AN: Hope ya'll are enjoying the story. I know chapter one was pretty heavy. And umm… this is no better, lol.
I have no beta so bare with me.
~ JB~
I awake to the lovely smell of bacon and my very, very favorite strawberry and banana pancakes. Oh Lord, I could kiss that woman's feet!
I take my time to shower in my cool stream clear glass shower; though I love my steam shower it is nothing like my extra deep, long and huge claw tub that sits right in the middle of my bathroom. I love my bathroom, and the very maculate look and feel of it, because I know how hard it is for guys to pull off masculine looking bathrooms. Quickly dressing in some faded jeans, blue t-shirt - that mama tells me looks nice against my medium dark russet skin and brings out my light brown eyes - and some Nike running shoes. I leave my raven hair that is gone way past my shoulders hanging which I rarely do since it's so long and can be hard to handle, I really need to cut it.
Making my way into the kitchen I spot mama and Jasper, I quickly avert my eyes from Jasper. I can't help but feel sorry for him.
"Morning mama ….. um Ja..a.. Jasper." I say pecking her on her lips.
" Mor'n suga ooooh don't you look sexy wearn' ya hair down like that and I'm lik'n the blue. You should wear it down more often this is only my second time seeing it down. You look like the creamy dark caramel that I put on my Better Than Sex Cake."
I blush and turn around to see Jaspers staring intently at me. He looks like um …. I don't really know the look he is giving me. All of a sudden his roles his eyes and says.
" Phts. Don't lie to him. He needs to cut that fruity ass looking mess. Oh and Gran you really should go wash that kiss off your lips. You don't know where those lips have been." Jasper states harshly. Sometimes the way he speaks of me, it's like he doesn't consider me a human being. I feel so small. I need to get out of here.
" Umm.. mm mama I'm going to head to school." All of a sudden mama yanks my arm.
"Like hell you are. Sit and eat because I know they are your favorites." She finishes and I do what she says.
Mama starts on the other side of the island yanking Jasper off the high stool and pushing him to his knees so she is towering over him which is a hard thing to do since he is almost chin level with her even kneeling. She slaps him across the face. It's sharp; I can hear the echo throughout the kitchen.
Jasper's head sways to the side and he leaves it in the position she slaps him in. Some of his curls loosen from the short ponytail it was in and fans across his eyes. I can see his nose flare out and his cheek reddening.
" Look it here you little smart ass if you dare speak to him in that manner again or anyone else for that matter while you are under my roof with disrespect I will go into your grandfathers closet, find that leather belt you knew so well and beat you until your ignorant ass is black and blue,"
"I love you; I love you more than anything but I will not tolerate this. You will cease to treat'n him like you do. He has been nothing but nice to your mean bigoted ass. Oh and I saw that little fuck'n stunt you pulled last night. What the hell is wrong with you? Telling bout' people like that in such a manner. You may have learned that ignorant shit from your father, grandfather and other people but I be damned if you gon' bring them demons back into my house. I got rid of the demon ignorance long time ago. Starting with divorcing your grandfather and I don't plan on going back. You are 27 years old, child, grow the hell up. Do I make myself clear?"
"Yes mama."
Her voice was softer as she said, "Jay, sweetheart, I know very well you didn't have it easy but that is not excuse. You gotta stop all this hate, its gon' kill you just like it did your grandfather." She ended almost pleading with him. I understood her fear of what she was saying for it ran extremely deep for her. The life she had before her change really affected her even after years fixing her life it still greatly impacted they way she was. She was scared Jasper would end up like her late husband or even his father that I wasn't sure if he was still alive or not.
With that she placed a loving kiss on his forehead and told him to finish eating.
I kept my eyes on my plate, finished and headed to campus without another word to anybody.
Even though Jasper was mean to me I saw the unlined beauty and pure goodness in him. It just had been covered in years of hardship and pain. Behind his stoic facade was a man looking for peace. Deep inside he was a good man.
Mama told me some about Jasper's history but I could tell she was holding back a great deal, some of what she told me was hard to believe, but her facts where backed up with late night conversations I heard them having and the look of his eyes would show something deeply troubled. I could tell he loved deep especially when it came to mama. His actions towards her screamed that he would happily die for her; do anything for her. Like she was the one and only rock he had. I understood him completely. I would do the same. She in a sense had saved both of us and in a way was still doing it. Leading us both to something, something unknown; only she knew what it was. She was a cryptic little trouble maker.
I saw beauty in Jasper and god was he beautiful. He has the whole bad boy/cow boy thing going on, extra thick accent, really and truly rough around the edges and true to form he had lived the tough life. Mama had told me he used to be a part of vicious and deadly gang when he lived in Dallas. I had seen the tattoos to prove this, though he would try hard to cover it up. What made me lust after him even more was his body. I loved his tattoos, he had just the right amount in the right places and you could tell not one of them was meaningless.
