A/N: this contains disability and mental issues, if your not comfortable with these then I suggest you don't read this!
Sam was sat in the passenger side of her's and Freddie's car as they drove home; there conversation with Carly had been short and awkward; they hadn't spoken to her since she moved and Sam kept flashing back to when she indeed found out the news Carly was no longer here.
Flashback
Sam was scared, that was a cert. She needed a friend, and she knew exactly who it was she could talk to, confined in and tell everything too. Sam raced around to Bushwell Plaza and up to the 8th floor, running into the familiar apartment that now housed not only Spencer and Carly but also his long term girlfriend Hannah. Spencer was making a sculpture of some sort while Hannah was watching TV and there was no sign of Carly.
"Hey guys, Carly up in her room?" she asked them, they suddenly looked at each other with a guilty look; they seemed to be having some sort of conversation between there eyes before finally Spencer breaks the silence.
"Sam theirs something I need to tell you!" he said, gesturing towards the sofa where she gladly sat down, Spencer sitting down beside Hannah. "Carly has decided to got to NYU instead of Seattle Community!" Spencer said, my head began spinning; Carly was just going to leave me? Maybe when she reveal her story she might decide to stay.
"She should have just told me, but oh well it can't be helped. But I still really need to talk to her so she's in her room right?" she asked them and once again they looked guilty.
"Sam, she's already left. her plane to New York left about 3 hours ago!" Spencer said gently and her whole body just suddenly felt numb. she bolted up and ran; ran from the apartment, ran down the eight flights of stairs, tears streaming down her eyes, not really knowing where she was going. Suddenly Sam collided with what felt like a brick wall and crumpled into a mess on the floor.
"Sam?" a soft voice said which Sam recognised straight away, the one person she had wanted to avoid at all costs had ended up been the person she came face to face with.
"Go away Freddie!" Sam said as she pulled her knees to her chest, placing her arms on top and burying her head in them so he couldn't see her face.
"I'm not going to just walk away when I see one of my best friends crying!" Freddie said gently and Sam felt his presence sitting down beside her, "Now what's wrong?" he finished
"Carly's moved to New York to attend NYU and I need her here to help me because i can't go to college and I definitely can't alone; it's all your stupid fault Freddie Benson!" Sam yelled the last part before getting herself up and running away from a stunned Freddie.
What Sam hadn't told him then, and had waited a week to tell him was that she was in fact pregnant. Freddie was of course the father; they'd both had a horrific time at prom, Sam going with some guy who only wanted to catch Carly attention, and Freddie going with that magic chick whose name slipped Sam's mind. They'd ended up sneaking away; Carly had gone with Brad and was having a great time so they left her and headed back to Sam's. They talked and ended up reliving there shittest memories of Ridgeway, and somehow this led to sex, unprotected sex.
Once Freddie found out the news of Sam's pregnancy he swore he'd be their, they worked things out and eventually decided that Sam, who didn't really want to further her education anyway, would not attended college yet, if she wanted to in the future after the baby was born she could easily. They then decided that if they had any chance of raising a child then they'd need money, so Freddie decided to attend UCLA and do a computering course; they were much more skilled up their.
Freddie's mom wasn't thrilled about the idea of her son been a father at aged 19 but she bought him a small apartment in California all the same and him and Sam moved up their. It was close enough to his college that he could easily attend everyday; and if there was ever an emergency with the pregnancy. Despite of the pregnancy Sam & Freddie weren't a couple; it wasn't until after Ashley, there oldest daughter, was born they actually decided to have a relationship.
As Freddie continued with his college work Sam looked after Ashley; and then as Freddie's graduation rolled up Sam discovered she was pregnant for the second time, Freddie luckily managed to get a job working within the Pear Company which helped financially support both Ashley and a pregnant Sam who was eating three times more.
Beth was the next member of their growing family, but she was born with server mental issues; she could walk and talk. But her mind didn't function properly; she had severe learning difficulties and had a much younger mental age than actually age. As soon as Beth was born Sam dropped any ideas of ever attending college and made became the full time carer of Beth, while Freddie worked as hard as he possibly could to make sure he could financially support his family.
