A/N: So the reviews/alerts on the first chapter were absolutely amazing especially since I wasn't even sure if I was going to post this up or not. I've never gotten that many reviews just from the first chapter alone. So I love you all. Yup I do and I hope you keep them coming because they honestly make my day
To the major question that seemed to be asked about them being marked. Yes, both Leah and Jake were marked. When she was lying in the bed she was laying on her mark so he wouldn't try to touch it, as always there is a reason for that. But I won't give too much away. Things will be explained as the chapters go by, I Promise!
Anyways on to day uno which takes place a week after the newborn war so yet another Breaking Dawn re-write...
Disclaimer: SM owns Twilight
Day One: You Help Me & I Help You
It's so easy to lie to the one you love. We tell ourselves we're doing it because we care. Because of the need to protect them from further harm. We justify our actions, convincing ourselves that letting them know the honest truth would only drive a wedge deeper between us, or worse, place us on a collision course that could only end in a horrific, fiery crash without any survivors.
So what do we do?
We lie of course.
Small ones. Remove the details. Edit out the specifics.
We know, on some level, what we're doing is wrong. But we're trying to do the right thing. What's best for them… we want the pain to end. We don't want the ones we love to grieve any further. So, we spare them. Or at least that's what we tell ourselves…
Had Bella ever spared him? Why couldn't he seem to just let her go?
It felt as if he had a collar around his neck while she had the chain tying them together and wherever she tugged he followed without complaint. No wonder his friends made fun of him.
Negative thoughts. Must think complete negative thoughts about Bella. He chants in his mind over and over again, because he knows if he remembers any of the good times they shared he would be running to Forks to beg her to change her mind.
Jacob lets that thought go through his erratic head as he walks alone in human form through the forest. He would have gone wolf but he's pretty sure no one wants to hear him wallowing in his self-pity about Bella.
He's been walking and kicking rocks along the way for over thirty minutes in the forest of La Push. He has no idea where he is going, nor does he care. He's just ecstatic to finally be free from the body cast he was forced to wear for all of a week. It was up there on his list of the five worst/uncomfortable situations of his life. The first four circumstances included something involving Bella of course. He groans kicking the rather large rock by his foot. He couldn't even go five minutes without thinking about her.
What was wrong with him? This was the exact reason he didn't want anyone in his head right now.
Between his father, Sam and pack of brothers doing absolutely everything for him, Jake was itching to get out to do something even if it was just walking. His wolf hated being still for the period of time it seemed to take his body to completely heal. All he was allowed to do was eat, heal and sleep. His father and Sam were pretty strict on him having help when he needed to handle his business so that he would heal properly. Which if anyone asked him was super embarrassing and uncomfortable. All of his pack brothers had gotten to know him a little too well in the past week. It was all way too close for comfort. Needless to say Jake never wanted to be in a body cast again. The one perk seemed to be the endless amounts of food the tribe had sent him. None of the people truly knew what happened to him unless they were on the council or apart of the pack but they knew something. Jake wondered what excuse the council had given the residents in La Push on why no one could see him.
Sleeping was the biggest issue for Jake, well not really sleeping per se but the dreams had him lusting after someone he never thought he would see in that light. When he did sleep, it seemed that a majority if not all his dreams included Leah for some reason. Every dream had him taking her in one way or another and her allowing him to do so. He'd had dreams about her before, because he was a guy and truth be told Leah was hot. But it had never felt so real, he never wanted her so badly. He wondered what had changed that made these fantasies come to his mind.
It freaked him out and almost drove him insane. At first he thought it was because he was doped up on drugs but as the week went by and the dreams became more intense with him waking up with the desire to find her, take her and ask questions later, he could no longer blame the drugs. And he definitely couldn't talk to anyone about it when he didn't understand any of it himself.
Maybe he was going crazy?
Yeah that had to be it.
Because although Leah was really beautiful, she was bitter and mean, even when she didn't need to be. Not to mention Jake was still pissed at her for not even having the decency to come by and thank him for saving her life. He thought any normal person would have at least done that, no matter if they wanted help or not. That could have been her lying up in bed wondering if she was going to die or live. The thought caused him to shake his head to clear it. He didn't want to picture her hurt even if she inflicted her mental misery onto everyone else.
As soon as he got the go that he was alright to phase and walk on his own, he jumped out his bedroom window and took a walk. He didn't bother going into the living room to see the sympathetic looks thrown his way. If they came out looking for him they would have to do a lot more than trying to use the mind link to find him, since he refused to phase until he got his mind semi cleansed of anything having to do with Bella. Based on his thoughts at the moment he knew it was going to take a while. A week had already passed since she had gave him an answer on who she had chosen/wanted and he still wasn't able to fully let go.
Bella claimed to have loved Jacob even finally admitted to wanting to be with him but she wanted—no she loved— the leech more…
It was always him never Jake.
Why didn't she just push the nonexistent knife in his heart even more?
