After the operation was done, I left the infirmary, walking to the lounge. I saw the brothers and Kayo gathered in what looked like a group hug, centered around John.

I walked straight past, not daring to look at them, up the stairs and straight to my room.

I sat on my bed and cried into my hands. Stressed did not begin to describe how I was feeling.

I heard my door creak open.

I wiped my tears with my sleeve and looked up to find Scott standing in the doorway. I hate it when someone enters my room without knocking, but I think that this was an exception. "Scott…" I said looking at him feeling tears trickle down my face. "Scott...I-I...I saw her...Helpless...Just laying there...I-I…thought..." I stuttered.

Scott walked over and sat next to me and looked at my piano. "Heh...Guess i won't be painting it bright pink…" he laughed as I turned around and hugged Scott clutching to the back of his shirt as he rubbed circles on my back.

"Scott...My go…" John said slowly opening the door and walking in. He had obviously been crying. His cheeks had glistening red streak marks on them. I got up and hugged John and sobbed into his shirt falling onto the floor of my room.

"H-hey…" Alan said, entering with Gordon who held the door open for Alan to enter the room and give me a hug.

"You did it…" Alan stuttered.

"She's awake you know…" Gordon finally said patting my back and helping me get up.

"She's up? W-Why didn't you tell me?!" John said getting up and running out of the room and down the stairs. i was only a step away from him and so were the others. We could all hear wailing and we all ran faster, the screams were bloodcurdling.

John was the first one in followed by me then the others. "Daddy! It hurts!" Hoshiko's scream was unbearable.

John was holding her close to him, shushing her, rubbing her back. "It's alright, baby. Uncle Virgie will give you something to make the pain go away," He rubbed her back, but glanced up at me with begging eyes.

It wasn't needed. Hoshiko's screams and sobbing was enough.

I dashed straight into the cupboard where the morphine was located.

"This might make her a bit out of it-"

"Virgil, I don't care! Just give it to her." John begged.

I took a second to steady my hand and then I forced the needle into her arm.

Hoshiko's wails didn't get softer very fast, but they did eventually soften.

John was stroking Hoshiko's hair trying to calm her down. It was slowly working, her cries turning into soft whimpers and then she stopped.

"Daddy…?" Hoshiko said looking at John.

"Y-Yes...I'm here…" John said with a tear rolling down his face.

"Where's Mummy?" Hoshiro said looking around. She's known fully well from the day she was abandoned that her mother will never be around to comfort her, it would be us Tracy's. It was at this point when everyone noticed that these pills will hit her hard... But she needs them.

"S-She should get over that soon...it's just an initial reaction to the pills…" I said looking at John.

There was a silence followed by coughing from Hoshiko.

"Daddy...I'm sorry… I-I want to go to my bed...in my room...please…?" she said with several tears rolling down her cheeks.

John looked at me and I agreed, but she had to stay in bed and every time there was pain, she had to take a morphine pill.

John lifted up Hoshiko and carried her to their room and shut the door behind himself.


Hoshiko's POV

"Daddy…" I whispered wiping away all signs that i had been crying on my grey shirt.

"I'm sorry, sweetheart…" Daddy said rubbing my forehead and stroking my hair. His hair had lost all it's usual bounce, and I didn't like that.

"Why are you so sorry..?" I asked looking at my Daddy who was wiping his eyes.

"Because I took you to school…" He said looking at me. Him wiping away his tears didn't do anything because he started to cry again. "It's not your fault…" I say getting Daddy to finally give in. He nodded and kissed my forehead. "Get some rest...okay…"

I think it should have been me telling Daddy to do this but I silently agreed and fell asleep.


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