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I feel light, almost as if I'm floating, drifting in nothingness. I can't feel anything, hear anything, smell anything, see anything or taste anything. Before I think for a second, everything hit me at once. Something terrible had happened but I don't remember what.
'I just remember walking home then… that's right,' I thought to myself. 'I was hit by something.' I screwed my eyes shut as I tried to curl into a ball, drifting alone in the abyss.
As I drifted, I didn't see the small flash of light in the distance but I could fell its warmth. I felt my body getting warmer by the second. I uncurled myself from and saw the small light in the distance.
'It's so warm,' I thought as I tried to get closer. I struggled to move, as I wanted to get closer to that warmth that made me feel safe once more. I drifted ever so slowly towards that light in the distance.
It felt to me like an eternity had passed before I almost reach out to touch the small orb of pure light, and as I did the abyss that had surrounded me vanished and I found myself in a place that I did not recognize.
I was in a field that reminded me of my home but it wasn't. The field was lush with wildflowers and tall grass but it was devoid of all life. There were no birds flying through the sky, no butterflies drifting in the wind, no rabbits running through the grass, there was nothing. I started to walk through the field not sure where to go.
I've been walking for a little while but I don't feel as if I have been. I body feels light and my breathing isn't labored in the slightest. I could feel the warmth from the sun, something that felt incredible after drifting in that abyss. I shook my head to get rid of that thought. I in place that was much better.
As I was walking over a hill, I saw an oak tree in the distance.
'This would be the perfect time for a rest,' I thought as I got close to the truck. But as I got closer I saw that there was someone else resting beneath it. They were leaning against the trunk of the tree with their eyes closed. As I got close, their eyes slowly drifted open and looked me with eyes unlike any I have ever seen before.
They were like a kaleidoscope of colors that I soon lost myself in. After a moment of eye contact, I could feel my face heat up as I realized that I was starting. Before, I could say anything they spoke.
"You've finally made it, I thought that you would never find your way but you have," They said as they smiled at me so gently.
I struggled to find my voice, "I'm sorry, but who are you?"
They smiled softly at me once more, "I don't exactly have a name. As I have never been given one. Perhaps you could give one to me?"
That surprised me, but at the same time it didn't. Of all the things that have happened recently, this was not the strangest.
"How about Luke?" I suggested.
"Luke," they said to them self, repeating the name ever so softly. "I like that name, but why would you chose that name?" they asked me.
I shook my head softly, "Honestly, I don't know. I just feel like that's the right name for you."
"Some reasons are not needed, but I believe that my appreciation is needed for the gift you have given me," they said, "Ask me for anything and I will fulfill it."
These words triggered something deep inside of me. Since I was young, I would imagine dreams and wishes that I would ask for if I was ever given the chance. My mouth felt heavy and dry.
"What happened to me?" I asked them softly.
"You meet you're end before it was destined," they said, "your death came before it was destined."
As they spoke, I could feel my stomach drop. 'I died' I thought to myself, struggling to process what I was told.
"That is why you have appeared before me, to resolve what had happened to you." They gently finished.
I couldn't believe what I was being told, I was finally starting my life and I was enjoying it.
But it ended too quickly. Everything that I had lost before I could even achieve it. I would never be able to graduate from college, I would never be able find someone and marry them, I would never be able to hold my child, but what really hurt the most was that I would never see my family again. I can feel the tears forming in my eye, oh God my family. I would never be able to tell them that I loved them ever again.
I could imagine the pained faces of my parents as they heard of what happened to me. I could see the pale face of my oldest sister when my parents would call to tell her the news. I could hear the sobs of my youngest sister as she was called home from school. I could see everyone that I cared about mourning, and it tore me apart inside.
As I feel into thought of what had been my life, I vaguely heard them crouching in front of me. I soon felt a warm harm on my shoulder. I struggled to blink the tears that fell from my eyes.
"Could you help my them find peace and live happily?" I managed to say barely louder than a whisper.
"Of course," they told me softly while keeping their hand on my shoulder. "Is there anything else that you would like, to help you find peace?"
I couldn't respond, right now I just wanted to mourn for myself, for what I had lost.
"We can wait if you would like?" They asked me softly.
I nodded my head as I sobbed.
How about them feelz tho?
So the reason that I chose the name Luke is because it can be translated to mean light in Latin. And in the future when I'm a dad, I really want to name my son Luke.
Also, I'm exhausted and I really want to try writing a story/stories because writing might help me clear some space in my brain that I can dedicate to doing class work for college.
Until the next chapter,
Gingi
