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Continues right where we left off…
"Okay well lets go see him before we leave."
"No I won't let you do that." This surprises the gang…its like she's having this change of heart…it's definitely NOT in a good way. Just a minute ago she seemed pretty good…so when she said "no I won't let you do that" Chandler was taken aback by that. The truth is she wants Ross all to herself. She doesn't want to share him because the more people that are in the room with him the less time SHE gets to spend with him…she is definitely an emotional rollercoaster.
"What, why?" Chandler replies.
Rachel tries to make up some excuse, "Um… because he doesn't want any visitors right now. It's just too overwhelming for him. Sorry guys." Not really meaning it.
"Rachel! What are you talking about? How could he NOT want to see his friends and family?" Monica doesn't believe her one bit.
"You can come back tomorrow. I'm sorry but I need to respect his wishes." Rachel turns to head to meet Dr. Hayward.
Monica, getting upset, says, "Rachel, he's my brother! I haven't even seen him yet."
"Well I asked you earlier if you wanted to see him and you said 'no'."
"So what, it was a 'now or never'? You can't just keep him all to yourself."
"Is that what you think I'm doing? Because I'm pretty sure Ross would have to say otherwise."
"Rachel? Is there something you're not telling us?" Phoebe asks sensing that something might be wrong with Ross.
Rachel says while taking a deep breath, "Well…I wasn't going to say anything quite yet, but there is something wrong with Ross." Puts on a sad act, "It's just that... when I asked him if he'd like to see you guys... he didn't know who I was talking about. I didn't want to tell you guys because that could really hurt. I'm so sorry."
"My god Rachel, what the hell is your problem?" Monica asks, just about yelling now. Not understanding just what Rachel is feeling.
"Just face it Mon he doesn't remember you."
"You know? How is that he can't remember any of US? But he has perfect memory of YOU? Explain THAT one!" Crosses her arms thinking she has a point.
Rachel answers, agreeing with her, "I know…what are the chances right? I wish to God that this wasn't true, but it is. You guys can leave now...I have to go meet with Dr. Hayward." She looks at Chandler, Joey, and Phoebe and says nicely, "Bye guys I'm sure Ross will appreciate you being here." Looks at Monica, says in a mean way, "As for you, you can rot in hell." She walks out.
(AN: Yeah, yeah I know, its mean right? But they're both having a hard time with everything and Rachel's is having sooo many mixed emotions. So forgive me for their little 'fight'. And not to confuse you, but Ross does remember them. J )
Monica turns and look at the rest, "I can not believe her just now."
"I know that's weird Ross doesn't remember any of us." Joey says, obviously not realizing Rachel was lying.
Monica doesn't pay attention to what he said, "I'm going to go see him."
Chandler says, "Monica, Rachel doesn't want us to see him"
Monica, not believing he's on her side, says, "Are you freaking kidding me! Ross is my brother okay? I haven't even seen him yet. Come on." she's about to leave.
"But Rachel said Ross doesn't even want visitors, and why would he if he doesn't remember any of us?" Phoebe says.
Monica, trying to get through to her, "Phoebe? Rachel is lying, okay? She wants to keep Ross all to herself."
"Monica, come on…let's go home, we'll come back tomorrow, okay?"
Chandler, Phoebe and Monica keep talking and Joey sort of sneaks out, and it cuts to Rachel in the cafeteria sipping her coffee she's a total wreck but as soon as Hayward gets there she forces, surprisingly, a big smile on her face.
"Hey how are you feeling?" Hayward asks, with concern in his voice.
"Never better. What's up?" She answers in a cheery tone.
"Rachel, you were in the middle of a major meltdown a moment ago… you can tell me if something's bothering you."
"I told you I'm great" she smiles, "I'm better than great, you want to know why?" she asks, anxiously awaiting to tell him.
Hayward still doesn't believe that she's okay, but he's curious to hear what she has to say, "Why?"
Joey is off to the side and hears just about everything
"Have I ever told you that if I wasn't married I'd want to be with someone like you?" Continues before he can say anything, "I mean you're so cute and sexy and of course smart, you're a doctor." Says as a matter of fact.
