Chapter 2: Clueless and counting the reasons why

Terra awoke the next morning, feeling confident. Today felt like it would be good, better than good actually. She got out of her bed and glanced around her small room. She would have normally been depressed by the dragging appearance of the small, dark room. She would normally have let the plain walls, dusty tile floor and basic awfulness of her whole apartment make her feel like crawling back under her covers and never come back out. But, for whatever reason, today she couldn't have cared less. She looked past the dirty carpet, stared right through the stained windows as if they were clean, and she smiled. Today would be a good today.

She dressed in her uniform as she normally did, and proceeded right out her front door. Terra arrived at school on perfect time, found 10 dollars on the floor, and wasn't given any homework the first half of the morning. She had been right, the day was going great. Just after 7th period she waited outside the front doors for her friends Lani, and Tina, who walked to the library to study with her everyday. Soon they arrived and where laughing with her about some event that had happened earlier that morning. That is, they were laughing until-

"Terra!"

A boy had called to her. All three of the girls whipped their heads up to look at the owner of the unusual voice. Who else but the green

Teen Titan boy would be standing there calling out to her? In a way she was almost excited to see him, and also she was embarrassed. Boys almost never spoke to her anyway, let alone famous super hero boys. Especially the ones she thought were cute. So there Terra stood, starring back at him, dumbstruck for what to do.

Tina turned to her with a puzzled look. "You know him?"

Terra, of course, didn't really know him. She didn't want to give away her embarrassment, so she shook her head no, and began to walk away. Tina and Lani following behind her. Terra noticed out of the corner of her eye that the green boy moved around the gate and stopped in front of her. He was standing in-between her and the way out. He was becoming almost irritating. His mouth spread into a wide smile, showing off that he had fangs, instead of normal teeth; and waved to her.

"Sorry, you've got the wrong girl."

The smile vanished, and his hand slumped down to his side. He was in shock.

"You don't remember me?"

"Should I?"

"I'm Beast Boy. We used to hang out together. You... thought I was... funny," he said, his voice becoming insecure. He gave her a sheepish grin. Terra couldn't help but giggle, she couldn't figure why though. He hadn't done anything funny, but still she couldn't help it.

"Ha, See! I can still make you laugh." He said triumphantly.

Then in the instant there was more color. The previously Yellow color turned to green; the same as the Beast Boy's skin, then returned to yellow, then green again. 'Go away' Terra thought, and the two colors did. But orange, orange did not. The yellow and green flashes melted away, and left an orange stain in Terra's mind. Slowly, even the orange crept away to revile the last color. Black.

Terra's smile evaporated.

"Like I said you've got the wrong girl." She said tonelessly as she turned to rejoin Lani, and Tina. She suddenly felt a gloved hand on her shoulder, keeping her from moving.

"Maybe if we talk, you'll remember."

'He's persistent, I'll give him that' Terra thought. "I've gotta go." She argued.

"Just one pizza. I'm buying, what have you got to lose?" He said desperately. Why did he want to spend so much time with her? What could possibly be so important? Terra had no time to consider if she should go with him or not, or if she should file a restraining order; but cause Tina, and Lani closed in around her smashing his hand between their shoulders. He squeaked in pain.

"She's not interested." Lani hissed at him, even Terra was slightly frightened.

"Yeah, get lost brat-boy!" Tina finished off for her.

"It's Beast Boy…" He retorted, and then turned to look at his squished hand. Terra felt sorta bad for him. He looked so downcast when she'd said she didn't remember him. And besides, he was one of the good guys, he couldn't be a stalker. And he was cute, so…………

"Maybe one slice." Terra said discreetly, shrugging off the looks of shock and outrage from Tina and Lani.

Beast Boy suddenly forgot all about his hurting hand, and smiled larger than a person would think capable. He immediately grabbed her wrist, and began to rapidly lead her away.

"Oh great! I'll take you to our favorite place!" He yelled excitedly.

Terra looked back at her friends for a moment.

"You sure you want to go with this guy?" Tina asked cautiously.

"It's okay. I'll see you tomorrow." Terra managed to get out, just before Beast Boy pulled her around the corner.

Terra waited for the next fifteen minuets for something to come to her. It could have been anything, she didn't care. A sign. That's what she wanted, a sign, an explanation, a great realization. A reason for why she kept seeing flashes of color, or why Beast Boy was so interested in her, or why she had actually said yes, or anything. She would have settled for any one of these questions answered, but all three would be nice.

