Chapter 2.

9 weeks.

My first OB appointment. I was nervous and scared and now around 9 weeks. It was a Tuesday morning. It had worked out perfectly considering it was a teacher work day. They said I would have my first ultrasound that day. Find the baby's heart beat, and give me a due date. I was going on my own, taking Derek's car to get there.

I wore a pair of black skinny jean's with a blue top over it. It was slightly tight and if you paid enough attention you could see I was either pregnant or was really bloated . My black stiletto's that Ellie let me barrow clicked on the tile floor of the doctors office. I walked up to the desk. "Can I help you.".

My body felt weak as my mouth made the words, I didn't hear them but by the lady's reaction I knew it was said. "I'll take you too a room and the doctor will be right with you. I walked with her down the hallway. I walked into the room and sat on the small table staring down at the floor. 2 or 3 minutes later a doctor walked into the room and smiled at me sweetly. "Hi Casey, I'm Dr. Stebbins." The doctor said and walked over and shook my hand.

"So Casey before we get started I need to know some things about you." I nodded and he looked down at his chart then back at me . "Your birthday is. ?" He asked. "September 13th 1994." He raised his eye brows. "Your 15 years old.?" He asked and looked at me directly. "Yes sir." I said looking down some. "Well I don't judge I had my son young with my wife." I looked up and him and smiled some , that did make me feel better surprisingly. "He's a year or so older then you ." I bit my lip and just smiled. "Back to business." He said and looked back down at his chart. He asked me questions for a few minutes then after that he got up. "Now it's time to see your baby, I'll go get my ultrasound tech." He walked out of the room and I sat on the bed , one leg crossed over the other.

It was another few minutes before a young looking lady, she looked as if she just got out of medical school. "Hello Miss McDonald, I'm here for your ultrasound." She said getting a blue bottle. "I'm going to need you to lift your shirt for me, I'm going to put some cool jell on your stomach" I did as I was told and lifted my shirt she put the jell on my stomach. I shuttered a bit, it was colder then I had expected it. She ran the tool over my stomach and a picture came up on the screen. It was a small blob a noise filled the room.

The lady pointed to a little glitch in the blob. "That is the heart beat miss." She said and pointed to it. My heart skipped a beat. "From what I can tell , everything looks fine and you seem to be going right on tract." She removed the tool from my stomach. "There you have it." She said and smiled down at me. "Would you like a picture to take with you.?"

I stared unresponsive for a minute. Do I want a picture.? The question had registered in my mind when she asked me again. "Do you want a picture to take home.?" She asked looking down at me a bit worried. I looked up a fake smile appearing on my face. "Yes, thank you that would be lovely." She smiled and started to head out of the room. "Oh, the doctor will be back with your picture and he will tell you your due date." I only smiled. I think it was then when reality had set in for me.

Something was growing inside of me , correction someone. Another human-being that I was going to have to take care of. Could I really do it.? The doctor walked back in the room. He had something in his hand, the picture no doubt. "Hello Casey, I have a due date for you and here's your picture." He said handing a white folder to me. I didn't open it , I just held it. "Your due date is June 15th." He said looking at me a full on smile on his face. I bit my lip and nodded. "Thank you very much." Dr. Stebbins nodded. "It's no problem , you can leave whenever you are ready. He left the room and I just swallowed staring up at the ceiling. "Why me.?" I thought out loud . I stood up and left the room, placing the white folder into my purse.

I took a deep breathe and walked out to the car. I got into the car sitting my purse into the passenger seat and staring out the window. The next thing I knew I was driving down the highway home. Car's passed me and I just continued. I arrived home at noon. My mom and George weren't home. But it was still un-safe for anything. I grabbed some orange juice out of the fridge and poured a class.

I grabbed my purse and headed up the stairs with the orange juice , I sipped at it on the way up. I laid my drink on the desk and turned on some soft music. Relaxing music

Swarling shades of blue

Slow dancing in your sky

The sun kisses the earth

And hush my eyes to cry

Cause I hear the whispered words

Within. You master piece beautiful.

You speck the unspeakable fraise .

