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"Hi, I'd like to place an order for delivery," Logan says into the phone and begins to rattle off his order, credit card, and address to the guy on the phone at Whole Foods.
It's been a month. A full month since he saw Kendall. And he can't seem to get him out of his head, which is the most annoying thing to Logan.
He still doesn't fully understand what he's feeling, he's never been attracted to a guy before. It's not part of the equation. He has to have a job, marry a beautiful woman, have two children and live a happy life. That's his plan and nothing is supposed to get in the way of that. Yet here he is, ordering food and hoping it will be delivered by the guy he's been thinking about for 30 days.
This is his fourth time getting delivery from Whole Foods. The first three times, it was the same guy. Logan was fixing to hit the guy who kept coming, because it wasn't who he wanted to see. This guy didn't have green eyes or an amazing smile or a wonderful voice. This guy was just wrong. So he's hoping that this one, this fourth try, it will be him. That Kendall will be at his door.
He feels like he's lost all control he has on himself though, because how could this guy completely take over his thoughts? Every day he sees those eyes. Every day he thinks about Kendall riding that bike through the streets of Austin. Every day he wishes he could see him.
It was a week and five days later that Logan finally caved and ordered the food. He was so nervous when the knock on his door came. He was shaking and nearly ripped the door off the hinges in his attempt to see him. But he was completely taken aback and disappointed when he saw it wasn't him. Yet he also felt a tiny bit of relief. He wasn't sure if Kendall would be happy to see him or if he would even remember him; they only knew each other for like two hours. But he felt like he just needed to see him, even just one more time and then maybe he could move on with his life. And so he could stop wondering about what he is doing.
Every time it wasn't Kendall at the door, Logan's mind would think of different scenarios of why it wasn't him. Maybe he got fired for ruining that one lunch. Or he quit his job. Or he knew this was Logan's address and didn't want to come. Or he died in some sort of freak cycling accident.
He knows that it's ridiculous to even care or to worry. But he just can't help himself. This guy won't leave his mind and that is making him crazy.
He is instantly taken out of his thoughts by a knock on the door. He sighs, scared out of his mind as he walks over to the door. As his hand grips the door knob, he thinks about maybe not answering it. He almost doesn't want to see who it is, because if it's not him, then he's done. He's done ordering food in hopes of it being him to deliver it. He's done thinking about him every second of the day. He's done with the green-eyed stranger.
But eventually he opens the door, because he did order and pay for this food.
"Hey, margherita pizza?" the delivery guy asks without looking up.
Logan is frozen in place.
When the guy doesn't get an answer, he raises his head. "Logan?"
And now Logan is speechless. He remembers him.
"It's Logan, right?" Kendall asks, scared that maybe for some reason he got the name wrong or something. But that would be impossible, because he has been thinking about Logan everyday since they met.
Logan simply nods, still unable to form words.
"Cool. Um...it's Kendall by the way." He adds, afraid that maybe Logan forgot who he was.
Logan nods again. He must look like an idiot. "I remember." he manages to get out.
"Ah, alright." They both just stand in his doorway, staring at each other, not knowing what else to say. Finally Kendall shakes his head and smiles. "Well...here's your pizza." He holds the box out to him.
Logan comes to his senses as well and takes it from Kendall. "Thank you." And he can see that he is about to walk away from him, but he cannot have that. He didn't want him to deliver it just to actually deliver it. He wanted to be able to talk to him. And he had this weird fantasy that Kendall would deliver the food and announce that that was the last one of his shift and they would go out and he would show Logan the wonders of Austin. So Logan isn't ready for him to leave just yet. "So...how are you?"
Kendall looks to Logan's eyes and smiles that wonderful smile he loves so much. "Great, actually. How have you been?"
"Oh, good. Mainly just studying."
"Oh yeah. How's all that math stuff you love so much?" He smirks.
Logan laughs. "Really good. I'm enjoying it, though I'm still in my basic accounting classes and have yet to get to the difficult stuff."
"Only you would be upset about that," Kendall laughs.
"So how is the delivery business?"
"Booming." He grins. "Everyone needs their margherita pizzas," Kendall jokes.
"Hey, I'm just adding to the business, ensuring you still have a job."
"And I thank you for that."
They both are giggling and still standing in the doorway.
Once all the laughter has died down a bit, Kendall looks back at Logan. "Would you like to grab some dinner?" He realizes it's a bit sudden and out of nowhere, but he doesn't care. He's been thinking about Logan for a month and just wants to spend some time with him. Any kind of time. But he's terrified that Logan will turn him down again. He doesn't even think this guy is into other guys, but he doesn't care about that. This showed Kendall that it must be meant to be.
