„I definitely packed everything you could possibly need. " Hermione explained pointing at the small bag. Ron was sitting in her desk chair, while Harry was silently leaning against the window. Both didn't say a word since they were in Hermione's room, and she had told them they would have to destroy Voldemort without her. „There are Books about Horcruxes, Healing potions and some money inside. Oh, and a magical tent." She explained, brushing through her hair nervously. She hesitantly looked over to her friends. Ron closed his eyes for a moment, before he asked, „What happened? "„What? "She asked, and her voice pitched a few octaves higher.

„What happened? Why don't you want to come with us so suddenly? "„I want to go... but I can't. "Hermione said. „That's stupid. We need you. We depend on you. "Ron continued, his voice suddenly icy. „Ron. "Harry said. „What? Be honest, Harry. We need Hermione. She is the genius. We are nothing without her. "„ I will be staying in England. " Hermione assured „You can send me messages or something like that. I can help you. I just can't leave with you."„That's stupid. " Ron mumbled and got up. He paced around the room. "I should do this alone anyway. Ron shouldn't come with me either. It's too dangerous. "Harry suddenly said.

„Stop that crap. " Ron said. Hermione crossed her hands across her chest and looked at him mildly. „We want to help you, Harry. I can help you, even if I don't come with. "„Sure. " Ron said and came dangerously close to Hermione. „What the hell happened to you? In Hogwarts you were happy to go, and now seemingly out of nowhere, you don't want to come with us anymore. "„Can't. " Hermione corrected him quietly. „Whatever! " „Ron. " Harry said warningly. „No. I want to know. What are you keeping from us? "„Nothing. "Hermione lied and cast down her eyes. „Hermione. "Ron growled. „Leave it Ron. "Harry interfered again. „No, I want an answer. Now. So what is it? "„It's really noth-"„Don't lie to us! "Ron all but yelled at her.

„I'm pregnant. " She whispered quietly and sat down on her bed. She cast down her head and stared at her hands laying in her lap. She nervously fidgeted with her fingers. „What? " Harry asked after what felt like hours of silence. Hermione tried to swallow the big lump in her throat. She barely suppressed the tears that so badly wanted to spill. „I'm pregnant, Harry. I just found out yesterday and the gynecologist confirmed it this morning. " „But... from whom? " her best friend asked and seemed to have looked at Ron, who then said „Don't look at me like that. I don't have anything to do with it." Hermione wiped at her tears before she looked back up. She would lie. She couldn't tell them the truth. Ever. They wouldn't understand. They would try to talk her out of it and she couldn't handle that. „It's nobody from Hogwarts. Somebody from my neighborhood."

„Damn Hermione. " Ron said and sat back down in the desk chair. He ran his fingers through his hair in exasperation. "I thought you were smart. " Hermione smiled sadly at that. "I thought so too..." „Does... does the father know?" Harry asked cautiously. Hermione shook her head in emphasis. „No. I don't think I'll tell him either. My parents don't even know yet. You're the first ones I've told. " „And you want to keep it?" Ron asked, Hermione nodded lightly. „I think so. I..." she went silent. Her gynecologist talked to her about it already. Explained the alternatives to her. „I can't kill it. It's only a baby. An innocent creature and a part of me. "

„You should still tell the idiot that's responsible for it. " Ron said. Harry and Hermione looked at him. „I mean, he should take care of it too. He should take over some responsibility. „ Hermione saved her breath to explain that Draco Malfoy would never take responsibility for an unwanted child. He would rather eliminate Hermione than take care of it, if he found out, that is. „What about your parents? " „What about them? " „I thought they wanted to go to Australia. " Harry asked. „And?" Hermione asked confused. „I don't think they would leave you alone in England. " Ron came to the point. „Mum almost didn't let us come here alone. You don't think your parents will go to Australia and leave you behind, do you? "

„Can we...can we leave it please. We have more important things to discuss at the moment. "She looked at Harry. „We need to figure out where we begin the search and while we're at it, Harry, I know that you want to go to Godric's Hollow. But I'm sure that they expect you to show up there first, since Dumbledore's death. So please stay away from it. Okay? Ron, you need to keep him away from Godric's Hollow..." They continued talking for a while and tried to design a battle plan, which wasn't easy considering that they didn't know where to start. But Hermione would help them. They just needed to keep in touch. Which probably sounded easier at the moment than it would actually be once they were gone.

A bit exhausted she showed them to the door. Mr. Weasley glanced at them over his cup. „Are you finished?" The two boys nodded and Mr. Weasley got up from his seat „Good, we're ready to go then, Hermione I hope to see you at the wedding soon, no? " Hermione nodded, though she was certainly not going to the wedding. Ron and his father were walked outside by Hermione's parents, but Harry stayed behind. „What are you going to do about your parents? I agree with Ron, I don't think they'll let you go around England alone. " Hermione exhaled a labored breath. „It's too dangerous for them to stay with me. They know too much about you. I need to make sure that they're safe, you know? "„You're going to change their memories, aren't you? "

Hermione nodded silently, making Harry sigh „Hermione..." „It's better this way. "She said. He seemed to hesitate, „You should leave the country as well. You're in danger too and now that you're pregnant as well..." She looked at him reassuringly „We can do this Harry. I am sure of it." He nodded unconvinced, sighed and held up the small purse she gave them earlier. "Thanks for this. "Keep it with you at all times. " She warned him while they were walking towards the others. The sun was almost completely gone. Ron patted her shoulder „Take care of yourself, yeah? " She nodded, but she couldn't figure out the look he was giving her. Anger? Sorrow? Concern? She didn't know. Harry hugged her tightly „Don't do any stupid things Harry. " „You know me, 'Mione." He joked and Hermione grinned back at him „Exactly my point."

A few moment later apparated, Harry and Ron in stared at the empty spot they were standing at moments ago, and her mother pulled back her hair gently. "Come, let's get inside sweety." „Yeah, just a moment. " Hermione answered while she heard her parents going inside. She let out a sigh and wrapped her arms around herself. It would definitely not be easy, but she had made a choice. Anything else wasn't an option. Mistake or not. Malfoy as the father or somebody else. The baby didn't have a say about that matter. Absolutely nothing. It was an innocent being.

Her hand rested on her flat stomach for a moment. It scared her a bit. She wasn't ready to become a mother. A child. How was she supposed to take care of a child? And then of course at this time? In a magic society, in which a nutcase of an evil wizard tried to oppress muggles and muggleborn witches and wizards. At least her child would be a half-blood because of Malfoy. On the other side, a Malfoy half-blood? He would never let that happen. Ever. He couldn't find out about this. It would mean her death. Her death and the death of her unborn child.


So...I am still alive. To be honest, I forgot that I had this account with this story ... I posted up to the 4th chapter on wattpad under the username awesomedrapple and also on Ao3 under LilaRitter4711 so if you want to read ahead while I am posting them here. I can't believe I posted the first chapter like 10 months ago and forgot about it. Not to mention my other stories omg...