rachel slid beside her on the bed. Quinn laid there and caught her breath. She smiled at Rachel as she positioned herself on her side, facing her. Quinn caressed Rachel's stomach. Rachel bit her bottom lip. Her skin was extra sensitive to Quinn's touch. Quinn moved her hand down to Rachel's curls. She grazed her hand along her folds.
"I get so turned on making you come." Rachel said. "I can watch you come all night."
"You're so wet." Quinn said with a smile. "Would you mind if I went down on you again?" Quinn said. Rachel giggled.
"Of course not!" Rachel said as her giggle turned into a chuckle.
"Stop laughing at me!" Quinn said. "Don't ruin the mood." Quinn teased.
"I'm sorry!" Rachel said, still laughing.
"I'll make you stop laughing. Here." Quinn shimmied down, and kissed Rachel's folds. She parted her folds with her fingers and placed her tongue flat on Rachel's bundle of nerves. Rachel closed her eyes. She stopped laughing.
"Oh Quinn." Rachel said as her body heated up, and her heart raced. She wiped some sweat from her head with one hand and grabbed Quinn's head with the other. Quinn lapped up Rachel's wetness, and caressed her spot with great attention. She moved her tongue in small circles, pressing down firmly. She slid her arms underneath Rachel and gripped her ass pulling her closer and keeping her steady as she worked hard at making her come.
Rachel licked her lips and tilted her head back. Her breath hitched and she squeezed her eyes shut. "Oh my go—oh my god." She said as she balled she sheets up in her fists. She thrust her hips up against Quinn's face. Quinn's whole mouth engulfed Rachel's sensitive spot as she licked hard at a steady pace.
Rachel opened her eyes and her mouth opened, trying to let in a breath, but her torso shot up in a violent spasm. She put a pillow over her face as she let out a fierce high-pitched scream of passion. The pillow allowed her to completely let go, and she let out a couple softer cries of passion.
Quinn kissed Rachel's folds, and moved up on top of Rachel. She dropped her body down next to her and removed the pillow from her face. She chuckled to herself as she revealed Rachel's red and sweaty face. She loved it.
"You're gorgeous." Quinn said with a huge grin.
Rachel wiped the sticky hair from her forehead. "Oh gee thanks."
"I'm serious. I want to remember your face, post-sex, like this forever." Quinn said. They both felt a twinge of sadness at the realization that they have to go back to school in a few days separately. The word 'forever' hung in the space between them, weighing on them. Rachel smiled sweetly at Quinn, which made Quinn's heart melt.
Rachel placed her hand on Quinn's hot and sticky cheek. "You are the most beautiful girl I've ever met. Still. After living in New York and seeing so many different kinds of people, I still think nothing compares to this face." Quinn smiled back just as sweetly. She felt herself about to cry, so she pulled Rachel closer and spooned her. Quinn grazed her hand along Rachel's side, down her hip and back up to her shoulder. Rachel grabbed Quinn's hand and kissed it, pulling it into her chest.
Quinn kissed the back of Rachel's hot neck and tears fell down her cheek. She squeezed her eyes shut, but upon opening them, more tears flooded out. She tried her hardest not to let the tears turn to shaking sobs. She didn't think Rachel noticed, but Rachel could feel the tears on her neck. Rachel chose not to say anything, but just gripped Quinn's hand tighter. Quinn squeezed Rachel closer, wrapping her leg around Rachel's. Rachel let Quinn cry. She winced as she felt Quinn's body shake with every sob.
"Go to sleep." Rachel said. Quinn closed her eyes and inhaled Rachel's hair. The sweet scent soothed her. She was quite tired.
Quinn fell asleep rather quickly. Rachel closed her eyes and thought about what it all meant. She thought about how perfect they were together, and how she felt whole with Quinn. She suddenly was quite frustrated. This was her time to find herself and be alone, away from Finn, away from her parents, and friends, in this small nothing-town. She didn't want to have any ties. She wanted to be free. She wanted to be a star.
But that was before Quinn kissed her that night in her dorm room. That was before Quinn became all she wanted to live for. She thought about her every day and every night. No, this could not go on. It's not the right time. But she's never felt like this before, and if she were to let it go, would she lose her chance at real love? Her mind was at a stalemate, and she forced the thoughts out of her head with a meditation practice she picked up from someone she met at school. She kissed Quinn's hand, and willed herself to sleep.
