Starting the new year at a new school. I saw him….
I was going up stairs waiting for the crowd to go up. Out of no where I looked behind me and I notice him standing behind me. Well, at first I didn't realize it was him because I
don't really pay attention. When I turned around in I thought he looked like him so I turned again and the second time he looked more familiar. So, I turned a third time and sure
enough it was him so I stared he looked down, smiled, and hugged me. That was the first time he had ever hugged me J. but me being me hugged back, smiled, turned went up the
stairs, and headed to my class…pathetic.
I didn't see him many times after that. I would see him after lunch but we wouldn't say anything. That was the only time I would see him…until my schedule changed. I didn't
change it, the school did I was pretty mad for some time but I learned to deal with it. The only bad thing about it was that I saw him more and with that the old crush came back…I
only remember thinking not good.! Let me explain why…I have already thought of this. And I've decided its never going to happen between us. You know how it is. You have a
crush you tell yourself its not going to happen, your down for a while, then your over it right? Well its been working for me when I've had them ah crushes…but yet this ones
different. I have always been able to tell myself okay, is not going to happen, and be done with it. This one I don't know what's happening but I cant get him out of my mind or my
heart for that matter. I see him in lunch, sometimes we walk together out of lunch and to our classes. (we have no classes together), and going to the busses so its really hard for
me to see him and not think about him. I've told myself a million times that it not going to work out so why is he still in my thoughts? I have also dated guys but whatever I try to
do to get him out of my head it just doesn't work. This year, there was one guy that I dated. We dated for about a month. While I was going with this guy I noticed changes in him.
He wouldn't talk to me anymore. And it wasn't just him that wasn't but he was the most important to me. I don't know why he hadn't and It was really bothering me. After the guy
and me broke up he slowly started to talk to me again. One day I decided to get him while he couldn't get away or ignore me. Walking to the busses I saw him and I walked next
to him and asked him y he wouldn't. I asked was it because I was annoying? And his answer was that he had never said that even though my friend had told me he had. -_-" I
didn't know if he was lying or not. (These are the times when I feel like I should have mind reading powers or something hehe.) But hey, what can I do? Well he also said that it
was just a game he played. I felt really stupid….
(that's it for right now. I have to go do some school thing ill try to upload later. Okay guys tell me what you think okay? Do you think my liFe is pathetic as I do or not? Comment please I want to know what you guys think.)
Chao.