Not really taking what she said seriously, "You're scared, aren't you?"
"No-are you kidding me. If I lose Ross…I have you." She smiles
"Rachel…" He begins as if he's trying to get her to wake up and realize that she doesn't have to put on this act, and that she has every right to want to freak out…
But Rachel interrupts before he can continue. She cuts him off by taking his left hand and examining it, "nope… no ring, you're single." Starts to explain her profile and continues, "I like romantic walks in the park…I LOVE candlelight dinners. I'm very nice, I mean Ross loved me. He told me like 50 times before he died, so marry me… please? We'd make a great couple, plus, I've known you for like 17 years, right?"
At that point Joey is in shock and hurries back to the waiting room.
"Rachel, you must be devastated."
She doesn't say anything right away, Rachel comes back to reality and begins to get sad again and calms down. "You have no idea." She says, slowly. No one says anything right away. She realizes something else, "Oh my god... Did I just propose to you?"
"Yeah" He smiles a bit. He knows she didn't mean anything by it.
"Oh my gosh, I AM so sorry."
"It's okay."
"Look. Can we please not tell Ross?"
"Tell him what?" He smiles.
Rachel smiles a bit, "Thanks"
"Hey, you just had a meltdown. It's okay. You're allowed to go a little haywire." Hayward reassuring her again that it's normal for her to be all emotional.
"How is he?"
"We still have to do some tests. His vital signs aren't the best…but they're getting there…"
Rachel senses there's more bad news, "There's something else… what is it?"
He doesn't want to tell her, but knowing she has to know, he takes a deep breath, "Ross may still slip into a coma when he falls asleep…"
Rachel's shocked, "Really?"
"Yeah. He's actually resting right now." He gets ready, expecting her to freak out.
Rachel gets very upset, yelling, "WHAT? Why?"
"Rachel, calm down. Ross needs his rest. He's been through a lot."
"Do not tell me to calm down! He just woke up! He doesn't need to rest. Not until his 'vital signs' are excellent." She mocks him when she says 'vital signs'. She runs to his room. Hayward sighs as follows after her, Ross is sleeping.
"Rachel, wait." He tries to get her to not wake him.
"Ross wake up, Come on." He doesn't, she's getting scared that he might be in a coma. Looks at Hayward, shakes her head, "This is all your fault." Looks back at Ross, "Ross wake up!" He still doesn't. She throws her hands in the air, "That's just great!" Her voice increases with each word she says, "Tell me Hayward, have you ever been in A COMA!" walks closer to him.
Ross wakes up, quietly, "Rachel." She turns around to see him. He smiles a bit. "Hey I'm okay I'm awake, not in a coma, I was just very tired. Sorry."
Rachel's so happy that he's awake, "Ross!" Runs to his side "I'm so glad you're okay. You're never sleeping again."
Hayward says, awkwardly, "Okay so let's let Ross get some rest." (Picture this being like when Ross and Rachel get locked out of their apartment and Emma's in there.
Remember?)
"No, I'm serious he's never sleeping again, not if its at risk of putting him in a coma."
"Rachel, I'm very tired."
Rachel doesn't accept it, "How can you be tired Ross? You just woke up."
"Yeah but…" Ross doesn't really know what to say.
Rachel looks down and no one says anything right away. She then looks up at Hayward and sighs "Can you give us a minute, Please?"
"Sure take you're time, I'll be back."
"Thanks." He leaves. She looks at Ross, "How you feeling?"
"I don't know… I hurt."
"Where does it hurt?"
"Sweetie, I don't want to bore you with my pain. How are you? How are the kids?"
"You know I'm fine, we're fine. Now stop. I just hate seeing you like this. I wish I could take it all away."
"You being here helps a lot."
Rachel smiles, "Aw... you must be fine, you're still so sweet."
Ross thinks, "You know what else would help? If the rest of the gang were here. Where are they by the way?" He asks curious.