He was physically healed from the injuries he had received during the newborn battle but would he ever emotionally mend from this? Probably not.
He had done great so far with not picking up the phone when she had called or running all the way to Charlie's to see her. She had made her choice and he was going to try and let her go with the best of his abilities. It couldn't be that hard.
Right?
Maybe if he had a little help it would be easier and he knew just the girl to help him. If she didn't try killing him first that is.
Jacob was broken out of his reverie, narrowing his eyes when the light scent mixture of warm jasmine, rain and lavender invades his nose.
Leah.
Leah lays on her back in her favorite spot that has absolutely everything she could want. The grass is lovely, green and plush. She is surrounded by huge trees which shades her from the sun, great wind from the leaves, a nice breeze from the ocean and view of the mountains if she looks through one of the trees to her left. There is a large opening in the middle if she wants to lay out in the sun and most importantly there isn't anyone that knows about her spot. Especially the man-boy wolves that were known to her as her pack. She had always made sure to never think of this place when she was phased. Whenever she came a good mile near her spot she would phase back and stay human the rest of the way. It was close enough to still be a part of the reservation but far enough away that none of the other guys took any notice to it.
She had found her safe haven right after a heated argument with one of the guys while she waited to find out if Jake was okay. She can't even recall which wolf it was that pissed her off at the moment. And she doesn't really care.
She still hadn't gone to talk to Jacob even after finding out he was going to be fine. She didn't know what she was supposed to say. Or if he even wanted to see her face, it was her fault that he was in that predicament in the first place. And she didn't want her apology or thanks to be taken with a grain of salt. He probably wouldn't have even believed her because Leah was never nice to anyone except her mother and or Seth nowadays. Plus with the sex dreams she had been having of him recently she was hoping to stay as far away from him as possible.
This is the most relaxed she's ever felt since she had the curse of becoming a wolf, losing Sam, her father, her fertility, her cousin and even her friends. She can only blame herself for pushing her friends away but she couldn't let anyone in on her hairy secret. While they were probably off at college having the time of their life, she was stuck here protecting a bunch of people who didn't care if she lived or died. No one understood her because she was the rare one. A special circumstance that wasn't supposed to happen, but she was here and nothing would change that now.
Her journal lies next to her with the pages flipping through the breeze. She knows she should be probably head back home now but she can't bring herself to move from the spot. That is until she inhales warm scent of pine, cinnamon and earth. Her body tenses as the scent becomes stronger and more powerful causing the hair on her arms to rise with a slight humming sensation. She sits up from under her shaded tree to see where he is coming from. She thought maybe she should just run but her scent is literally surrounding the whole place. He would know she was here even if she left.
Well so much for my place, belonging just to me.
She finally sees Jake bending down to walk under a branch of one of the large trees. If she hadn't seen what he had looked like all bandaged up and stoned from the pack link mind thing, she would have thought nothing had ever happened to him.
When his eyes lock with hers a slight smirk comes on his face. And she knows that he's looking for trouble. He's only wearing cutoffs and tennis shoes that have seen better days.
As always he's sans t-shirt, and there is a slight sheen of sweat on his face, washboard abs, muscled arms, and legs. She didn't hear or feel the slight vibration that always seemed to happen when anyone phased in or out so he must have walked here in human form.
But why?
Leah gets up fixing her shirt and shorts a bit before she walks down to meet him halfway.
"What are you doing here, Black?" she asks shaking off the tingly sensation that comes over her.
He ignores her question as he takes a look around before looking down at her. "So this is where you've been disappearing off to… all the guys said you've been nicer. I guess we have this place to thank for that, huh?" His eyes go from the top of her head, down her body ever so slowly before rising back to her face. His gaze sent invisible goose bumps all over her form.
Why the hell is he looking at me like that? And why don't I want him to stop?
Leah frowns for a second as she steps back away from him. "Not anymore they'll all know where it is by tomorrow thanks to you."
"Oh I finally get a 'thank you' now? Well that's great…" he laughs bitterly. "I thought I was going to have to die to hear that one."
Leah huffs, she isn't going to give into the anger. "Whatever Black, move out of my way." She rolls her eyes at him intending to take a step when he reaches out to grab her arm.
A jolt of energy sparks where he had touch her causing her to glare up at him in confusion. "If you want to keep that hand of yours, get it the hell off me right the fuck now."
"I'm not done talking to you yet." He says but he does move his hand back to his side.
"That sucks for you because last time I checked I don't have anything to talk about with you. Now move." She growls as she tries to side step him but he moves with her. If someone else were to walk by they would think the two were dancing.
"Really you think so?" he asks blocking her way every single time until she gives up.
"I know so. If you don't move…" she started to threaten as she clenches and unclenches her hand a minute later.
He chuckled. "You're like a little Chihuahua. All bark and no bite I think—."
"You better not finish that sentence." She says as she grits her teeth.
Jacob let out an annoyed sigh. "Neither one of us is leaving until we talk."
