Tuesday December 4, 2008 12:05 a.m.

Right now I should be sleeping, maybe I could dream of a place where my parents were supportive of me. I know that's not going to happen though. Sleeping is the last thing I could do anyway. If I went to sleep there would be a good chance that I wouldn't wake up.

See, after I hid the computer in my closet I opened the door to my very pissed off and drunk dad. He wasn't pleased with the fact that I had taken so long to answer the door and was even more pissed off that I hadn't told him I was going to the movie with Jake.

Jake was my very sweet boyfriend, but now my dad knows and he's not dating me anymore. My dad called him a fag and told him not to come close to me or the whole police force would be after him. Sadly enough my dad was being serious.

Sorry got side tracked talking about Jake. Anyway, so my dad now knows that I'm gay and that I was hiding the fact I had a boyfriend from him. To make a long story short we now need to get a hallway wall.

The reason I can't go to sleep is because I most likely have some sort of concussion and if I fell asleep I might not wake up. So here I am writing on my computer in my closet.

Of course I'm going to have to clean my computer again. I think this is the tenth time I've had to clean the blood off or it. This time the blood is coming from my wrist. It hurts like hell so I think it might be sprained.

Well I have school in the morning. I made sure to make my alarm clock set for two hours. After that I have a small test before I reset my alarm clock for another two hours and go to sleep. I guess I'll write more whenever I can.

Shawn Spencer