I grabbed the folder out of my purse , I opened it and slowly pulled out the picture, It was tiny it was hard to believe it was a baby. My baby. Tears formed on my face , the fell down on my face. There was a knock on the door. "Who is it.?" I asked staring to shove the picture back into my purse." It's me Ellie." I relaxed ."Come in." She walked into the room. "Hey Babe." She said sitting down onto the bed. "Hey, I got to see the baby today." Ellie squealed and I looked over at her. "What.?" I asked slightly annoyed. "How's my little niece or nephew doing." Ellie said patting my stomach. I raised an eye brow at her. "You tell me." I said picking up the picture off the floor and handing it too her. "AWWW." Ellie cried out smiling. I just nodded. "That's adorable." She said and smiled.

"Have you told anyone yet.?" Ellie asked still keeping her gaze on the picture. "Beside's you no." Ellie rolled her eyes and put the picture on her lap. "Hun you need to tell your mom." I swallowed. "I can't Ellie, not yet anyway just a few more weeks." I said pressing her lips together.

"Case , sweetie you look pregnant she's going to figure it out or someone else will and they will tell." I sighed. "No one will find out okay." I practically yelled. Ellie whispered a little. "What if Derek finds out , he'll so tell your mom." I blew air out of my nose frustrated. "Shut up , Derek won't find out unless you tell him." I said glaring. "Why would I tell him.?" Ellie asked slightly offended. "I know about your little relationship with Derek." Ellie huffed. "Fuck you Casey and your baby." She said dropping the picture and leaving the room. I swallowed and stared at the open door. I stood up and closed it , I turned off the music and picked up the picture. I placed it back into the folder and placed it into my desk.

I glanced up at my billboard on the wall , a picture of me and Emily, Me and Truman, and me and Lizzie. Other pictures scattered on there with other people. Notes of event's to remember were there. A soft cool breeze came threw my open window. It was nice and cool. It smelled of Apple Cider. The smell brought back memories. It was basically a bonfire with music and food. It was always so much fun to go too. I had went since I was 8. That's where George and Nora had met all most 3 months ago. Most of all that's where I had met Derek for the first time.

A shaggy haired boy smiled at her as she sipped her Apple cider. Soft country music played. I kept his gaze and smiled at her from across the yard. He motioned for us to go around front where no one was. I blushed and walked over there to where he was. "Hi I'm Derek." He said smiling at me. "Casey." I said, a blanket rapped around me . It was a chilly fall night, it was the day before my 15th birthday. I was younger then most. I was the youngest freshman at my school.

"Do you live around here.?" He asked hopefully. I sighed and shook my head . "I live in Toronto." He nodded and looked around awkwardly. "Oh, I live other there." He said pointing to a house down the street. I nodded. "Nice."

'Want to come over.?" Derek asked his smiling. That surprised me, what did he mean by it.? To talk .? I didn't know. "I.. uhmm.. Are we aloud.?" He laughed a bit. "I'm aloud it's my house." He said smiling still. "I guess, my mom won't miss out on me to much." I said and smiled. He held out his hand. I took his hand in mine and we began to walk. "So tell me about yourself." He said and continued to walk. "I.. live in Toronto , I'm a sophomore this year and I'm 14 about to turn 15." I said shyly. " I'm a sophomore too." He said I didn't see his face much cause I was to busy watching where I was going.

I was such a klutz , always had been. We got his house a few minutes later. It was rather clean which was cool. He walked up the stairs and I just fallowed him nervous of what could happen. We walked into his room. Derek sat down and I just stood. "So Casey what brings you here.?" Derek asked me looking up at me. "You invited me.?" I said slightly confused. He laughed some. "No I mean what are you doing in a town like this." Duh.. Casey don't screw this up. "Oh I'm here at the skid burner with my mom and little sister." He nodded. "Nice." I sat down in his computer chair putting one leg over the other crossing them. "You know your pretty cute right." Derek said smirking . I blushed and looked away from his eyes. He slowly pulled the seat over to the bed to wear he was. I continued to just look down. "Don't be embarrassed."

Derek said running his fingers threw my thin brown hair. It he put it behind my ear and looked at me directly into my eyes. His eye's were brown and wonderful, the were the color of milk chocolate. My heart pounded. His fingers still running threw my hair he leaned in and kissed my lips. I pulled away quickly. The kiss was short and sweet , it was my first kiss. Derek looked into my eyes again and I swallowed. Did he just kiss me.? I smiled at him some.

