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Chapter 1
Bella's point of view
'It will be as if I'd never existed'
These same words drummed through my ears each and every minute of the day leaving me to perish in my living nightmare called life. I've lost count on how many months it's been since he left me, but now my zombie like state, which 'was' fading, had effected Jake too. He helped stitch up the hole in my chest that was left and now that I've lost him too, the empty space has crept back into my life.
Edwards point of view
My last memory of her; replayed over and over, the last time I had kissed her, touched her, and I didn't even see her smile or hear her heart flutter every time I touched her, the way her blood would rush to her cheeks whenever I complemented her. I needed to see her. I had to. I still loved her. But I couldn't, I'm not right for her. She needs someone like....like Mike.
A human.
It's been months since I've seen my family, and every time I came home I would just mope around in my room, hostile and cold towards the others. I knew Esme was tormented by my absence but I couldn't face them. It's been exactly 5 months 2 weeks and 3 days since I saw her and the days weren't getting better, it is now unbearable to get through just 1 minute of the day, let alone a whole day.
I was just sitting down to look at the pictures I had of Bella, which Alice had taken on her birthday 'wince' the birthday. The event that brought me back to reality, my happiness with Bella was selfish and every minute I spent with her I was endangering her, not that I wanted to come back to reality but when I realized the danger my Bella was in I had to leave her, even if that meant me spending the rest of my existence miserable.
She's not coping Edward. Alice's thoughts abruptly stopped my train of thoughts as she started showing me disturbing visions of Bella pulling reckless and stupid stunts. I told her not to look for Bella's future but she always came up with an excuse, I soon ignored the images of Bella that flooded my mind. Time heals; for humans anyway; she'll soon forget me and then she can have a normal human life.
I turned around to see Alice glaring at me with piercing eyes. "She's not coping" she whispered "Can't you see you've made a mistake; for both of you" She spoke softly out loud but her thoughts were screaming at me to go back, she missed Bella just as much as I did.
"We've been through this before Alice, I can't. I wont ruin her life. I'm no good for her, None of us are. Not even you" I said coldly. Maybe a bit to coldly because she winced at my last comment. I was just about to apologize when I saw Alice's vision.
A figure was leaning over Charlies limp body when Bella suddenly walked in. The figure with red eyes then approached her, smiling hungrily at it's prey.
The vision then ended there.
My facial expression mirrored Alice's exactly. Terror. I had to get to Bella. We was an hour away but could make it in half an hour if we hurried.
I'll tell the others. I sent her a grateful nod and shot out the door.
