It's odd how you never realize how strong or weak someone is until you come face to face with them when they're stripped bare of all their armor and the walls they keep up so high. Cat never realized just how strong Tori was until last night, when she found her crying on a curb. Even though her friend had been so broken and hurt, she still had so much strength and determination in her eyes.
These thoughts run through Cats head as she lays in bed and continues to hold her fragile Latina friend. She has been up for some time now, but has let her friend remain asleep.
It appears as if peaceful slumber isn't an option anymore. Tori had woken, twisting around and sobbing more than once during the night. Her red headed friend had always been there, to hold her close to her chest and whisper comforting nothing's in her ear. The older girl begins to twist again, whimpering and ducking in her sleep. Gently, she is awoken by her friend, watery brown eyes shooting open and desperate hands clutching the front of the smaller girls shirt. She pulls herself closer, into the open and waiting arms of the petit girl. Sobs once again rack through her. Cat tucks her against her chest and kisses the top of her head.
"It's okay Tor, I've got you, nothing's going to hurt you." she reassures quietly in her ear. She holds her awhile occasionally delivering kisses to her distraught friends cheeks and mouth. Eventually she calms down once more and brown eyes cautiously peek out at Cat.
"I'm sorry" she says quietly. It's the first words she's said since her phone call to Cat. Confused, the petit girl tilts her head.
"Sorry? For what?" the older girl sits up a bit more and leans into her companion, almost as if she is afraid to be on her own in any way. She ducks her head again and shakes her head. She speaks no more and cuddles back into her friend, arms tight around her waist and face buried in her neck. Sighing, she lets it go for the moment. Deciding not to push her. After a few moment of silence she speaks up again. " I'm kinda hungry."
Hungry was better than the silence. Hungry was something cat could deal with. Hungry was something she could do something about. Hungry was the best thing she'd heard today.
"we can make pancakes!" she exclaims brightly, with as much faked enthusiasm as she could muster. Her effort is rewarded with a small smile from Tori. The redhead leaps up and pulls her friend with her down towards her large kitchen. The taller girl seats herself up on one of the spinning bar stools next to the large granite island. The younger girl is immediately active, pulling pans from drawers and ingredients of shelves. She sets to work immediately. The pancakes are half done, the batter is made and she was only just cleaning up the flour. It had been silent in the kitchen. The smaller girl trying and failing to think of something to say, and her Latina friend stuck in her head.
The flour is almost clean, she has the last handful in between her cupped hands when it unexpectedly explodes in her face. She is briefly confused until she is slammed rather forcefully into the counter behind her and Tori is kissing her fiercely. Instead of the gentle slow comforting kisses that had passed between them, this one was hungry and violent. The smaller girl tried to use her hands to calm her down but instead they were slammed into the counter behind her. She winced as pain shot up her arms. The older girl nipped, bit and tugged on her lips even drawing blood once. Cat whimpered and tried again to lift her hands, the brunette let her. And it was then that she realized Tori was shaking and crying again, her tears staining their kiss. Finally it broke and the older girl gasped and her chest heaved with the force of her sobs.
"I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry" she clutched at he smaller friend and cried. " I'm sorry, I didn't mean to! It was all hurt and your mouth just makes it stop and I can think again and I didn't mean to and I'm so sorry I'm sorry I'm sorry! You make it all better and I dont know! It just doesn't hurt when you touch me and you kisses are so good and I just wanted to feel loved!" most of her speech was garbled and muffled both with the force of her sobs and by cats shirt, having being pulled into her and held tightly, protectively. She caught most of what her crying friend was saying and simply hushed her and held her tightly. Dully in the back of cats mind it registered that that was the longest she'd ever spoken.
" I didn't mean to hurt you, I just lost control and I'm sorry I'm so sorry. I was out of control. I was wrong. I just needed to be In control, I needed you, I'm so scared. I never wanted to hurt you I'm sorry. I'm so sor-"
" hush" cat cut her off. " shhh it's okay Tor, you didn't hurt me, it's okay you don't need to be sorry. It's all okay. Your okay." anything she said after that was completely intelligible and cat just held her friend tightly to her chest and soothed her. It took awhile to calm her down but eventually her tears slowed and her sobs became small hiccups. Tori looked up at her friend, her eyes painfully rimmed red and the pain still shimmering just below the surface. Cat gave her a small reassuring smile.
"I'm sorry I hurt you. I don't know what I was thinking. I just, I don't know, I just wanted you to kiss me again"
"you could have just asked." she said teasingly. " and you didn't hurt me not really. Maybe I'll be a bit sore. Hey I can tell people I took on a big green-eyed seven legged purple monster to protect you!" this drew a small laugh out of her friend and cat smiled In achievement. " now come on, let's finish those pancakes." Tori smiled and nodded, hesitantly lacing her fingers with the smaller girls, who simply smiled and started back on the pancakes.
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A/N: hey guys, sorry it took so long for chapter two! i had intended the phone call to be a one-shot but so many people reviewed and told me it'd work better as a multichapter. now, im pretty bad at regular updates on multichaps, so please be patient with me XD but cheers to a new chapter!
