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Now, I don't usually do this, but I listened to this song whilst trying to write these chapters and it helped.
So… I named the story after this song because it said all that was supposed to be said in this story. In each chapter, I will post one or two lines from the song that are represented in this chapter. It will tell you in a nutshell what this chapter's "vibe" is. Just a warning, the lyrics may be the same in some chapters as they were in others, or they may have some of the same lyrics and then the line or two beyond that… such as in the next chapter.
Anyways, enough from me... I hope you like this chapter and please review!
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No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
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I suppose the only thing I can really do before my tale begins, is tell you about myself.
My name is Edward Anthony Masen Cullen and I was born in 1901. Yes, you heard correctly – nineteen-oh-one. I haven't always been in this… well, form, I suppose. I was born as a human to my parents – whom I now can hardly remember – Elizabeth Masen and Edward Masen Senior.
From what I did remember, my father was a barrister and my mother stayed at home and looked after me until I was old enough to go to school. After that, I'd no idea, but I did remember coming home to a house where my mother was always cleaning or cooking, or somehow, miraculously, a combination of the both.
When I was seventeen – and still human – I dreamed of one thing: becoming a soldier and fighting for my country, for the greater good.
But, that was taken away from me when I fell ill – like my mother and father before me – to the Spanish Influenza. Somehow, we'd survived the first wave. But it was the second wave that started in 1918 that proved deadly.
My father was the first of my family to die. My mother then contracted the disease from him and I from her. I could not remember her clearly even now, nearly ninety years after the day, but I remembered bits and pieces, like her laugh and the sound of her voice.
Oh, how I missed them. I wanted my parents – my real ones – every day but I could never have them, could never know them. It wasn't fair, but it was what I had to live with.
Carlisle Cullen was the doctor who tended to my mother, my father and me. He told me that on my mother's death bed, when she was seconds away from dying she tugged him down to her by his collar and begged him to save her son – to save me – in the only way that he could.
And so he did. He turned me into the immortal being that I am today and he provided me with parental figures and siblings, nearly all of which he turned.
And so, here I was, nearly nine decades later.
The problem? I was completely and utterly alone in a sense that the others of my family were not. You see, to a vampire, love is eternal and there is only truly one being that is meant for you; your mate.
I was without mine, and every passing year made it harder and harder to have hope.
The only other problem? Well, there was a certain someone who was so sure that they were my mate when they were not. And she would not leave me alone.
The key is to just blend in with the surroundings… pretend I'm not there… yes, that should work.
"Eddie," the blonde haired succubus whined and I took advantage of being turned away from her. Internally groaning, I clenched my eyes shut and grit my teeth. For the life of me, I had no idea how Tanya could think I liked her – I was sure that I'd done enough to convince her otherwise.
Or… perhaps if I ignore her and pretend I didn't hear her, that'll suffice. Perhaps then she'll leave me alone.
And so, vainly, I tried doing just that. I kept reading my book and casually slipped my earphones on, blasting the music. Of course, for my ears it did nothing to keep out the sound of Tanya's scratchy, grating voice but a man – vampire or human – has to try, right?
Dude, she's infatuated. That ain't gonna help, Emmett thought up to me from his room. Currently, he and his mate, Rosalie, were doing unspeakable things that I hissed at the images and growled at his thoughts. He took the point and gradually, his mind became focused on his wife and I shuddered, blocking him as best I could.
"Edward," Tanya called again and I sighed, giving up.
Well, at least she got my name right this time, I thought, trying to at least lighten my mood. There was no possible way that I could let myself snap at her, as much as I wanted to. She was down here for a 'visit' – more notably known as another attempt to 'snag me' as Emmett would say. I had to be a hospitable host… even if I wanted nothing more than to be the opposite.
"Edward, can you play for me again?" Tanya continued and I took a deep breath to control my temper. There was no way that I could snap her neck. I had to be patient… perhaps if I was patient, she'd leave me alone.
Even I knew that that was a lie.
I cleared my throat, an action out of habit rather than need. "Of course, Tanya, what would you like to hear?" I murmured in response and I growled under my breath at her squeal and giggle.
"That lullaby," she said and I paused. Noticing my hesitation, she groaned. "Come on, Eddie… please play it. You never do when I ask."
There's a reason for that, I thought to myself, sighing sadly. That lullaby was to be heard by only my mate and Tanya wasn't her… as much as she wanted to be.
"Perhaps another time, Tanya," I said, lying through my teeth as I got up, gathering my things and left the room. The reminder of the unfinished lullaby had saddened me to the point of suffocation and right now, all I could think about was getting out of the house.
I put away my book, but hooked the earphones that were connected to my iPod back into my ears. I fiddled around, finding the right playlist and soon enough, I was on my way, running away from that odious succubus as fast as I could. I sighed and smiled just slightly as the thoughts of others slowly disappeared one by one.
And there's the first chapter! So, tell me what you think and if you like my Cosmicward... see you next week for Bella's chapter!
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