For some reason I was just in the mood to pull out this story and work on it today. Honestly I don't think that is such a good thing. Sorry its been so long, even the thought of the kind of issues in this story have sent me into hysterics over most of this year. After what I've been through it happens sometimes. I think this one is rated M...its been so long since I worked on it I can't remember. If it is there may not be so much M rated stuff going on until closer toward the end. Its been so long in that respect I doubt I can write that kind of stuff anymore. If I get to that point and still can't hack it mentally I may just have to skip over it...I won't put myself through the hysterics and panic attacks just to put M rated material into a story. So on a more postive note I did a little research since I knew very little about Kilowatt and he is a big part of these stories. Kilowatt's real name is Charlie Watkins and when he wasn't blue he was a hot blonde haired hunk. (Why do all the hotties that aren't taken have to be fictional?) So he was from an alternate timeline and part of a group of future Titans from it that ceased to exsist once they set right whatever went wrong in the past or something along those lines...anyway I'm not going there. I'm leaning more toward the alternate dimension origin for him as he appeared in the "Go!" comics. The whole point of writing him into this series was to play up that hinted romance/soul mate thing between he and Raven from the Go! comic that never got explored further. If you don't like that pairing...I can't say that I really care. I'm obviously writing it anyway because I like it. And since this series is based on songs from the Purple Rain soundtrack this one is called Computer Blue for a reason...this one wasn't an easy one to tie in, but I think once it gets to the point where that comes out in the story it will leave you straching your head, saying what the bleep! and maybe even wondering if the author (that's me) is sane...you'll have to excuse me for a moment the cat sitting outside on the deck rail keeps staring at me through the door and its rather un-nerving...either he's hungrey or he is attempting an answer to the santity issue telepathically. Sorry...okay back now...and he's still out there staring...no wait...there he goes to the food. Cats...who can understand them? Anyway part two of this series mainly features Raven and Kilowatt. Nightwing and Terra are kind of just there in the background and maybe get passing mentions here and there. They really don't come back in until part 3. Nightwing is slowly getting back into the crime fighting groove so he won't always be such a screw up as he was in the first story. I just thought that was kind of funny was why I did it and I promise to be nicer to him this time around (maybe.) Just bare with me there is a method to my madness. So please fasten your seat belts and make sure your tray tables are in the upright and locked postioned then hold on for the ride because lots of turbulance is in the air.