"What is there to talk about? I don't want to talk about Bella. I really don't want to talk about Sam, or the leech war. Is there anything that I'm missing?" she taps her finger on her chin before shaking her head. "Nope. So good day to you Black." She pushes him back slightly so she can get past him.
He grabs her arm left arm and pulling her into his body, grabbing her other arm in the process so she would have no escape. "Stop doing that I'm trying to talk to you."
Leah was still shocked from the humming that was coming from the both of them, so it took her moment to gather a response. "What kind of meds did that leech doc loot you up with? You should probably go back home and get your head checked because we hardly had anything to talk about before."
"I need help getting over Bella." He states. "I think you can help me."
Yup, the poor thing needs to definitely get his head checked out.
"Me help you get over Bella? Seriously?" she asks incredulously. "You had me grieving over the leech lover like I was in love with her too… it's going to take you a lot more than whatever you have cooking in that crazy head of yours. And I'm pretty sure Sam wouldn't like that." Leah tries to get her hands out of his but his grip doesn't slacken so she stomps her foot.
She never realized how much she used her hands to talk until she couldn't use them.
"All the more reason to. Think about it Clearwater you could use a friend and so could I. You help me and I help you." He smirks.
Leah shook her head a bit too fast causing him chuckle. "It wouldn't work. We wouldn't work. You hate me and I definitely can't stand you." Leah still tries to get her hands loose.
"I don't hate you I do think you could be nicer at times. And so what? Maybe you don't like me right now but I'm pretty patient I can grow on you." He says grinning.
Leah cackles. "You sound like a festering disease."
Jake rolls his eyes squeezing her hands. "I can see you using that pretty little head of yours to think it over. Give it to me Leah." Leah stops laughing when he says that. Why was he acting so confident all of a sudden? "We can help each other." He says the determined expression in his eyes causes her breath to hitch. Sam hadn't even looked at her like that.
"I'd be too much for you." she says jokingly.
He chooses to remain silent as he shrugs but the determination in his eyes still hadn't disappeared. Leah shakes her head laughing to herself. She can't believe she's actually thinking about it.
If she was being completely honest with herself she would have to admit that she had thought about it once, maybe twice but it was just a thought. Even had a few dreams that had her wanting to crawl into his window and give him everything a guy could dream of and more, but that wasn't important.
"I can handle you I'm sure. I'm a quick learner." he grins.
As Leah opens her mouth to give a retort he lowers his mouth onto hers silencing anything she had to say with the softness of his lips. Her heart immediately sped up and she immediately became wet. She could hear him smelling her but she couldn't bring herself to even be embarrassed enough to care. At least not at the moment. She had never felt anything like this before just off one kiss, with someone she believed she hated.
She wanted to push him away or do something but her hands were still tightly in his grasp and her legs betrayed her when they moved closer to him instead of away. A slight shock went between the both of them as if they had been both dragging their feet in the grass when his lips connected with hers. When his tongue brushed out and touched hers she could feel herself melting into his arms.
Why wasn't she hitting him for all she was worth? Oh yeah he had her hands still.
But she still had her legs. Her traitorous, useless legs that felt like jello at that point. When she started to kiss him back and actually stand on the tip of her toes to kiss him she knew she was far gone. She had no idea if it was because she hadn't had this physical contact in months, or if it was her wolf's wants, or if it was some strange combination of the two but she didn't want it to stop. Especially if that meant he would piss her off saying something stupid after.
"Wow, better than my dream," he whispers as he pulls back considerably gauging her reaction.
She had heard him, so she wasn't the only one having dreams. That was something she was going to have to store in the back of her head to bring up later when her brain wasn't complete mush. Because she kind of thought she was going crazy when her dreams of Sam and other guys she was attracted to were replaced of Jake, all of him and only him.
She had to give Jake some plus points that he wasn't running as far away as his long legs could carry him. Had it been a normal day or any other one of the guys they would have been limping around if they tried that. What made him so different?
Her eyes locked with his as he finally let her hands go.
"We could be the best of friends." he smiles.
"Or the worst enemies." she mutters wanting to touch her lips but decides to keep her hands at her sides instead.
"I'll give you a day to think about it." he leans down and brushes his lips against hers one last time before he runs the opposite direction than which he came. The smug look he had on his face slightly pisses her off but she's left to wonder as she turns to watch his figure disappear further into the forest where this guy came from. That definitely didn't seem like the guy that was pining over Bella Swan just a week and a half ago. What the hell did that vamp give him?
Leah sighs and decides not to think much on it, when she looks down at the place where she left her journal full of all her most intimate secrets, desires, wants and longings and see's it missing, she knew exactly why Jake had went that way. She was going to see him in a day alright and give him hell.
So I kinda lied about the lemons starting this chapter. It was getting way too long because I forgot I needed to explain some stuff so we'll have to wait a chapter or two for all of that... :)
The pack and Bella come in next chapter which can only mean a few things lol..
But anyways review! :)
