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I thought about this chapter so much it did my head in I had know idea what to write… well tell me what you think..

I heard my name from Alice and Edward down the hall. So I tuned in, at least on this.

"I- I don't know, when? Who? This girl… sh-she's beautiful for a human girl… too beautiful it has to be false… she no…Carlisle?" Edward went on but in to much of the stunned talk to figure it out… "But I'll approve, Alice, I will if it means he'll leave the house other than to hunt and to go to the hospital which is rarely ever… I'll approve, if it means we get him back" and it was all the truth I could hear it in his voice, how much pain have I caused them all? "So will I Edward but she… she looks so…so young I mean at least younger than myself or maybe she is just very youthful…" Alice said sounding worried. I needed to know so I found my voice and called out to Alice. "Alice" my voice didn't sound right. Shallow, with no emotion at all. She knocked on my office door not sure whether to come in. "Carlisle?" she said opening the door the slightest bit, a memory of last time they all tried to come in not only surprised them but myself as well, I threw my desk lamp at the door which caused it to smash into a million pieces that still sat at the door. She entered and walked very slowly over to where I was sitting staring aimlessly at the blank desk, I looked up and saw her gasp and cover her mouth with both her hands. "Carlisle, when… when did you last hunt?" she said. When was the last time I did hunt? "I-I don't know" I said trying to remember. I did feel a bit funny but I always felt funny, like there was no point living without Esme by my side. "You look like a zombie, you have huge bruising, black rings round your eyes and there so dark, can you even see?" she asked coming closer and touching my cheek with her hand rubbing her thumb over the dark circles. "Lets hunt, Carlisle you look like you really are dead." She said pulling me up and leading me to the window. I followed finding it hard to keep up with her, so these were the side effects from not hunting. She ended up carrying me to the forest and taking down at east half of the deer for me, I just couldn't do it I wasn't fast, or strong enough. Once I got my strength back up though I was fine, apart from the aching in my chest since that day five and a half months ago in three weeks from today. She left me, because of reasons only she knew I chased her to find them reasons all the way to Italy, only being a little too late, she went and had herself killed. I still do not understand why, all I know was that it is my fault. "Why were you talking about me before." I said as Alice came rushing past were I was standing. "I can't tell you that Carlisle just trust me" she said standing looking at me. "I want to know, Alice, will it help me?" I said

"Yes so much it will be wonderful!" She rejoiced.

"Then why did I her you saying things that made you sound worried, Edward was surprised. Tell me." I pleaded.

"But I know what happens if I tell you" she said worried, anxious again. "You stay like this" she said sweeping her arms in my directing. "You refuse to let it happen, you think you're betraying Esme, so I can't Carlisle I'm sorry." She aid looking at the ground.

"When does it happen can I know this much?" I said

"About twenty day from today"

"Fine" I said getting up and running back to my hiding place, called my office.

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