Darling Raven 2-Computer Blue part 2

Kilowatt sits outside the room where Raven is resting. He looks at the mirror that hangs on the opposite wall. He hasn't yet told the others that he can power down and appear normal. As he looks back toward Raven he wonders if its worth letting the others know. Raven needs someone here with her and if Nightwing and Terra think he can't fit in out there then they are less likely to find something else for him to do in this little hero game of theirs. He thinks at this point a game is all it is. He thought the reality he came from was bad, but it was nothing compared to what happened to this one since he left. He gets up and looks outside as the snow starts to fall again.
Nikki looks all around the dark starlit realm and the field of seemingly endless asteroids before her. She doesn't know what kind of a joke this is, but she isn't amused by it. If Elrich is behind it then she is definitely going to kick his ass when she gets out of this. That costumed freak that kidnapped her is going to get it too. In fact right now she thinks about tying them both up in the den of pain together and showing them both what happens when crossing her. She throws off the black cloak she has on and sets off to find some way out of this.
Raven tosses and turns in her sleep before finally sitting up in bed. Nikki just won't go away and demands to again be in control. Just how had Nikki come to be? Did she inadvertently trigger the magic that created her other emoticlones on the night she was raped? Or is Nikki just some other personality created so that she could cope with what was happening to her? As Raven gets up and looks at her meditation mirror she fears the answer lies in some combination of the two explanations and as such Nikki will never go away. Raven gets up and goes to the bathroom only to throw up again. When she can't throw up anymore she gets up looking at her reflection in the mirror. She holds out a strand of her long hair, maybe she reasons that the less she looks like Nikki the better. Raven rummages around in the drawers until she finds an old discarded razor blade. She gathers up her long hair into a pony tail and attempts to cut it short but she finds herself unable to do so. She can't will her hand to move-it only trembles. She could swear its Nikki's reflection in that mirror scowling at her-forbidding her from slicing off her hair with the razor. Raven turns from the mirror quickly sinking down to her knees. She can't take this anymore. She cries for sometime before she becomes aware of the pain in her hand. Raven opens her hand to find the razor blade digging deep bloody gashes into her clenched palm. She just stares at the flowing blood realizing that this is the only way to stop Nikki for good. With a trembling hand she drags the blade across her wrist-drawing a heavy flow of blood from the deep gash. She manages to grasp the blade in her other hand to draw a deep gash into the wrist of her hand with the already bleeding palm.
Kilowatt turns away from the window as he hears Raven whimpering. He tracks her down to the bathroom. He stands there momentarily shocked at the scene before him. He quickly grabs a towel and kneels beside her.
Raven tries to push him away as he takes hold of her injured hands. "Just let her die...please." She clenches the razor blade in her palm making deep gashes to worsen the flow of blood before he can stop her.
Terra turns away from the set up of monitors that show the goings on in the city in the back of what is now the only computer place as Nightwing comes back. "Are you sure this is such a good idea?"
"With the television out movie rentals are the hottest business around here."
"And that makes you think people are going to want the internet again. Assuming its still up, if the big crime bosses around here still keep records on computers and they start getting hacked into where do you think they're going to come looking for the culprits? The ones who got it working again."
"We don't need the actual internet...just a city wide system would do for starters. I've been working on lots of addictive online games. I'm sure even big crime bosses need a diversion. Its not exactly safe to go outside for very long anymore."
"And once the games get downloaded you have a way into their systems...nice. But the last time I checked hacking was a crime."
Kilowatt knows he can't do anything to help Raven alone and she's loosing blood fast. "Nightwing! Terra! Get up here quick!"
She tries to pull her arms from Kilowatt's grasp. "I can't fight her anymore...she's too strong."
"This isn't the way to stop her Raven."
Nightwing rushes upstairs followed closely by Terra. "Kilowatt what's wrong? Where are you?"
"In the bathroom! Hurry!"
Terra makes the turn into the bedroom before Nightwing. She doesn't even hesitate as she sees the bloody mess. "Hold her hands above her heart!" She gathers more towels and kneels beside Kilowatt and takes one of Raven's hands and holds pressure around the wrist. She looks up at Nightwing in the doorway. "You're going to have to knock her out so she can't fight us while we close up the wounds."
Nightwing glances over at Kilowatt, who nods, before stepping forward. "I'm sorry Raven."
Raven just lowers her head with tears streaming down her face. She wonders why as everything fades to black they just can't let her end this to stop Nikki.
"We've got to find something to stitch up the wounds with."
Nightwing turns to Terra. "She needs a doctor."
"Who would just give Elrich his Nikki back and turn the rest of us in for kidnapping her."
As Nightwing goes off to find something to treat Raven's wounds, Kilowatt looks up at Terra. "Closing up the wounds is only half the problem. What happens when Raven wakes up and tries to do it again?"
"Right now, I just hope it is Raven that wakes up."

Elrich looks up as his sister enters the office.
"So what is the big important scheme that you've been working on?"
"First we need a new girl."
"Why a new one?"
"What I have in mind needs to look real, I doubt any of the other girls could pull off an act like this. I want a new girl sent straight up to one of the rooms for awhile...then let her escape."
"Why let her escape?"
"So she can run and lure Raven and Terra out of hiding. The two former heroines would want to save her from worse than what they had to go through."
"Its a trap just to get Sunshine and your Darling Nikki back."
"Forget Sunshine...we're going to put her in one of the rooms and bill her as the former Titan that she is."
"And Nikki?"
"She's all mine. Just be on the lookout for a new girl when you're out. And if you find someone don't give her the usual spill about behaving. Just send her straight upstairs and let the guards know to give her some special attention."