This time Logan doesn't even hesitate. "Yes." He tries to contain the excitement in his voice, he doesn't want to sound too desperate.
"Cool. I just have a few more deliveries to make and then I will be back and we can find somewhere to eat." And then Kendall remembers that Logan has food already. "Oh, your pizza."
Logan looks down at the offending box. "I'll just put it in my fridge and save it for later. Cold pizza is just as good."
"You sure?"
"Of course. Plus it will be good when I have a late night studying."
Kendall laughs. "Okay. Well, I'll be back in about an hour."
"Okay. I'll be here." Logan smiles up at him.
"Alright." And Kendall is still smiling as he turns around and heads back to his bike to finish delivering the food.
Logan closes his door, grinning. He sits on his bed, still on a high from having seen him and now they have plans for dinner. But it's not a date, Logan reassures his mind. Kendall wouldn't ask him on a date. Just two friends? They're not really friends, but maybe that's what it is. A dinner to get to know each other and become friends.
But then Logan's paranoia is back. And this time it's not about the fact that Kendall now knows where he lives. If he wanted to kill him or something, it would have happened. He doesn't think about Kendall like that now. But he is afraid that maybe he won't come back. That he will stand him up. Or forget him. Or just not care and said that to be nice, but didn't mean it.
He hates that his mind has to come up with all this and get him worried. He wishes he would relax and not freak out over every little thing. And he feels like when he is around Kendall, he begins to feel that way. Maybe that's why this month has been so horribly stressful for him. But that's an idiotic thought, because not being around a guy he barely knows could not be the reason for his fears. And that guy is definitely not the reason his shoulders relax when he looks at him or the safety he feels when he hears his name come from Kendall's mouth.
This dinner, that will be it. Once they have dinner, Logan can stop thinking about him all the time. Sure, they may become friends, but this obsession? No, Logan's not obsessed. But this feeling for this guy will calm down once he spends some actual time with him. Or at least he hopes so.
"He's going to show up...he will." Logan is now sitting at his desk, staring at the clock.
One hour and nine minutes.
He sighs. "This is stupid. Who cares if he's a few minutes late. This isn't a date." Logan is talking to himself, something that always happens when he is alone and nervous. Which is a lot.
He tried to study while waiting, but his mind wouldn't let him focus on calculus. It was only focused on those green eyes and blonde hair.
Finally, Logan hears a small knock on the door and instantly jumps out of his chair.
He checks himself in his mirror and smooths down his shirt. He thought about changing, but Kendall had already seen what he was wearing, so if he saw him in something else and found out he changed, he may think he was a weirdo or something.
He opens the door, sighing nervously.
"Hey." And there he is, with that voice and bike in tow.
"Hi."
They stand there in an awkward silence, still just staring at each other. They seem to do that a lot. Logan knows he can't help himself, but he's not sure why Kendall does.
"So, you ready?" Kendall raises an eyebrow.
"Yeah. Oh and if you want, you can just leave your bike here."
"Your roommate won't mind?"
"I don't have a roommate."
Kendall has a surprised look on his face from this. "Woah, really? How did you swing that?"
Logan looks down, embarrassed. "I have a lot of allergies. So with a roommate you wouldn't know if they had pets or something, so I get a room to myself. Got a note from the doctor and everything."
"Now that's pretty awesome. Not the allergies part, but the getting a room to yourself."
He laughs. "Yeah, it's pretty cool I guess. Means I get to study in peace."
"Ah yes, studying." Kendall smirks.
Logan is still laughing and moves to the side to allow Kendall to enter.
"Thanks." Kendall rolls the bike into the corner of Logan's room and rests it on the wall by the window.
"No problem."
"So, where do you want to go?"
"I thought you could decide, since you know this city better and know what's good."
Kendall nods, thinking up ideas. "Well, alright then. Have you been to Kerbey Lane?"
When Logan shakes his head, Kendall all but drags him out of the room. "We need to fix that. Now."
And they are both laughing as Logan locks his door and they walk out of the building.
"So are you getting better at finding your way around this place?" Kendall turns to ask once they have gotten on the sidewalk to start walking to the restaurant.
"A little, yeah. I basically just stared at a map for hours trying to remember everything and it works. Though I haven't really been off of campus too much to get lost. I think after that day, I've cooled down with going to new places."
"Well, it looks like I'm gonna have to change that. Because there is so much of this city that you have to see."
Logan smiles up at Kendall, who turns at the same time to gaze at him.
They walk the rest of the way in silence, but it's a comfortable one. One where nothing really needs to be said.
"Breakfast tacos for dinner? Really, Kendall?"