"Your really cute too." I said chewing on the inside of my mouth. "I better get going." I said and stood up. Derek stood up also. "Why I .. mean I thought we were just getting to know each other." I fiddled with my fingers. "My mom might be looking for me." I said sounding sorry. "Oh .. Uhmm.. Okay.. Bye I guess." He said looking down. I sighed and looked at him. He looked innocent enough. "I guess I can stay for a little while longer." He looked up and smiled. I could see the hint of a smirk in there. I went over and sat on the chair again. Derek leaned in and kissed me again. I closed my eyes and let it happen. I let him kiss me. I let it all happen. It was truly my fault I guess.

I blinked at the memory and walked down the stairs and found my mom making apple cider in the kitchen. Whenever it started getting cold out she made apple cider and pumpkin soup , it was something she did ever since she had been a small girl. "Hi Mom." I said and she jumped a little bit. She turned around and faced me. "Hi Case." She said and smiled at me.

"Do you want some apple cider.?" She asked. I nodded and she walked over pouring me some. Steam poured out of it. The air had been cool the first week of September then got hot again all up until Halloween then the cold air started it's rounds around Canada. I sipped on the hot apple cider and closed my eyes inhaling the scent. My relaxing was suddenly ruined by Derek's annoying voice. "I'm home.!" My eyes flew open and Ellie was fallowing behind him. I rolled my eyes. "I'll be in my room, call me when dinners ready." I said and walked up the stairs. "Like someone needs to eat anymore."

Derek mumbled behind me. My mouth gapped open. I turned around and shoved him. He fell back down to stairs. "What was that for.?" He said annoyed. "You being a .." I stopped myself. "What good girl afraid to cuss." He said mockingly and headed up the stairs again. "You being a dick." I said slapping him and shoving him again. I huffed when walking up the stairs and walking into my room slamming the door. I sat on the bed. I had never threw a tantrum like that before and I can't believe I just had. All the anger built up in my just I had to get it out and Derek was the only person I could get it out on.

I hated Derek, at least I thought I did. He's so mean to me and I hated it. I finished off the apple cider and walked over to my closet. I got out a pair of sweatpants and an old band tee shirt. I needed a nice hot shower.

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I took around an hour shower; after I was done I walked into my room with only a towel surrounding my body. I closed and locked my bedroom door I grabbed a clean pair of underware and a fresh bra out of my clothes drawer I put them on. I looked at myself in the mirror. I was still small and petite. My stomach was hardly noticeable but I saw it and that killed me. I traced my finger around it then slipped the t-shirt over my body then soon after the sweatpants.

My mom didn't call me down until around 6pm. I walked down the stairs, my hair was mostly dry, I had put it in pony tail. I was nice and warm, I walked into the dining room. I sat down in my usual chair and pressed my lips together. "Thanks for wearing my shirt." Derek said sitting down in his chair across from me. I looked down at the shirt. It was indeed his shirt. I had barrowed it from him a while back. "Oh , Sorry.. I --."

He cut me off. "Don't worry about it." He said with a laugh. "I'm just messing with you." I just looked at him before looking down at my soup. I picked up my spoon and slipped it into my mouth. It had been a long time since I had had it. But I had to admit it was better then I had remembered it. Ellie was beside me staring at me. I refused to look at her. I couldn't stand her at the moment .

She was doing what I did 3 months ago. I hated it, my mom was barly married to George and I was pregnant. And then my sister is sleeping with the father of my child.! It was like I was in some freaking soup opera. I looked up at Derek who was smirking at Ellie, my eyes looked back down at the table . I closed my eyes. "Your special Casey." I opened them and looked up at Derek, he hadn't said anything it was just a memorie. That's all it would ever be. He was her's now. I ate some more of my soup slowly.

I felt Edwin staring at me? "What!" I said harshly. "Nothing." I rolled my eyes and muttered. "Yeah, better be nothing." My mothers voice came out. "Be nice to your brother Casey." I dropped my spoon in my soup making a CLANG.! "He's not my brother Mom." I said looking up at her annoyance in my face. "Yes he is now quiet down." I rolled my eyes. "He's really not mother , cause if he's my brother that means Derek's Ellie's brother and guess what there dating, so incest anyone.?" I said with sarcasm in my voice in the end of it. "Casey.!"

Ellie yelled and so did Derek. I rolled my eyes . "I'm so over this." I got up and stormed up the stairs. I'm acting like such a diva. But I had to prove a point. I went into my room and locked the door. I was pissed out of my mind. I never have been before. Hormones. I stayed in my room for the rest of the night ignoring anyone and everyone. I even had Ellie sleep on the couch. I didn't want to talk to her or anyone.