CHAPTER 2

FREAK

Yami walked over to the seat beside mine arms still crossed across his chest. He sat down and slumped down so his lower back was almost touching the seat of his chair. His legs extended out far beyond under the desk. He never took his gaze off the front of the room, which I thought was remarkable because everyone was either staring or whispering to each other about him, but no one daring to speak to him. When suddenly the class rep walked up leaning to the side with a hand on her hip.

"Hi Yami. As class rep I would like to welcome you to Domino high. If you need anything," laying her hand on his desk leaning closer to him, "feel free to ask" She said lowering her voice. Yuki had long black hair that reached her lower back, dark blue eyes like the ocean, and was kind to mostly everyone she encountered, including me. Though we only ever have exchanged a few words. She was usually always wearing some sort of elegant dress, but never looked slutty or attention seeking. It was weird to see her acting so flirty towards Yami, because she's not the type to flaunt herself in front of people.

'This guy has an aura that makes even the good girls fall for him? You've got to be kidding me...'

Yami looked to her and then back to the front of the class without replying to her. After a while of silence Yuki pulled her hand off the desk and stepped back. As she was about to turn away he spoke..

"Thanks" Yami said still not returning her gaze.

Yuki only smiled at him before turning and walking back to her desk. While the whispers seemed to get louder, people eventually started to talk to the new student, but I wouldn't of course. No way. This guy was everything I wasn't. I would be lying if I said I wasn't staring at him. Though I was only glancing at him and eavesdropping on what everyone was saying. Damn. He was making every girl giggle and swoon over him. He's been in class for like five minutes and everyone is already all over him. I sigh as I turn my gaze to the window and try to focus on something else. Anything else. Only to fail. There was something about this guy that made me feel excitement and fear at the same time. Too bad I'll never speak a single word to this guy.

The bell rang as the hours of lectures came to an end.

'I wonder where Joey is'

I walked very slowly around the front of the school not wanting to go home yet.

"Yugi!"

I didn't have to turn to know that that was Anzu calling to me. No. I really didn't want to walk home with her. I just have nothing to talk to her about right now.

"Yugi!" She called louder this time "Wait up!"

Can't she just leave me alone for a couple of weeks? Ugh. I picked up my pace and headed towards the smoke pit. A place I knew she wouldn't follow me to. I just hoped that I would see someone that I knew. I peeked into the crowd of people and saw a blonde haired guy waving his arms around telling an exaggerated story. It had to be Joey. I sighed in relief. As I sauntered towards him a smile grew on my face but shortly faded when I saw he was laughing with someone who wore a black studded jacket. I felt my throat get tight as I got closer to them. Joey turned his eyes towards me and gave me a crooked smile.

"Hey yug' not heading home yet?"

"No not yet, I wanted to come see you first" I glanced up at Yami, who didn't even notice my existence. He had a smoke hanging from his lips with his hands in his pockets with a cloudy look in his eyes as he gazed off into the distance. Someone in the crowd started laughing.

"Really? Cause it looked like you were avoiding that Anzu chick pretty damn hard" a couple of people chuckled at that. I felt my face get hot as I looked to the gravel.

"What? Are you still shaken up after getting dumped?" Another guy said in a condescending tone. "What's funny is that you thought you had a chance". More people joining in the laughter. I felt tears prickle my eyes. My chest tightened. I turned and ran, not knowing where I was running to, but I just had to get away. I heard Joey say "What the fuck you guys!?" Before I was to far away to hear them anymore.

I walked into the game shop to be greeted by my grandpa. "Welcome home Yugi! Did you have a good day today?"

"Yeah grandpa! It was great!" I lied trying to sound as genuine as possible giving him a big fake smile as I headed up to room.

'Just like the day before that and the day before that...'

I flopped onto my bed face buried into my pillow. I pulled out my phone to see a text and three missed calls from Joey.

Hey Yug, I'm really sorry about what those guys said earlier! It won't happen again! I'm going to beat the shit out of them if they pull something like that again I swear it!

I half smiled after reading it.

It's okay Joey. It's not your fault at all. Don't worry I'm over it :)

Realizing I still had another message, I quickly checked it immediately regretting my decision once I looked who it was from.

Yugi, are you avoiding me? Did you really not hear me calling you after school? Have I don't something wrong? Just tell me your not mad at me please! I know your must be upset about what happened between us but this is getting a bit ridiculous!

I clenched my jaw. There was so many things I wanted to say to her. Like how she shattered my heart into a million pieces and how it hurt so bad to know I was just being led on for almost ten years of my life. I walked over to my dresser and opened the third drawer pulling out my journal. I placed it on my desk and opened it to the nearest blank page and started to write the first words that came into my mind. When I was finished writing I closed my eyes and breathed deep. When I reopened them I saw the page I had written on had only about five words. all were written in bold letters. The writing itself was scratched in different shapes and sizes.

BROKEN. SCARRED. UNFIXABLE. LONELY. DIE.

I re-read the words a few times before thinking to myself, 'No one can ever see this'

I closed the book returning to my dresser. I reopened the message from Anzu.

Sorry Anzu. I was probably just lost in thought. You know how I tend to day dream a lot haha. I'll see you at school tomorrow okay? :)

I stared at the message for a couple of seconds angry with myself because I would never tell her how I truly felt.

~ding!~

I unlocked my phone to see a text from Joey.

Are you sure your okay? I can come over if you want or you can come hang out with us.

By "us" I assume Joey meant he was hanging out with his smoke pit buddies and they were the last people I wanted to see right now. Not wanting to ruin his fun, I told him that I was going to do my home work and get some sleep.

It was about nine o'clock when I had finished up the last of my homework.

~ding!~

Laying on my bed I looked at my phone assuming to see a response from Joey, but instead from a number that wasn't saved into my phone.

Hey fuck face. No one will ever love a freak like you. Especially someone as banging as Anzu! Hahahhaaaaaa

I started blankly at my phone. How did they even get my number? I felt numb. Empty. I couldn't cry. I didn't feel anger. I just kept reading it over and over. The same word going around in circles in my head. Freak.

~ding!~

It was a message from another unknown number.

You do realize no one gives two shits if you live or die right? Even your best "friend" Joey. He just feels so much pity for you. Don't you realize your only bringing him down with you? You selfish brat.

I lay in silence with my eyes glues to the message with and expressionless look. I didn't feel anything and that scared me. Maybe Joey was better off not being my friend. I mean, really who would want to be friends with a freak like me. My hands formed tight fists at the word and I started to breathe heavy as I sat up in my bed throwing my phone onto the floor. I could feel heart starting to beat faster and my body start to panic. I pulled myself over to my dresser again ripping open the third drawer taking out a cloth and a metallic razor. I fell to my knees and lifted up my jacket sleeve and started to cut into my flesh letting out soft gasps as it slid across the middle of my forearm. My built up emotions escaping out of my body through my blood. I felt tears sting my face and my breath finally leave my lungs. I covered my wounds with the cloth tightly to stop the bleeding. I sat in the stillness of my room for an endless amount of time before a realization hit me like a brick wall.

'I am alone and I'm going to alone forever.'

More tears stung my eyes and flowed onto the ground. I collapsed onto the floor curling up into myself and crying myself to sleep.