He gasps in mock surprise. "Breakfast tacos are perfect at any time during the day. And a cheeseburger? Really, Logan?" He jokes back at him.
Logan can't believe he's having dinner with Kendall and they are getting on like they've known each other their whole lives. It's crazy but so amazing.
"Where are you from?"
"A tiny town in Connecticut."
"Oh, cool. So this weather must be totally different for you?"
"Completely. My mom just told me a few days ago that they're already getting snow up there."
"Wow. Yeah, I think I will stick with the heat."
"So, have you always lived in Austin?"
Kendall nods. "Yeah, my parents moved here before I was born and they never left."
"Well, why would you want to leave this city?"
"You love Austin already?"
Logan shrugs. "I'm seeing the appeal of it." He grins.
"Well soon you're never gonna want to leave."
Logan smiles. He knows why he wouldn't want to leave this city and it's because of the guy sitting across from him. But he gets rid of that thought. He needs to stop this. Seriously, he is just now getting to know him and he's already thinking about how he wants to spend every second with him. Something is wrong with him. Besides, Kendall can't be thinking the same thing. Plus Logan has his plan for the future already set. So, he's just going to be friends with Kendall and that's it. He will show him the city and they will become great friends. And yes, that will be it.
They continue to eat their food while having a comfortable conversation. It's just small talk, getting to know each other a little bit more, but it's nice.
Once the bill for the dinner arrives, Kendall reaches to get his wallet, but of course Logan stops him.
"Let me get this. To thank you for last time."
"Pfft. This is on me. You bought a pizza and I made you leave it and come out with me."
They both stare each other down, but smiles creep up on their faces. And Logan can tell he won't win with Kendall, so he sighs.
"Fine. But next time, I'm paying." Logan shocks himself with his words. He hopes Kendall won't pick up on the fact that he just said they will go out again.
"Alright. Next time." Kendall smiles, while gazing at Logan. He can see that Logan is surprised that he agreed about a next time. He finds it so alluring that Logan gets scared so easily.
"So, you've showed me two cool places in this city. Any others?" Logan looks over at Kendall as they walk down the Drag.
"Well, this is another." Kendall gestures to the street they're on and points to the shops and restaurants they are passing.
"Well yes, except I've been to the Drag before. I had to go to the Co-Op to get my books for school here."
Kendall sighs, smiling. "You came here just for books? There is so much to this than just books for college."
"Well, then show me."
Logan can't believe he is being so confident and relaxed, asking Kendall to show him new things. It still surprises him that Kendall brings that out in him, but he thinks he will always be surprised by him.
"We kind of came out at the wrong time for me to show you everything here. Most places are closed, but we can get some frozen yogurt if you want."
"I've never had frozen yogurt."
"Seriously, have you been living under a rock?" Kendall smiles, joking, but Logan is slightly hurt by the words.
Logan knows that he has lived a bit of a sheltered life, but not because he was forced, it was by choice. He was always paranoid and scared of trying new things and he never had many friends. He mainly just studied and read books. He knew coming to Austin would be a huge step and something he needed to do, but that doesn't mean that he goes out and tries everything the world has to offer.
Kendall sees Logan's face fall and he could kick himself for causing that. He was just joking, he loves that he gets to show Logan so many new things. It's nice to be able to see Logan's face light up just from the mere prospect of seeing the city that Kendall loves.
"Hey, I was just kidding." He reaches over and touches Logan's shoulder to show he is sincere.
"No, I know. It's just, I know I'm a bit of loser and haven't done anything amazing in my life. But I'm trying to change."
Kendall stops walking and turns to Logan, making him stop as well. "First, you're not a loser. Second, never change. There is nothing that you need to change about yourself." He wants to add "you're perfect" to the end of that, but he knows it's better if he doesn't. "Just because there's some stuff you haven't tried or seen, doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you."
"But look at all the stuff you've done." Logan looks down.
"What have I done? I deliver food, that's amazing," he says sarcastically.
"Look at all the places you've been."
Kendall sighs, with a small smile. "The places I've been to are here in Austin and that's it. I've never been outside this state. You've traveled more than me. I am trying to see as much of this place as I can before I leave it."
"Why would you leave?"
He shrugs. "I want to travel."
Logan nods, but doesn't fully understand. If Kendall loves this city so much, why would he want to travel away from it? But he decides to drop the conversation. He'd rather just go back to laughing with Kendall then having this serious talk they are having.
"Are we going to get frozen yogurt?"
Kendall smirks. "Of course. I'm still going to show you everything I can here. To Swirl." He announces, pulling Logan down the sidewalk to the shop.
