Jackie POV

I grabbed my board and started towards the door behind most of the club. i watched the group they all seemed so close. i shouldn't be here im an outsider. i was lucky to even talk to them once i don't deserve to be part of the glee club. i got lost in my depressing thoughts and didn't notice Sam waiting for me by the door. i would have walked right by him if he hadn't reached out and grabbed my arm. i had jumped and hissed when he grabbed my arm. he had grabbed one of my newer brusies. he didn't know though because i had them covered. he instantly let go of me. "Jackie are you ok im sorry." i shook my head. "No it's ok Sam im fine just wasnt expecting thst." he nodded "So could i walk with you?" he asked awkwardly. i nodded and we went to my locker, turns out his was close by. i opened my empty locker and put all my books in it and hung up some posters. i had a Panic! at the disco poster and a Fairy tail poster. he waited for me to finish and we walked out of the school in silence. as w approched the front door he spoke up. "You have a really pretty voice." he said blushing looking down. i gave him a small smile "Thanks." i whispered. "i'm glad you joined the glee club." he said. i nodded "Me too i think i will be fun." he nodded "Yeah we are all pretty close and have a good time but it kinda sucks some times we get picked on a lot." i frowned "That dose suck no one deserves to be picked on." 'except me' i thought finishing the sentence. he nodded. i set my board down "well i better get going i have to be home soon." "i could give you a ride if you want." he said hesitantly. i thought for a moment and nodded "ok." he smiled and took me to his truck. i threw my board in the back and climbed into the passenger seat. he drove me to a crappy little neighbor hood to a small little run down house. he looked at it. "You live here?" he asked. I nodded "Got a problem with it?" he shook his head "No i just figured a nice girl like you would live in a nicer house." i smiled and blushed as he said that. "well i better get going thanks for the ride see you tomorrow." i said hopping out of the car. he nodded and waved. "bye Jackie." i ran to the front door and opened it slowly looking around making sure he wasn't around. i stepped in and shut the door quietly. i snuck up to my room hiding my things under my bed. i plugged my i pod into the charger and snuck down stairs. i looked around making sure he wasn't here. the house was empty it was jut me all alone. i smiled and went to the kitchen and started dinner. i got out a pot and filled it with water and put it on to boil. whial i was waiting i started singing and dancing around the kitchen.

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now it's a steel knife in my windpipe
I can't breathe but I still fight while I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right it's like I'm in flight
High off of love, drunk from my hate,
It's like I'm huffing paint and I love it the more I suffer, I suffocate
And right before I'm about to drown, she resuscitates me
She fucking hates me and I love it.
Wait! Where you going?
"I'm leaving you"
No you ain't. Come back we're running right back.
Here we go again
It's so insane cause when it's going good, it's going great
I'm Superman with the wind at his back, she's Lois Lane
But when it's bad it's awful, I feel so ashamed I snapped
Who's that dude? I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her, I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much you can barely breathe
When you're with 'em
You meet and neither one of you even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah, them chills you used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick of looking at 'em
You swore you'd never hit 'em; never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face spewing venom in your words when you spit them
You push, pull each other's hair, scratch, claw, hit 'em
Throw 'em down, pin 'em
So lost in the moments when you're in them
It's the rage that took over it controls you both
So they say you're best to go your separate ways
Guess if they don't know you 'cause today that was yesterday
Yesterday is over, it's a different day
Sound like broken records playing over but you promised her
Next time you show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave out the window
Guess that's why they call it window "pain"

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things, did things that we didn't mean
And we fall back into the same patterns, same routine
But your temper's just as bad as mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love you're just as blinded
Baby, please come back
It wasn't you, baby it was me
Maybe our relationship isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens when a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is I love you too much to walk away though
Come inside, pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity in my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed, I'll lay my fist at the drywall
Next time? There won't be no next time!
I apologize even though I know its lies
I'm tired of the games I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
Im'a tie her to the bed and set this house on fire
I'm just gonna

Just gonna stand there and watch me burn
But that's alright because I like the way it hurts
Just gonna stand there and hear me cry
But that's alright because I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

by the time i finished the water was bubbling. i added the pasta and started cooking the sauce. i was sining as i finished cooking.

