Thanks for all of your reviews, and as promised here is another chapter,

"I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me!"

I woke up the next morning in bed, I was hurting most everywhere, I could smell bacon mixed in with the aroma of eggs, I sat up and Jake entered the room carrying a tray for my breakfast,

"Morning beautiful, would you like some breakfast in bed?" he cooed,

"Thanks babe, you didn't have to go through the trouble though!" I said smiling

"Nothing is too much trouble for you gorgeous," He replied

Jacob was always nice to me after a beating I guess it was his way of saying sorry, this sort of reminded me of why I loved him so much,

"Look Bella…" He whispered softly, "I'm so sorry, I wish I could tell you what it is, but I can only tell you what it feels like, I just get so angry nowadays I just need a way to get it out and I promise I will never lay a hand on you again, you fucking hate me don't you?"

"Babe, I understand it's been a hard time for you, it's my fault for opening my big gob anyway, I don't hate you babe, I love you"

I knew he was lying but in a strange way I loved the way he did.

"Thanks babe, I'm really glad I have you, I'll try and stay off the drink for you okay?" He sighed

"I love you for doing this" I whispered softly

"I love you too, so what are we doing today?" he asked

"Well im a bit sore to move really…" I said lifting up my top to show the bruises, my stomach had literally turned purple as well as most of my body,

Jake gasped and started to kiss every bruise I had, "Im so sorry babe, It'll never happen again!" He said in-between kisses, after he has finished he cupped my face in his hands and kissed me passionately on the lips, it was a perfect moment…