And that ass! Oh lord, I could crack a walnut with that ass. His body was like Brad Pitt's in Troy the Achilles warrior; a true Greek god. His pulp full lips where just calling for someone to kiss them especially that bottom lip that was the fullest, I just wanted to lick it. But that's not even the best part of his body. One night I was heading to the bathroom in the hall way since mines was under renovations I accidentally walked in on Jasper getting out of the shower, all I have to say is his Mandingo is like the real Lochness monster. Even when limp it was a good nine inches and half inches, long, pleasantly extra thick, beautiful veins, and a delicious pink head. Damn how could anyone take that monster! I am very, very positive he had room for growth.
Dear lord, I can feel the pre-cum leaking through my boxers. I would lop that cock down like my life depended on it. His body was meant to be gently caressed and worshiped and if given the chance I would do just that.
I hope I'm going to be a virgin all my life.
After my second class I make my way to the benches that are kind of isolated from the rest of campus. I decide to sit there until I have to go to my third class. Pulling out Interview with the Vampire I begin to read when my book is slapped out of my hand. Looking up though my glasses I see the bear looking group of wannabe badasses. I know who they are. They have been a pain in my butt every since they found out I was gay from Jasper. This is his clique. I know the truth though; they are not his true friends. They fear him too much to be on any other side, than his.
He is popular with the women, in good with the administration, he is wealthy, he draws attention with his looks, he is, and I believe a former or still active gang member. He isn't studying law and minoring in chemistry for no reason.
They knew his history as much as I did. No one fucks with Jasper Hale Whitlock unless you are begging to be put out of your misery. They talk a lot of shit about him but never to his face. I remember one time he found out that one of the members in his group of so-called friends where going to get a group of other guys to help him beat up Jasper for some reason I am not sure of. Jasper found out on the same day the other two guys showed up. Jasper was walking up and in a swift movement grabbed a tree trunk that was lying on the ground and swung, it hitting his ex-member of his group in the head. As the others proceeded on him his so called friends where coming to his aid to help him but he told them to hold back.
He stood at his full height of 6'3, dropped the tree trunk, and looked the other two guys in the face and said " Both of ya gon' meet yo mutha fuck'n maka."
All I remember is all three guys lying on the ground looking close to death. Jasper just walked away like nothing happened. When the police arrived on campus I saw them trying to get questions out of people and heard people say they didn't see what happened or shrugged their shoulders playing dumb.
People feared Jasper; the school didn't even question him, only because they loved his money. I knew he was very well aware that his friends where his enemies. He was a smart man.
Did I not fear him enough? Is that why he let his friends hit me around a couple of time; leaving me with black eyes and bruises? Is that why he said hurtful and threatening things to me when he would catch me away from Mama? I should have known I would get knocked around today by his group of ugly bears because of what happened this morning with Mama, great.
" Watz up cocksucking fag stick. Jasper informed us of your little stunt this morning. We warn you, you better watch your fucking back. Accidents happen' everyday." And with that, the big silver back gorilla slapped me across the face knocking my glasses off of my face.
"Now that is how you slap a bitch." He said as they stormed off, high fiving his friends. Thank God spring break was here at last. I had almost a month off because of other stuff going on they wanted the students off campus. College is just like high school expect for bigger and more grown up kids. UGH... I can't find my glasses. Now when I get hit or something I don't even care anymore, I have no feelings towards it because I am so used to it.
"Oh thank God." I breathe out when I find them. Putting them on I look up to see Jasper's back walking away from me. He must have witnessed the scene. Tears run down my face because I am so tired of being mistreated just because of who I am. I am not ashamed or at least I don't think I am. I cry because I am lonely. The only person that talks and comforts me without feeling obligated is Mama.
The only time Jasper showed me any kind of kindness is when he stopped one of his buffoons from beating the heck out of me, more than he was about to, because the guy confronted me about me checking him out in gym class which I think Jasper knew wasn't true as I don't even have gym. I have fitness training and Jasper has seen me working out in the workout room.
I gather myself up and finish my classes for the day. It's Friday and now I can start my month's worth of vacation. I can relax in the beautiful Victorian/ Ranch house that is truly home to me and spend more time watching the wolves that I haven't been able to watch in such a long time.
Walking through the corridor of the house I spot some luggage I call out for Mama who yells she is in her room.
"Mama what's up with luggage?" I ask, arriving in her room.
"Well I'm gonna go with some friends to Mississippi to have a little fun in Gulfport. A little gambling, dancing, swimming, drinking and hopefully I'll live up to my statues as GILTF. I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner but it was a last minute decision and plus you're out for spring break so let loose some while I'm gone."
"No worries, I just plan on relaxing and working on that truck of yours. Plus I can work more on taking care the ranch and the animals."
"Oh honey you don't have to worry too much about the ranch I got the hands on deck. So that is all handled, trust me the boys where happy to get some work. They know you will be here so keep order for me. Just in case you need me the information is on the board in the kitchen. And I left you some spending cash, don't look at me like that, shut up and accept it. I'm gonna be gone for a month the same amount of time you're out."