Eventually his hard work paid off and he got promoted to manger of the pear company in Seattle, although it meant moving the family both him and Sam agreed it was for the best. Both of them had loved their life in Seattle, living the for the majority of there life, until going to California and Freddie with the exception of living in Spain at the start of his life.
The house's been much cheaper in Seattle as well, they could afford a bigger house which had a spare room for all of Beth's stuff. Been back at home also allowed Freddie's mom, who worked as a nurse, help Sam out with Beth if they ever needed it. Surprisingly, although Freddie's mom had hated the fact that Sam was pregnant at 18 with her baby son's baby and blamed it all on Sam she took a shine to Beth.
Beth wasn't good with communicating, and although she was probably the loudest member in the Benson household, she didn't like meeting new people because she didn't know how to present herself. So it was amazing how well she took to Mrs Benson; Beth loved spending time with her grandma and Mrs Benson loved spending time with Beth. Although Sam was the main carer for Beth Mrs Benson would often look after her so Sam could spend time either by herself or a little quality time with Freddie.
Beth wasn't good in crowded places either, one time they'd took her and Ashley to a zoo, she'd got really over excited and this caused people to stare since she was been very loud. The people staring only caused Beth to get upset and her crying was even louder than her laughter and excitement. They'd left obviously but ever since then Beth would likely start crying whenever she was within big crowds. Her parents didn't know if it was because of what happened at the zoo or the anxiety. Now Sam could easily call Mrs Benson to babysit if she needed to go for a quick shop because they'd run out of a certain food. They'd always done the weekly shop on a weekend because Freddie was home; but now they had the help of Mrs Benson Sam could go whenever she felt like it.
Eventually when Beth was aged four Sam and Freddie got married; it was a small ceremony with just family and friends; Sam hadn't even been bothered about wearing a white dress. She said that as long as they were married then nothing else married. But Beth got excited about wearing a pretty dress, so Sam caved and allowed both her baby girls as she called them to be her bridesmaids. Ashley, who had developed the tomboshish traits from Sam wasn't so thrilled about this. But Ashley adored her sister more than anything and was willing to wear a dress if it meant keeping her sister happy.
After consulting Ashley she told her mom she was ok with Beth picking out the dress since she'd likely to wear jeans and a top underneath it anyway. Beth's favourite colour was pink, totally different from both her mom and sister who hated the colour; and she was set on having a pink dress. But when they went to look at them Beth fell in love with a simple lilac dress which had flowers embroided into it.
The wedding went smoothly, Sam wore a simple white dress which stopped at her knees with some cute white heels. Ashley stated that the dress looked a lot like the dress which her mom's favourite singer Taylor Swift wore in one of her music videos. The reception wasn't big either; they didn't want it to last long since Beth would get tired easily since it had been a busy day and she'd get scared if the music was too loud. So they basically just had a meal; listen to the speeches from everyone and then had their first dance. Sam had picked out the song I'll Be.
Two years into marriage, when Beth was aged 6 and Ashley was aged 9, Sam fell pregnant once again. This worried both Sam & Freddie, how were they supposed to look after a baby with Beth; and what if Beth didn't like her new sibling? Considering all this they still kept the baby. But 3 months into the pregnancy Sam found out she wasn't just having one child but two. The doctor said it shouldn't surprise her since she herself was a twin meaning it ran in their family.
The pregnancy went smoothly and Beth seemed totally fine with Sam's growing belly; she knew it was somehow her new siblings and even often talked to them. Sam gave birth to two healthy baby boys, calling them James and Logan (A/N: I know there in Big Time Rush, but I'm actually not that bigger fan of the show I just like the two names)
Beth was fine with them; she loved playing with them and finally been a big sister, Sam and Freddie noticed how it gave Beth a big boost in confidence. She finally felt like she could do more, been the baby of the family before and having her mental condition she'd never really got to play the older role since her mother or Ashley were always looking out for her. But now she could look out for someone, or in her own way she could anyway, and Beth loved it.