"... And then, we pushed the Brain into the freeze machine," Beast Boy concluded. For the past fifteen minutes, from the time they left school, to the point where they sat down at the pizza parlor, to where they ordered sodas, he was recounting the events of the past year for his long-lost friend. He obviously thought Terra understood it all. She didn't .But Terra had to admit, it was a pretty cool story.

"Brain freeze... That's funny!" she said, laughing. It was funny. No lie.

Beast Boy sat back down, and smiled. "Finally someone gets my joke!" he exclaimed, and he laid a hand on his cheek, supporting his head. He looked at her adoringly.

"You haven't changed a bit, Terra," he murmured. Sure, he noticed there were a few scares that weren't familiar, but still... Her eyes were still that captivating blue that changed in the light. Her hair was still yellow like a bronze gold. The blonde looked into her Coke, happiness gone. 'He really thinks he's involved with me' she thought sadly.

"Why do you keep calling me that?" she asked.

"Because you are Terra," he replied.

"How can you be sure?"

"You... You look like her, you talk like her, you laugh like her," he listed, studying her intently. "Don't you remember anything from before?"

Terra clenched her fists, noticing that the ice cubes in her glass clenched together as well. Weird. She looked back at Beast Boy.

"I just remember high school," she stated. He looked at her, his face now taking on a new expression of recollection. She tried to remember, but couldn't, there was nothing. She soon found that while she had been lost in thought, her vision blurred, until she could no longer see Beast Boy. But she could hear him. He was telling her a story about this other 'Terra. She could not longer see anything. It was all misty, and there was nothing that she could see to tell her that his storey was true.

"You used to live in the desert before joining the Teen Titans," Beast Boy said

No not nothing, in the mist, there was a shape forming. A scorpion, a big scorpion.

"You couldn't control your powers at first..." he continued.

The scorpion vanished, and then there was the blinding yellow light again. Something was flying around in the blinding light, boulders maybe.

"...Then Slade helped you," the green changeling finished, his tone darkening. The boulders vanished, and the yellow darkened into a deep orange.

"You wanted to take over the city... But in the end, you couldn't go through with it, and you saved us all," Beast Boy concluded his storey.

Orange color was getting stronger, to strong for Terra to look at any more, but it wouldn't go away. It kept growing. Growing, growing, and then, darkness. Suddenly Terra's vision returned to normal. She was staring at Beast Boy, who wore a sad expression on his face.

"Why would you want to be friends with someone who was so much trouble?" she asked, wondering why she had seen the scorpion, the yellow, the boulders, the orange, and the darkness. And why Beast Boys little tale, had cause her mind to go on a fantasizing frenzy.

"Because I know who she really is," came the calm reply. At that moment, a large, steaming, delicious-smelling pizza was set on their table, and Beast Boy smiled.

"One supreme pizza, extra anchovies, hold the mushrooms; made just the way you like it!" he exclaimed, winking.

How did he know she liked anchovies on her pizza? He shouldn't have known that. Hardly anyone liked them, so Terra never mentioned that she did to anyone. She looked down, searching for an excuse to get away.

"I don't like anchovies; I'm allergic. I should get going," she said rapidly standing up, knocking over her glass, causing it to spill. She saw her reflection in the spilled liquid, and suddenly remembered something. Something strange. Her mind flashed back to a dream she'd had when she'd been in the hospital, while her burn scares had been healing. In the dream she had been running through one of those mirror fun houses. She'd been with someone else, but they hadn't had a face. There was just a figure and a garbled voice. There had been another voice too, but the words hadn't made any since, and the voice was unfamiliar. After the two voices had argued, and one attacked the other, and Terra had run through another hall in the maze. She suddenly came to a circular room where the walls were all mirror. Seeing her reflection in the water had reminded her of her face in the dream when she looked into all the different mirrors. Her face was deformed in every one, but her expression had been perfectly clear. Terror. Terra had been afraid, her mouth had hung open, a strand of hair fell into her face, and her eyes had been wide. She jerked her head away, as to dispose of the disturbing image.

"No, stay!" Beast Boy pleaded, "I don't eat anchovies, either. We'll get whatever you want," he urged. Terra didn't make eye contact.

"I've got a lot of homework and I need to get to the computer lab," she lied, actually, her homework was all done. She had finished it during study period that day.