I can see your shadow layin' in the moonlight
I can feel your heart beat playin' on my right side
Every night I long for this, makin' up what I miss
I can hear you breathin', lettin' out a sad sigh
You try so hard, to hide your scars
Always on your guard

Don't, don't let me go
Don't make me hold on
When you're not
Don't, don't turn away
What can I say
So you won't
No don't, don't let me go

I can see the skyline fadin' in the distance
Tears are comin' down and I'm tryin' just to make sense
I don't listen to the radio, just the engine and the road
I wonder if my words are makin' any difference
I dream and then it seems to end
But always comes again

Don't, don't let me go
Don't make me hold on
When you're not
Don't, don't turn away
What can I say
So you won't
No don't, don't let me go

I'm comin' down to where you're standin'
I need you now
Or you'll be watchin' me hit the ground
With a crash landin'

Don't, don't let me go
Don't make me hold on
When you're not
Don't, don't turn away
What can I say
So you won't
No don't, don't let me go
Don't let me go
Don't let me go

by the time i finished the song the food was done. i made two plates and put the left overs in the fridge. i ate my food and set my plate in the sink leavin a plate for him out. i ran upstairs to my room and and sprawled out on my bed. i grabbed my i pod and turned on an anime.

~1 hour later~

"JACKIE!" i heard my dad call me. he was clearly drunk again. I forced my self down stairs. as soon as i entered the room i was shoved to the ground. "You little piece of garbage you didn't clean anything up whail i was gone." he spat kicking me in the stomach. he picked m up by my shirt. "You should have never been born." he said throwing me to the ground again he started hitting and kicking me calling me names telling me how useless i am. he eventually stopped and i crawled up to my room to inspect my wounds. i had a few bruised ribs sevral cuts on my body and one on my cheek and a bruise around the cut, nothing to bad. i wrapped my ribs and bandaged my cuts. i crawled into bed putting on some music. falling into a nightmare filled sleep.

~the next day~

i woke up and and got dressed. i wore a pair of checkered skinny jeans a black t-shirt with Edward elric on it. i threw on a hoddie and a black wool cap grabbing my things and leaving before dad could wake up. i grabbed last nights leftovers and ran out the door. i plugged in my headphones and hopped onto my board and rode to school. When i got there i saw Kurt being thrown in the garbage and Blaine was about to be thrown in. i rode over and shouted. "Incoming!" running down one of the jocks throwing them in the trash. I stopped in front of them. they set Blaine down. "Oh look its the new emo chick." one stated. i smirked "leave them alone they didn't do anything to you." "oh what are you going to do write sad poetry. its none of your bisness what we do to these two." he replied. i sighed "so it looks like we are doing this the hard way. you can put him down and leave them alone or i can kick your ass." they laughed "Your just a girl how are you going to beat us?" i took a fighting stance and 2 of the 4 ran at me. i dodged and knocked there heads together and shoved them to the ground. one ran up behind me. i spun around and got punched in the jaw. i laughed "You punch like a girl." i punched his jaw dislocating it then hit several pressure points. he fell to the ground and i looked at the last one. "You going to go or do i have to kick your ass to?" he let go of Blaine and ran. i walked over to the dumpster and helped Kurt out. Blaine and i pulled him out. his jacket was covered in something wet and sticky. he took it off. "Well now this is ruined and i forgot my extra at home. I took mine off and gave it to him. "Here take mine i have an extra in my locker." he took it gratefully then noticed my arms were covered in black blue and yellow bruises and cuts. "Jackie what happened to your arms?!" he exclaimed. i mentally slapped myself 'idiot better hurry and come up with something fast.' "Oh i.. um.. fell down some stairs im ok." i lied. they looked at me skeptically but nodded. we walked into the school and were greeted by Sam Fin Quinn and Rachel. Quinn waved us over. the three of us walked over. Quinn gaped at my arms. "Jackie what happened?!" "I just fell down some stairs im fine." i answered they gave m the same look as Kurt and Blaine gave me. i shook it off we all talked before class started. when the bell rang telling us to go to class i went to my locker grabbing anther jacket and my books for the day. the first 4 periods went by fine and i met up with the glee group for lunch i sat by Quinn and Mercedes today. after lunch i went to my locker with Sam and grabbed my books for the last two classes. sam and i passed notes again.

S: hey Jackie

J: hey Sam

S: what really happened to your arms?

J: i just fell down some stairs.

S: no you didn't your a terrible liar

J: None of your bisness how i got hurt

S: did you get beat up?

J: im not answering any more of these questions

S: Fine

J: its perfectly fine

S: your stubbourn

J: I know

S: so are you ready for the glee club meeting after school?

J: yep i can't wait

S: can i give you a ride home again?