The next morning, Quinn jerked out of sleep at 9am from a dream. She looked around, forgetting for a second where she was. She looked down, and saw Rachel drooling onto her chest, with one leg over her body, in a deep sleep. Quinn kissed Rachel's forehead, and gently wiggled out from underneath her.
Quinn washed her face and brushed her teeth with a spare brush she found in Rachel's drawer. She tip toed back into the bedroom and sat on the edge of Rachel's bed, still naked. She rubbed Rachel's shoulder blade, trying to get her up. Rachel was sleeping on her stomach like a baby.
"Rach. You up? I think I'm gonna go back home. Rach?" Quinn whispered.
Rachel opened her eyes and peered up at Quinn. "Huh? You're leaving? Stay and cuddle with me for a little longer."
"Oh okay." Quinn said as she got back into bed. She spooned Rachel and kissed her cheek.
"Mmm." Rachel murmured, half asleep.
"I gotta go soon, Rach. I have to get home before your parents and my parents get up and it gets awkward. Okay? Rach? You awake?" Quinn said.
Rachel opened her eyes and squirmed out of Quinn's hold. She sat up. "Okay, okay. Let's get up then. Oh I've got to take a shower." She said as she rubbed her eyes and her temples. "Join me?"
Quinn shook her head and stood up. Rachel watched Quinn's naked body as she fumbled around for her clothes. She picked them up one by one and got dressed. Rachel got up and put on the same sweatpants and tee shirt from the night before. Quinn went over to Rachel's desk to grab her coat, but Rachel put her arms around Quinn's waist, hugging her from behind. Rachel's face pressed up against Quinn's back and Quinn reached around to touch Rachel's side. They both felt the pang of missing each other at the realization that they were to separate soon, and they each closed their eyes.
Quinn took a deep breath. "I gotta go."
"I know. We have the rest of the week, right? We'll spend every night together." Rachel said as Quinn turned around to face her, their hands resting on each other's hips, their centers touching through their clothes.
"Yeah. I'll call you later. I have to spend some time with family, and I know you do too, but whenever we get a chance, we'll see each other." Quinn reassured.
There was a moment of silence. Rachel took a breath. Her eyes darted around. Quinn searched her face, wishing she knew what she was thinking.
"I want to talk about us, Quinn." Rachel finally said. "We have to set aside a time before we go back." Rachel finally looked into Quinn's eyes. "Okay?"
"Okay yeah sure, of course." Quinn said, as she broke their embrace. She felt a sudden panic, because she knew exactly how she felt. She felt pure and absolute love, but she knew she wasn't supposed to be feeling that. It was all bad timing—all wrong—and she couldn't think about it. She put her jacket on and grabbed her purse, slinging it over her shoulders. "I'll call you tonight."
Rachel nodded her head as she tilted up to kiss Quinn on the lips before she walked out the door. Rachel cupped Quinn's face with her palm and kissed Quinn a few times, her lips slightly parted. The kiss was passionate and a little desperate. Quinn closed her eyes and kissed back, her hands gripping her bag. She opened her mouth and let Rachel's tongue in, and their tongues entwined for a few seconds. Quinn's stomach turned to knots and she broke the kiss. She turned to the door, then turned back around, kissed Rachel on the forehead and then finally left. Rachel closed the door behind her.
Rachel's hand stayed on the shut door. She waited as long as she could before suddenly bursting into tears. She had no idea why she was crying like that. We have the rest of the week, she thought to herself. Why are you freaking out? Stop being such a fool. You're better than this. Rachel wiped her eyes and walked to the bathroom. She turned the shower on, took off her clothes, and looked at herself in the mirror. I wonder what Quinn sees, she thought to herself. She felt sexy. She felt wanted and she felt loved. She had never felt anything close to this before. Not even with Finn. She got in the shower and washed her cares away for the time being.
Quinn got home and jumped straight in the shower. As she washed her hair, she smiled as thoughts from the night before swam around in her head. She closed her eyes and pictured Rachel's beautiful naked body. She wished Rachel were there with her. She wanted to feel the water running down her olive skin, down through the curls between her legs. She felt happy in that moment, remembering how it felt making love to a person she truly loved. She felt lucky to have Rachel, even if their future was uncertain.