"We've got an awesome computer at the Tower, and you'll get done in half the time!" Beast Boy persuaded.

"Okay," she said, "but I've got to be home before dark." Beast Boy grinned.

"Kay," he agreed.

Beast Boy led her to the tower; they were there in a matter of minuets.

"Whoa... This is cool!" Terra exclaimed as she walked into the Tower's Main Operations Center. It was a large room, kinda messy, but it was still nice. Definitely nicer than where Terra lived.

"This is where the Titans get their mission assignments," Beast Boy explained, "Over there's the kitchen, and that's where we play video games..."

"Must be nice to live here," she commented, sounding vague.

"You used to live here, too," Beast Boy sighed.

The blonde smiled gently. "I think I would remember living in a place like this."

Terra couldn't imagine why he was so intent on convincing her that she was this other girl. She wasn't, she couldn't be. She would have certainly remembered Titans Tower if she had lived in it. She would have, with out a doubt have remembered her so-called friends and teammates. She would of course remember if she had tried to kill anyone. But most of all, Terra would have remembered if she had died.

"C'mon, I'll show you your room!" Beast Boy offered, and led her down to the elevator, up to the rooms.

Terra and Beast Boy went to the middle of the room, and looked at the ceiling. It was decorated like the dessert, with paintings on the walls that resembled Dessert Mountains, and cactus. Terra imagined this was what the dessert looked like, she'd only ever seen pictures.

"Stars..." Beast Boy recollected, "Because you liked to sleep outside."

"Not me," Terra said, "I hate camping out. Too many bugs," she explained, not that she really knew. She'd never been camping, or at least if she had, it had been before the amnesia. She walked over to the bed. It looked softer than the one in her apartment.

Suddenly, something caught her eye on the table nearby. It was the heart-shaped box. It was pretty, one of those things you distant relatives gives you for your birthday to be polite. 'Or a nervous boy would give a girl he likes,' Terra thought, almost smirking. Wait. Why had she thought that? No boy, nervous or not, had ever given her anything. How was she supposed to know what a guy would give a girl? 'I don't,' she told herself, 'I'm just assuming.'

She opened the lid, and found the mirror inside. She tried to remain vague and nonchalant, but inside her mind was racing. The box triggered more voices, but this time it was hers, she was saying something like-

"...It's... I don't know what to say!" she had clearly been excited about getting the heart box, but she couldn't remember why. There was the voice from the fun house again, the first voice. The good one. It said something she didn't quite catch. She tried to listen harder but her concentration was broken by-

"I made that for you. Remember, Terra?" Beast Boy asked his voice gentle.

"It's cute," Terra replied dimly, "Listen, I really have to go." Could Beast Boy really have made it for her? She didn't remember it, it didn't even seem possible. She shut the box, and hurried out of the tower. Beast Boy followed after her, she could tell he was upset. He led her out and they walked to the shore.

"I think your friend's out there somewhere. I hope you find her," Terra murmured.

"I already have," Beast Boy replied, picked up a rock, and skipped it out onto the water. He picked another one up, and held it out to her.

"Beast Boy," the blonde sighed.

"Come on... You've gotta remember! Something... Anything!" Beast Boy groaned his voice on the brink of a tearful explosion. Terra looked down and shook her head.

There was a moment of silence before she saw Beast Boy lean down and pick up a clod of dirt.

What...?

"You can move the earth!" he said, and threw the dirt into her face before she could duck. It hit her so hard she nearly fell over, but caught herself.

"Why did you do that?!" she nearly screamed, and she ran off, tears coming for no particular reason, except for the fact that her scar under her eye began to sting from the mud.

She could barely hear Beast Boy screaming, begging for her to come back, that he would help her remember how to use her 'powers'. What was wrong with him? Terra didn't have any powers, she couldn't move earth there was nothing particularly special about her. Except for the fact that she had no past, and was randomly seeing color, and was hearing voices. 'But that doesn't mean anything' she thought as she stomped up the stairs to her apartment. She tried to think of other things it could be. Like schizophrenia! 'Yes of course', Terra thought, 'I'm just going schizophrenic'. Her thoughts' came to a screeching halt when she finally got the full grasp of her conclusion.

"Oh my god! No!" Terra whisper shouted to herself, "It's not that either. I just need sleep. Yeah, that's it; I just need a good night sleep." She thought as she locked her front door. She then turned and dragged herself to her bed. It had most certainly not been a perfect day.