A/N: This section set during Angel. Buffy reflects on emotion and duty. Drabble.
Disclaimer: Not mine. I'm out of catchy ways to say it.

Part 2: Weakness

Sparkling Angel
I believe
You are my savior
In my time of need
Blinded by faith
I couldn't hear
All of the whispers
The warning so clear

- Within Temptation, "Angels"

Maybe she'd expected too much. Maybe … no, not maybe. She'd been a fool to hope.

But she couldn't help it. The heart was funny like that.

Damnit, the Slayer couldn't afford schoolgirl infatuations! Definitely not more. Especially not with vampires. (Not even tall, dark, and hottie … see? Weakness.)

She thought of the jolt Xander's words had given her (…not like you're in love with him…) as she realized she was. Her attempts at denial (…can a vampire ever be a good person?…). What happened to her mom – she needed that rage.

Because she still wasn't sure she could do this.