I parked my beat of a truck in the rocks away from the beach. I walked down to the bank, tripping along the way. Jacob wasn't there yet, I was hoping he wouldn't be so I could sit and think a little bit longer before he arrived. I found a piece of driftwood at the shore and sat down staring out into the ocean.

"Bella? How long have you been out here? I hope not long I didn't think you would be here so soon…" The voice surprise me. I jumped up and spun around to see Jacob walking towards me. He seemed nervous and almost shaking.

"Oh Jake!" I went to embrace him but froze. It seemed like he grew ten inches and his body was thick with muscle. "Jake, what's going on, it's only been a few weeks? You look so different!" I reached out to touch his jaw line. He stopped just inches from me, and let me touch his face. He took his hand and grasped mine on his face, his hand and face were burning.

"Bella, I'm sorry how I've been treating you. I have to stay away from you, Sam said it was for the best…" Jacob's worried eyes were staring into mine.

"Sam? This is something to do with Sam? Jake you hate him!…" He stopped me.

"It's not what you think, hell it's not what I thought either. Sam's a good guy Bella, he's been helping me through this." Jacob took my hand off his face and was grasping it tightly. His hands were burning, I couldn't get over his physical change.

"Helping with what Jake? What happened? Puberty? That happens to all of us! I thought I lost you…too. I don't understand what I did to make you…"

Jacob interrupted me taking my face in his warm hands. "Bella, you didn't do anything! It wasn't you, Something strange is happening with me right now. It's in your best interest not to be around me...for a while."

"You mean Sam won't let you be around me! You mean you're a part of them now, is that what happened? You joined Sam's cult! I talked to Quil, he was worried like I am about you! Just tell me what's going on Jacob! You told me you would explain" I started building up my defenses.

He suddenly flared up, releasing me and turning away. His breath was hard and deep, his eyes were closed tightly.

"Bella, I can't tell you, but you already know! Y know everything! I just got to try to make a way for you to remember." He gritted between his teethe. He turned back around taking a few steps away from me.

"Remember what Jacob, this is crazy." I hissed folding my arms and turning away from him.

"Bella, just think of the first time I met you, remember that day, the stories I told you? God, I'm not supposed to be even telling you this much. I have to go soon, Sam's waiting for me. I'm going to be going away for awhile Bella." He sighed and his head hung low.

"Jacob, don't go back!" My voice broke, hurt welling up in my chest and throat. I turned back and reached out for him. I was shocked at my own reaction as I embraced him.

He shuddered but didn't resist me, he embraced me back, kissing my forehead. "I don't want to but, I have to. It's not safe for you to be around me yet."

"What do you mean, safe? You're here right now, I feel safe! I hate them Jacob! I hate them for what they are doing to you! This isn't you!" I brushed my hands along his face, my eyes were tearing up, my breathing unsteady. He looked at me with hard eyes.

"Don't hate them Bella." He looked down.

I jumped out of his arms and glared at him. "I do Jacob! They're taking away my best friend. I don't even know who this person is!" Angry tears were running down my face, I was almost yelling at him.

"No you don't Bella! So you should go now, or I will." He said coldly.

"I'm not leaving." I whispered, taking a step closer to him. I couldn't believe this was happening again.

"Then I will." He turned away from me and started walking away.

"You promised Jacob! You promised!" I screamed.

He froze and turned around. Emotion lacking in his face "I know."

I slumped down onto a piece of driftwood, my breathing erratic, my sobbing uncontrollable but I managed to let out a whisper. "I need you Jacob, I can change Jacob, I'll try. I want you!"

"Bella, stop! I'm no good for you now and you'll realize this once you remember!"

He started running towards the forest.

I got up to follow him after him, "Stop Jacob! Just stop!" I was crying through my words

"Bella, don't follow me!" He was running faster, so I quickened my pace, he was so fast. It almost reminded me of…I didn't want to think his name.