So stay with me
Kat's Point of view
I didn't mean to get Ishida-kun hit by the car. Although he'd insisted it wasn't my fault since I wasn't supposed to know the car was going to accelerate towards me. He'd pushed me out of the way and took the impact himself, that's what makes me feel guilty. Why he'd pushed me out of the way was beyond me. It's not like I deserve to be saved.
"Whatever you do Ishida-kun please don't die for Inoue-san's sake," I whispered to myself.
After I'd said that I felt a stabbing sensation in my heart, then my stomach began tying itself in knots causing me agonizing pain. I ran as if the dead were chasing me, I ran as if my life depended on it. I had a gut feeling after that, the feeling that Ishida was indeed dead. The feeling that he'd died saving me.
Of all the people he could've died saving, he died saving me. He died a hero. What if I hadn't stepped out into the road, what if I hadn't trusted my poor judgement? Well I know the answer to those questions; Ishida would still be here obviously.
I couldn't help but feel sorrow for Inoue-san she'd loved him so much, you could see it in her eyes. Her happiness has gone now. Through that constant smile plastered on her face I could see her emotions in her eyes, even if it was sorrow I could see it. Why she put a brave face on everything I guess I'll never know, but I suppose I'll leave her to live like that, appearing to be happy when she isn't.
"Kitty-san," I heard a familiar males voice, I shook my head it can't be him he's dead. Even though I do believe in ghosts and I've seen them before I refused to believe that Ishida was a ghost.
"Kitty-san," the voice repeated more impatiently this time.
I looked up to see Ishida stood in front of me, a frown on his face. He actually looked human, but he couldn't be I was so sure he's dead. I mean there's not one visible injury on this version of Ishida.
"Ishida-kun," I sniffed. He cocked his head to one side, a rare puzzled expression on his face.
"Why are you crying?" he questioned.
"Because you're dead Ishida, you died saving me of all people," I cried, the tears falling heavier and thicker down my face.
"It was my choice to save you Kitty-san, we weren't to know that the driver of that car was going to accelerate," he tried to console me, yet he failed.
"He was aiming for me Ishida-kun, not you, he put his foot on his brakes when you got in the way," I cried hysterically.
"It was my choice to push you out of the way," he shot back.
"What about Inoue?" I asked.
"She knows, she told me to give up if it was too painful to keep on living, I didn't want to give up Kitty-san I didn't want to give up but the pain, the pain got to much to bare," I saw at least on tear fall down his ghostly face.
So now I knew, Inoue the kind hearted loving girl she is had told the rather stubborn Ishida to give up if the pain got too much. He was hanging on for her, and then the pain got too much for his delicate body to cope. He'd died with her by his side.
"Ishida-kun," I wiped my eyes as I spoke.
"Do you know what she said to me, she said I'll see her again someday," I swear as he spoke this time there was a hint of sorrow. I didn't even know ghosts could portray emotions.
"Well you might Ishida-kun," I replied with a small brave smile.
Then it crossed my mind, what if he never sees her again? That would only upset the ghost of Ishida even more. I then began to sing softly under my breath.
Can
you forgive me again? I heard the words come out Then you look at
me I'd
give anything now Each time I
say something I regret I cry "I don't want to lose you." 'Cause you
were made for me I can't live this life So stay with me And you forgive me
again
I don't know what I said
But I didn't
mean to hurt you
I felt that I
would die
It hurt so much to hurt you
You're not shouting anymore
You're silently broken
to kill those words for you
But
somehow I know that you will never leave me, yeah.
Somehow I'll make you see
How happy you make
me
Without you by my side
I need
you to survive
You look in my eyes and I'm
screaming inside that I'm sorry.
you're my one true friend
and I never meant to hurt you
Ishida looked at me a mixture of confusion and depression in his eyes, "I'm sorry I left you here," he stated.
"It's okay Ishida, you didn't know the car was going to aim for me," I replied.
"Shame that the last conversation we had ended on bad terms," Ishida stated folding his arms across his chest.
"Yeah, I'm sorry I didn't mean to insult you on your Quincy pride, it just annoyed me," I replied.
Flashback
"I swear on my Quincy pride that I will protect you as well Kitty-san. You as well as Inoue-san, Kurosaki, and Sado," he smiled at me.
"Will you quit with the Quincy pride already? You're not supposed to do things on 'Quincy pride' as you so proudly call it. You're supposed to do things because you want to," I exclaimed.
His crestfallen face immediately made me feel guilty as we crossed the road, I didn't mean to sound so harsh. I didn't mean to upset him like that. I didn't mean to taint the meaning of Quincy pride to him. Then there was a revving of a car, the feeling of Ishida's body flinging against mine, throwing me to safety. Then there was the spine tingling sound of Inoue's scream.
End of flashback.
"I'm sorry Ishida-kun, can you forgive me?" I asked.
"I guess so, I'm not one to hold grudges for too long really," he replied.
And he forgives me again; he's my one true friend. And I never meant to hurt him.