Sam and Freddie didn't know why they'd been so worried; James and Logan helped so much in helping with Beth's confidence and baby issues, sure she still needed lots of care and attention; but now she had two people who she could care about and is the one thing she claimed she'd always wanted to be.
James and Logan adored both their older sisters, with Ashley now older she was out more often, spending time with her friends. But since Beth spent most of her time inside since she wasn't able to attend a normal school because of her condition; this also meant she hadn't made any friends so she enjoyed spending her time with her two brothers and they enjoyed spending time with her; they looked up to her and thought there was no one more special than there sister.
Then finally nine months ago, Sam gave birth to the newest member of there family, a baby girl named Lauren. Beth was great with Lauren too, although her special bond was with James and Logan she still cherished time spent with Lauren and Lauren would often cry for her big sisters attention.
Sam cherished her family with all her heart; they were by far the most important thing in her whole world. Sam knew that if Carly had stayed then she wouldn't have them. Well she'd have Ashley since she'd been conceived before Carly left; but if Carly had stayed then Freddie wouldn't have attended UCLA, they'd have stayed at home. Living in their two separate houses, or Sam probably with Carly since her mom had just decided to move to Vegas when Sam graduated.
But that likely meant that they wouldn't have grown as close as they had during the months of pregnancy and they most likely wouldn't have gotten together after Ashley had been born. Truth was that even after Sam decided it was best to just stay friends with Freddie after she'd kissed him that night at the lock in, she was still in love with him. But Freddie had always loved Carly for years, and no matter how hard she wanted to believe Freddie when he said he was over her and only saw her as his sister, she just couldn't. That's why she decided to just stay friends with him; both Jonah and Pete had dated her in a bid to try and win over Carly, and she didn't want to go through it once more. she knew for a fact it would hurt twice as more if it was Freddie.
Then if they hadn't gotten together, that meant no Beth and Sam couldn't stand the thought of not having Beth in her life; no one to persuade her to wear a dress on her wedding day, no one to spend time with when no one else was at home. The thought of not having Beth their was just torture, and no Beth meant no marriage to Freddie.
Sam hated to thing of not been married to Freddie; she loved him with all her heart. He was the best thing that ever happened to her, sure so were her children, but without Freddie none of them would have been born.
Finally was the fact that neither Logan, James nor Lauren would be here either. If Carly had stayed Sam would probably be married to some other guy, a criminal most likely, only associating with Freddie when he came to see his daughter. He'd be married to someone more like Carly, with several kids with them. They'd live in a posh house and drink loads of tea, and the thought just utterly disgusted Sam.
That's why Sam hadn't liked running into Carly; she knew Carly expected them to hate her after what she done, and Sam didn't like the fact she actually didn't hate her and was rather glad she'd left. Sure she missed her best friend and at the time it seemed like the worst thing in the world at the time, but Sam loved her life now and would never change it for the world.
A/N: okay so I hope you guys like this because I worked really hard on it. Now I must let you guys know that I don't have a family member who is disabled or has mental issues so I'm not the best person on this topic; but I hate reading loads of stories not just about iCarly but others as well where there kids are always so perfect; it doesn't happen in real life. There are kids out there who suffer with stuff like this, and when I'm older I want to work with children like this. That's why I decided to involve Beth in this story. I hope I haven't offended anyone.
Beth like I explained is suppose to be to walk and talk but have a low mental age compare to actually age. In this story, unless it's set in the past and flashbacks Beth is suppose to be 10; but have the mental age of about 3 or 4. I asked my mum about it and she said that there is children out there like this. I don't know if she's right but I thought she probably would be and wrote this.
Anyway, this chapter was the story of Sam & Freddie's life, in the next chapter I might reveal abit more on Carly's life, and possibly Spencer's and Gibby's as well. Please review, I don't see the point of writing more chapters if no one likes the story. so please review if you like the story, and if there's anyway to improve as well then please let me know.
Oh and BTW has everyone seen the new iLost My Mind promo; I think I've died and come back from heaven. I squealed with delight when Sam admitted she liked Freddie, even if it was right after telling him she hated him; and Spencer as Sam's mom is just going to be hilarious.