J: i don't see why not

S: great

this is where our conversation got cut off because he had to go to gym for 8th period. I went to the glee room and did all my home work finishing with #0 minutes to spare. i ran to my locker and put my things away. i grabbed my board and backpack. i walked back to the glee room with 10 minutes left to do whatever. i decided since im in the glee room i might as well sing. so i dug out my i pod and started a song

Look what he's done to you
It isn't fair
Your light was bright and new
But he didn't care
He took the heart of a little girl
And made it grow up too fast

Now words like "innocence"
Don't mean a thing
You hear the music play
But you can't sing
Those pictures in your mind
Keep you locked up inside your past

This is a song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
You are
Hear me when I say
You're not the worthless they made you feel
There is a Love they can never steal away
And you don't have to stay the broken girl

Those damaged goods you see
In your reflection
Love sees them differently
Love sees perfection
A beautiful display
Of healing on the way tonight
Tonight

This is a song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
You are
Hear me when I say
You're not the worthless they made you feel
There is a Love they can never steal away
And you don't have to stay the broken girl

Let your tears touch to the ground
Lay your shattered pieces down
And be amazed by how Grace can take a broken girl
And put her back together again

This is a song for the broken girl
The one pushed aside by the cold, cold world
You are
Hear me when I say
You're not the worthless they made you feel
There is a Love they can never steal away
And you don't have to stay the broken girl
You don't have to stay the broken girl

i finished the song with tears in my eyes then i noticed Mr. Shew standing in the door way. i shut off my i pod. i dried my eyes "Hey Mr. Shew." i said my voice breaking. he came up and hugged me. i stood there for a minute absorbing what was happening then my tears broke free. i cried for a few minutes trying to calm down and when i did i looked up at Mr. Shew. "please don't tell. It will only get worse if you do." he gave me his big sad puppy dog eyes. "please." i begged and he nodded. he let go of me when the bell rang and i went over to my seat and waited for the rest of the glee club to show up. soon every one had gotten here and we started. "Welcome every one this week im going to give you a project I want all of you to pick partners and sing a song of your choosing the only requirement is that it means something about yourselves." every one gets up and picks partners. there is Fin and Rachel Kurt and Blaine puck and Quinn Brittney and Santana Mercedes requested to be by herself and i was with Sam. Sam and i sat next to each other and we started talking about songs. most of the songs i thought of were about child abuse or were some what Gothic then suddenly i thought of the perfect one. " how about secrets by one republic?" he smiled "That's a great idea Jackie." we agreed on it just as it was time to go. we walked out to Sam's truck. we sung along with the radio as we drove to my house. each of us stealing glances at each other. when we got to my house i sat in the car for an extra moment. "so what day should we meet up to work on our project?" Sam asked me. "How about Thursday we can practice at my house." i said. he nodded and wrote down his number and gave it to me. i went inside with a big grin on my face forgetting to check make sure dad wasn't in the room. i walked and and was thrown to the ground and kicked repeatedly. "You little whore who the hell was that you were with outside?" dad yelled at me. I sat up and threw up some blood. "HE's a friend we had a project together and he gave me a ride home." i croaked out. He laughed "Friends you don't deserve friends you are scum garbage a whore!" he shouted shoving me to he ground pulling out a knife. he pulled my jacket and shirt off me tossing them somewhere. he pinned me to the ground and started carving into my skin. it felt like words. as he was doing this he was shouting insults at me. when my stomach was covered in blood he flipped my over and started carving into my back. i screamed as he did this. once i was covered in blood he got up and left me to bleed by the door. i grabbed my bag and pulled out my phone and called Sam. he picked up at the first ring. "Hey Jackie." he said cheerfully. "Sam i need help." i said tears streaming down my face. "what is it Jackie/" he asked worried. " come to my house hurry the front door is unlocked. please hurry im hurt and need help." i cried. "Hold on Jackie im on my way im not that far from you how badly are you hurt?" he asked "It's bad Sam." i answered. "It's going to be OK Jackie im almost there just keep talking to me." "Sam It hurts." i said quietly "It hurts so much." "It's ok Jackie im coming." he said i heard a car door slam in the background. "Sam when you come in you have to be quite." "ok Jackie im coming in." he said and opened the door hanging up his phone. he looked down and saw me. Running over to me. he lifted me up in his arms. "Jackie?!" he exclaimed. "Sam help me." croaked before passing out.

~several hours later~

i woke up in a small room i looked down and saw i had been bandaged up. i sat up in a bed. the room was unfamiliar to me. i heard the door open and i looked and sam walk in. "oh god your awake jackie." i nodded "sam what happened i rember you coming to get me then everything went balck." i said. he explaind what happened. he had found me brought me to his house and bandaged me up. after he explaind what happened he helped me get my t shirt on and we went out to the front room. i saw a little boy and girl watching tv. sam and i walked passed them into he kitchen. he offered me some food and i excepted greatfully.

A/N: this seems like a good stopping point hope you all enjoy songs in this chapter are Broken girl by Matthew West, Don't Let Me Go - The Click Five, Love the Way You Lie - Eminem

LOVE,

Otaku001~