Nightwing stands in the doorway to the bedroom several hours later where a still unconscious Raven lies in bed closely watched by Kilowatt. He turns away from the eerie sight of Raven's bandaged wrists and hands to find Terra staring out the window. "You really kept your cool earlier, I'm impressed."
"I saw lots of girls trying to take that way out in the early days of the club. There wasn't a doctor on staff at the time and I had to help save those girls that tried it. I hated myself for that back then it made me feel like a traitor all over again."
"Why did saving them make you feel that way?"
"Just look at the kind of life they're forced to live out." Terra turns away from the window and looks up at Nightwing. "Its no different with Raven now. We're only forcing her to fight a battle within herself that she can't win."
"She can try-"
"-Nikki will never give up we both know that...and so does Raven. She doesn't want to fight anymore, or she wouldn't have tried to end it."
"I've seen her deal with a lot worse than this and she never once tried to take the easy way out."
"But she had her healing powers then. Do you really think it would have worked if she tried? She's not the same Raven that you knew back then."
Nightwing turns back toward the bedroom. He keeps it to himself as he thinks that he and Terra may both be wrong. At first Raven had just given in and let her father use her to fulfill the prophecy of her birth...but she eventually stood up to him and won. He only hopes that now she can find the inner strength to overcome the demon within herself.

As Raven finally begins to come around the first thing she is aware of is the throbbing in her wrists. When she tries to move her hands the pain only becomes worse.
Kilowatt looks up as a whimper of pain escapes Raven as she tries to move. "Take it easy. You lost a lot of blood before we could get you patched up."
"Why couldn't you just let me die?"
"I didn't come back just to watch you end up killing yourself. I came back here because you needed help...just like when you were there for me. How can you just give up after all you've been through Raven?"
"She's too strong...I can't fight her anymore."
"Then let me help you."
"You don't understand..."
"...Then help me understand. Explain how Nikki is so powerful."
"The whole time I was recovering and learning to dance the doctor was always drawing blood and running tests and giving me shots-it must have been to figure out how to block my powers. I think that before he found out how to block my powers for good..." Raven pauses unable to bring herself to talk about the rape. "...I couldn't take what was happening anymore so I created Nikki-a split personality that could-but I was desperate and scared and must have messed it up-got it mixed up with the magic that created all my emoticlones. She isn't just an emoticlone, or a split personality she's both."
"Are you sure about that?"
Raven turns her head looking at her meditation mirror on the dresser. "It will let you see them all...there is a new one that wasn't there before...before he found me out on the streets. The red one...Rage. She was always the strongest...most dangerous...but she's nothing compared to Nikki."
Kilowatt gets up-goes over to the dresser and picks up the mirror. Images of Raven's doppelgangers in different colored cloaks flash by. A yellow one with glasses, a scared looking gray one, a happier one in pink, another in green that looks ready for a fight, an almost love-sick looking violet one, the very pissed off red one a fore mentioned, a quite rude looking one in brown, and a lazy orange one...and apart from them seemingly lost stands one by a shed black cloak.
"Do you see her?"
"The one in black?"
"That's her."
"Didn't you once tell me that you kept the red one locked away? That it escaped and Beast Boy and Cyborg ended up in your mind and helped you trap it again. Can't you do that to Nikki too?"
"Not without my powers...and if I had them back what sort of havoc would she unleash if she gained control before she could be trapped? Its better to just let me die and be rid of her."
"No!" That came out much more forceful than he intended. Kilowatt sighs as he puts down the mirror and returns to Raven's side. "Raven...I didn't travel across the dimensions just to lose you. I won't let you throw everything away. There is a way to stop Nikki and I'm going to help you find it." He wipes the tears away from Raven's eyes. He kept the truth from her before, but now he dares to voice it. "I love you Raven...and I'm not going to let you go."


Aww he got all sweet and mushy in the end...I hate mushy-I don't know how that crept in there or why I don't delete it. Wow-if ever there was turbulence in a story...and to think its only just beginning. Its been hours now and the cat is back out on the rail stareing at me again. I'm starting to get the impression that he's mad at me for something (when he gets mad look out-I guess that's what I get for naming him Nitro-he has a short fuse) or he wants to play blink (fyi never play that game with a cat.) I was wondering how many of you out there think that Slade should show up somewhere among the people that Nightwing and Terra are going to be meeting? I toyed with the idea of putting him in the first part but never did. Now I'm kind of liking the idea of two former apperentices coming face to face with the former master...and their act doesn't fool him. Opinions on bringing Slade in...leave a review and let me know. Geez I love my cat, but I gotta go close the blinds or something before he drives me totally buggy...and now he's growling...guess he doesn't want the blinds closed. In that case I think I'm going to bed. My editors are still MIA or this mindless rambling wouldn't be here. If you find any grammer errors blame them-its supposed to be their jobs to fix it...I just write the stories.