"I forgive you"
"But why? I always hurt you..." Ivan asked as he looked at Ludwig's face, there was a bruise on his face from last night; Ivan stroked it before also stroking at his sore chaffed wrist, from when he was tired up and forced.
"And when I rape you, don't you care about your safety?" Ivan asked as he looked away. There were very few times when Ivan was like this, but when he was he always felt regret. But then he did the same things over again.
"It's ok. I forgive you." He looked at him. "I don't care. I love you."
"But how can you love me or even forgive me, I'm a monster" Ivan said as he hid his face in his hands. "I'm just like my dad" he said as he walked away.
"Ivan no…" Ludwig went after him. "You're not. It's ok. I don't mind, I love you for you."
Ivan turned around and pressed his body close to the others, and then looked down into Ludwig's eyes. "You don't love me for me, how could you? There is nothing to love about me! What do you love? Do you love the way I rape you? Or the way I beat you up? Or the way I can never say I love you back?" Ivan said as he thought about leaving this house and everything to Ludwig, and his kids. They would be better off without him.
"I love everything about you. I don't care what you do to me. I can't stop loving you." He watched the other and pressed his forehead in to Ivan's body.
Ivan calmed down when he saw Ludwig press his forehead on his chest; he wrapped his arms and pulled him closer together. "I care for you too babe..." he said as he kissed the others head. "Let's go shopping tomorrow, we need to get all the baby shit for our children..." he said as he looked down Ludwig's belly.
Ludwig nodded. "We have eight months to do that…" he said while looking at his stomach, " I'm going to get fat.|
"Luddy, you're not going to get fat. You're going to have our children growing in you. And I think that is amazing and incredibly brave of you to go through that to bring life into this world, and it won't change how sexy you are" Ivan said as he smirked.
Ludwig blushed . He wasn't use to this Ivan. But he liked it. "I'm going to get fat and bitchy and horny and my feet are going to swell. And I'll be eating all the time."
"I will serve you all the time, tell me anything you want and I will leave to the shops and get it straight away. Well you are going to get bitchy, I would like to see that and I will help with the horny bit gladly... and I will carry you everywhere just so your sweet little feet don't swell" Ivan said as he picked up Ludwig for an example.
Ludwig laughed. "No all that's my job. You go work you come home and I wait on you. I tend to you. Not the other ash around."
"Yeah but your pregnant, I can't let you tend to me when you are like this..." Ivan said as he started tickling the German.
He laughed. "But I have to…"
"You can try? see if I let you" Ivan said as he continued giggling his lover, before he tripped and fell over and when he looked up he saw that Ludwig had fallen on him.
Ivan didn't trip Ludwig pushed him away and fallen to. He looked scared and he scrambled up. "I d-didn't mean it." He remember the last time he pushed the other he got punched around.
Ivan looked coldly at Ludwig as he got up and brushed himself of. He then grabbed Ludwig by his hair as he pulled him closer, "What the fuck was that, here I was being so fucking nice to you and then you push me back and trip me over?" Ivan said as it reminded him of the days when he dad would push him back and hurt him.
"I didn't mean it," he said while holding the wrist that held his hair. "I-I j-just didn't want to be tickled... I didn't mean to push that hard," and then he dropped his arms and covered his stomach in case of any punches. "I'm sorry."
Ivan was about to punch the man but then he saw the way the other used his hand to cover his stomach. He then remembered the triplets... shit. He let go of the others hair before running out of the house with his coat. He needed to cool off.
Ludwig fell to the floor. "No Ivan." He called out but he was gone. He didn't want to lose him but didn't know where he went he called and called but nothing. The thought of losing him hurt more than getting beat up. He went in their room and curled up in their bed crying.
Ivan walked into the club feeling like this would be a good way to relax. He went to the bar and got himself a drink as he watched everyone dance. The drink was cold and cool against his lips, he placed the glass down.
He looked around the dance floor when he saw some white haired German dancing with a yellow bird in his hair. Ivan walked over to him and started grinding against him. The German didn't mind, obviously too drunk.
Ivan continued to grope the others ass and move against his body, until he whispered something into the Germans ears, "Want to get out of here? Somewhere more fun like my house?" Ivan asked as he felt dizzy, he didn't care that he was drunk. He needed someone to fuck, hardcore.
Ivan got the others hand and drove to the Russians house. He opened the door and once inside he pushed the other onto the sofa before continuing to jump on him and kiss him.
Gilbert followed the man and kissed him back right away grinding his hips in to the other. And tangling his fingers in the Russia's hair.
Ludwig heard him come home. And he walked out to see this. Ivan had never cheated on him. Well not that he knew. And seeing this just broke his heart and it didn't help with all the hormones running threw him.
He walked to the couch grabbed Ivan by the back of his head. Pulled his face up and punched him hard in the nose. Hearing it break. "You bastard" he said as tears ran down his cheeks and he ran out of the apartment. Took the car and drove.
Ivan enjoyed the moans coming from the others mouth, and then he felt the others hands in his hair. Felt nice. But then suddenly he felt his hair being pulled and his body moved back with it until he was facing his boyfriend, Ludwig.
He had forgotten about him when he was at the club, he then felt pain erupt in his nose as he saw the crimson drops on his arm. He then heard the insult, before he saw the tears. Shit, Ludwig had never done that before.
Had he pushed him too far this time, was he going to leave him? He then froze when he saw Ludwig run out and drive away. He got cleaned up before returning to the German, whose name he didn't know.
Gilbert had fixed his clothing and was headed out the door, "seems like you have some stuff to figure out. Call me and we'll do this again." He said as he started to leave and drive off as well leaving Ivan alone.
Ivan was left alone all over again, he felt worse than when he left the house at the start. Ivan went up into his room as he looked down at himself. He felt like shit, he didn't even want to be alive, he hated everything and he knew the world would be better off without him, and so would Ludwig and his kids. He might as well as do the whole world a favor, and kill himself. Ivan went to the bathroom as he looked at the gun he normally kept there. He held it, and then placed it next to his head...
Then Ivan's phone rang. It was from the hospital. When he answered they said that his lover had been in a car crash and was in critical condition. Saying he should get down here now.
Ludwig had been crying and was driving. Since he was upset he wasn't focused and ended up hitting a tractor trailer. He was out at the scene and was barely breathing now.
The cops had found a picture of Ivan and Ludwig in Ludwig's Wallet and called the number on his phone. Asking questions like. "Any medical concerns or medication he can't have." Telling Ivan all the important details like the hospital address and he should come right away.
Ivan felt sick to the stomach, this was his entire fault. He dropped the gun as he ran out of the house and ran to the hospital. He walked to the receptionist, grabbed the woman by her shirt and shouted at her until he told her what room Ludwig was in. He then let her go, and ran to the room. He walked in to see his poor Ludwig bandaged up and hurt.
The machines beep softly and slow. He had a cast on his leg. And a sling holding his arm up. His body covered in stitches and bandages. They had him covered up. Since he lost so much blood he went cold. They tried getting heat back in to him. A doctor and nurse were in the room. "No visitors only family and loved ones."
Ivan had tried to walk towards Ludwig, but a nurse had stopped him talking about some shit about only family and loved ones, "I am his fucking loved one you bitch now move out of my way" he said as he walked towards Ludwig, he sat down and held his hand. "I am so sorry" he said softly...