"Ok, well um mama what is GILTF?"
"Grandmother I'd like to fuck." She says like it's obvious. I quickly change the subject.
"What time you have to leave?"
"Oh… right now." She says as the taxi hunks the horn.
"Ok I'll help you with your luggage"
After gathering her things and helping her in the taxi I tell her I love her, to have a safe flight and call me when she makes it there.
Hum… all alone. What should I do now? I go to check with the person overseeing the ranch to see if everything is in order then I decide I should go out into the city to explore a little. Maybe …meet someone.
Dressing nicely and pulling my hair back I make my way to my 1950 Chevy truck that I remodeled and heading off into the city lights. After my 1 hour drive I spot a decent bar and say what the hell. Pulling into the parking lot I step into the dimly lit bar.
Sitting at the bar I order water. I spot a tall very dirty blonde hair with forest dark grey eyes sitting one seat away from me. He looks very familiar but I can't place it but damn is he good looking not as beautiful as Jasper but still nice to look he then catches my stares. I look away from him scared of what might happen.
"Loner tonight?" I look over to my side to see him sitting next to me. I didn't even see him move.
" Umm ye…yea."
" Kinda shy aren't you?
I blush in embarrassment because its true and I don't know how to act. I've never had someone flirt with me. Or I think he is hitting on me.
"Meet me in the back on the building in three minutes." He says as he slips from the chair.
I am completely dumbfounded by the turn of events. First I have NEVER EVER had someone hit on me except Paul and I am scared to death that he wants us to do something sexually. Yes, I am EXTREMLY horny but I don't know about this, maybe I should just go because this is too good to be true and I do kind of want to experience stuff. So I decide the latter and make by way out the bar and to the back of the building. I can just ask him if we can take it slow and maybe go somewhere quiet and nice like a coffee shop.
Rounding the corner I am pushed up against the wall in one swift movement.
"Well, well, well looks like we got us a little fairy James." The guy from the bar says as he holds me against to wall. Oh my God they are going to kill me. I knew it was a trap but I gave into my desires because I was excited that someone wanted me. That they wanted to kiss and touch me, I guess I was very wrong.
"I caught the fucking fag looking me up and down so I thought I would play a game so we could have a little fun."
I try to pull from his grip and run, I manage to punch him in the face making my break for it. But the other guy James intervenes dropping me like a leaf. I put up one hell of a fight until I am too tired to fight anymore.
I think of Seth over their insults, I think of my real mom and her soft smiles she used to have, I think of mama and everything I love about her, I pray to God to forgive me for my sins, and lastly I think of Jasper and his beautiful face.
I stop moving and slow down my breathing so they would think I am dead. I feel them spiting on me and their warm pee spraying across my face and the rest of my body. They stop.
" Fuck man lets get out of here. I think you killed him."
"Serves him fucking right. One less ass fucker on this earth we have to deal with."
I hear their retreating feet. I feel the darkness trying to over take me but I fight it so I can try to get home, but I can't move because everything is aching.
"Fuck dude are you ok?" someone ask me. I can only groan in response.
"Dude do you want the ambulance or something whoever did this got you real good."
" No…no.. c..c..ccould you h…hel.. help me to my tuck."
"Look man I don't that is such a good idea."
"Please…. Please… I'll be fine. I don't live far from here." I beg
"Alright man."
"Thank you so much. Um could you give me your name please?" As he lifts me up and helps me to my truck he tells me his name and to be safe. Emmett McCarthy. I have to remember that.
The whole ride home I can feel myself nodding off. Maybe this was a very bad idea. My body by this time is burning and I smell terribly of piss. Twice I pulled over so I could center myself and focus so I could get home. Maybe I should call Jasper to come help me. Ha ha that is rich Jacob, real rich.
Finally! Thank you Jesus. I make it through the gate driving up the long dirt road. I'm slipping I can feel it; I can't hold on any longer.
Groaning I drag myself out of my truck, yes drag because my limbs are going weak and I can barely walk. I unlock the door to the house falling inside the house as I do so. I can't help but whimper in pain as I drag my way trying to get to the living room so I can pass out. I can't scream because my jaw hurts too badly.
"Why the fuck are you whimpering? Did someone finally fuck your nasty ass too hard? It serves you ri ….." I didn't even see Jasper sitting on the couch watching TV, my vision is too blurry. He says this with his back to me until he looks back and stops talking, looking like he just seen a ghost.
"What the fuck! Jacob are you alright, wha… wha… happened. Jake? Jacob!"
I tried to answer him but I was too weak and my jaw was in immense pain. So I did the only thing I could at this point was to sub come to the dark mist that was clouding my eye. I was worn out and to broken so I let myself go into a deep sleep and if you asked me, too deep of a sleep in my opinion. I don't think I am ever waking up and my God I never did awake. I saw Seth and he gave me his hand and welcomed me home. Home.
Was it good? Who loves the character Mama? I know I do, that woman got a damn mouth on her!
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-Jaspered01