"What do you think?" Kendall raises an eyebrow while taking a bite of his yogurt.
Logan takes another scoop of his own and nods. "This is delicious. And the fact that this place is so close to my dorm, means I will be coming to Swirl all the time. So thank you for that."
Kendall laughs. "You're welcome. I'm glad I could help."
"What kind did you get?"
"The cake batter mixed with peanut butter. And I put Reese's, Gummi Bears, chocolate chips and strawberries on top."
"That is the weirdest combination."
"Well, what did you get?"
"Vanilla and I just put sprinkles on top of it."
Kendall shakes his head. "Oh, Logan. You need to expand your horizons a bit. Here, try this." He pushes his cup over to him.
Logan hesitantly brings his spoon to the crazy cup of frozen yogurt and scoops out a tiny bit, getting a piece of a strawberry, a chocolate chip and both flavors of yogurt. "Um...are you sure this is good?"
"Just eat it."
Logan sighs and brings the spoon to his mouth. He lets the yogurt sit in his mouth a little before swallowing it, trying to decipher whether all the flavors actually taste good together.
Kendall sits there with his elbows on the table and chin in his hands, staring at the boy in front of him, hoping he will like it.
After a minute, Logan finally looks up at Kendall, with a serious face on, making him think he hated it. But that quickly breaks and he laughs. "Alright, that was pretty good. But simple is just as good." And Logan lifts his cup to Kendall, letting him take a scoop.
Kendall laughs, but goes straight in and brings the spoon to his lips. He already knew he would like it, but he pretends to debate the flavor a little. "Eh." He shrugs, making Logan's smile falter a bit. "Actually, I think that tastes better than my concoction."
And Logan's face lights up. "I told you simple is good."
Kendall gazes at Logan, loving that smile. "Simple is great."
"What other sights must I see in this place?" Logan asks as they walk down the hallway back to his dorm.
"I'm not telling you where to go. I'm showing you everything." He gestures to himself.
When Logan raises an eyebrow, Kendall adds, "We can't have you walking around this city by yourself. Who knows where you may end up."
Logan chuckles, unlocking his door. "Fair enough."
"But that's only if you don't mind hanging around me some more."
This makes Logan laugh out, "If anything, I should be asking you that. I'm surprised you want to take me anywhere."
"I love getting to show you Austin. It's awesome to be with someone who's never experienced any of this."
They both walk into his room, smiling and excited about the idea of being able to spend more time together.
Logan is about to ask if Kendall wants to stay and watch a movie, but Logan hears the same ringtone he heard from Kendall's pocket when they first met, meaning he is getting a phone call.
Kendall grabs the phone. "Sorry, hold on." He reads the screen. "Fuck," he mutters.
Logan is surprised to hear Kendall say that and to see him frown.
He raises the phone to his ear. "Hey, babe...yeah, I know I was supposed to call when I got off, but I ran into a friend and we got talking." He sighs, listening to the angry voice on the other end. "Alright...yes, I'm leaving now. I'll be there soon. Love you." He hangs up and puts the phone back in his pocket.
Logan feels his heart sink.
"Sorry about that. I forgot I had plans with my girlfriend. She's pissed, so I really have to go."
Logan nods, but is crushed. Of course, he has a girlfriend.
Kendall walks over and retrieves his bike, heading to the door. "I'm really sorry Logan. Um...I'll see you around?"
Logan can't say anything right now, he is afraid of what would happen if he opens his mouth, so he just nods again.
Kendall nods back, frowning as he walks out the door.
Once the door closes, Logan falls into his bed, ready to just cry. But tries to hold it in.
How could he be so stupid? Of course Kendall is dating someone, he's too perfect to be single. And of course he's straight. Logan figured that, he doesn't know why he let himself think otherwise.
He was so dumb to think that there was anything there. He just wishes that Kendall wasn't so amazing that he made Logan fall for him.
After a few minutes of laying there and replaying the night in his head, he realizes that they still never exchanged numbers. Logan's back to where he was before. He has no way of getting a hold of Kendall. But why would he? Kendall has a girlfriend and obviously doesn't want anything with Logan. But he did say he wanted to show him more of the city. Logan now realizes that it will just be as friends. But he still can't call him or find him. He hopes that Kendall will come by his place, inviting him somewhere, since he at least knows where he lives.
Contemplating everything that has happened, he realizes this is for the best. The fact that Kendall has a girlfriend. Logan had already decided he would get over this guy, so this is the perfect opportunity. He has his plan for his future and this just means that it's right and he will just be friends with Kendall.
He tries to ignore the hurt he feels by that thought and lays there hoping to fall asleep and not think anymore about this night.