Rachel was hoping they wouldn't come up but had a feeling they would, rolls her eyes, "Ugh."
"Did something happen?"
Getting upset again, "It just shows how much they care, right? They left."
Ross, kinda bummed, "Oh, um they must of had to work?"
Rachel shakes her head, "Nope. Actually they said they were getting bored, and some game is on or something."
"Oh…must've been a big game. It's kind of mean. you know? I wish they were here. "
Rachel, agreeing, "I know, I tried to get them to stay, but they didn't want to."
Ross, upset now, "Well who needs them anyway? I have you." Smiles.
Rachel smiles, "Yeah, and the less they're here, the more I can do this..." She leans in and kisses him.
Ross smiles, "Hmmm…I'm so glad you're here." Pause, wanting to know more, "I still can't believe they would do something like this."
Rachel doesn't want to talk about them. "You know what honey, let's forget about them right now."
Ross still wondering, "So what was your response to all of that?"
Rachel's frustrated that he can't let it go, "Well I was so mad at them, that when I got them to finally stay, they said they'd say a quick goodbye, but I told them you didn't know who they were, and you'd just be too overwhelmed with people you didn't know. Monica was the worst one. I couldn't believe the way she was acting. I mean I really needed comfort and...are you mad that I told them that?"
Ross is still confused. Mainly because this really doesn't sound like them, "I just don't understand, they believed you? That I only remembered you?"
"Yeah, I guess. Are you mad?"
"Not really, I just haven't seen them yet and was just wondering..."
Rachel regrets, "I'm sorry, I shouldn't of..."
"No, it's okay, they don't seem like they're worth getting mad over, right?" He says makes a hurting kinda of face, his head hurts.
"Oh honey if talking about those guys makes your head hurt, then let's stop okay?"
"How bout some more of those sweet kisses?" They smile and she kisses him.
Meantime in the waiting room
"...Joey I think you misunderstood." Phoebe says.
Joey's frustrated that nobody is believing this, "...I'm telling you, she asked Hayward to marry her, since Ross died."
Chandler, making sure he heard right, "Hold on, she's using past tense, as if he did die?"
Monica, upset, not realizing Chandler's last statement, "You know, I always thought she had a thing for him."
Joey doesn't get what Chandler is getting at, "Chandler, what's the big deal?"
Chandler begins to explain to them, well Monica and Joey. Phoebe understands, "You guys, Rachel is hurting, she's already saying that Ross died.
"I don't care, Ross deserves to know." Monica knows Joey is more on her side, says, "Come on Joey let's go tell him." They're about to leave.
"You're not going to tell him anything."
Phoebe speaks up, "Yeah, do you really think she meant it? Do you think she really wants to marry him?"
"Yeah you know, I'm sure she was probably having a major meltdown."
This sends Monica off the edge, "MELTDOWN?!"
Chandler tries to get through to her, "Yes Monica, a meltdown. Sure Rachel cried a bit, but other than that, she's been pretty together in all of this and I'm surprised she hasn't broke down sooner."
Monica's being stubborn, now trying to get him to understand, "Well I don't care how sad or upset you are, you don't ask your doctor to marry you! That'd be like, like me asking Hayward to be my brother. It's crazy."
Joey, not really wanting to say it, says, "You know? Dr. Hayward did say she probably was just having a meltdown, you know, because of how sad she really is."
Phoebe says to Monica, "See? We have nothing to worry about."
Monica still doesn't care, "Whatever, I'm going to tell him." She walks out and the rest look at each other, sigh, and follows her.
Ross' Room, him and Rachel are talking quietly, laughing. The gang walk in, Monica's in front of Joey, Chandler and Phoebe, because they don't really want to be there. They don't say anything.
Monica's disgusted at how Ross and Rachel are laughing, "Are you kidding me with this?"
Rachel didn't expect to see them, she looks at Ross, worried then back up at Monica, she's kind of in a daze. "Oh my god…"
"Rachel, are you surprised to see us?"
Ross says to Rachel, "Honey? Do you know these people?" Rachel's shocked that he's playing like he really doesn't remember them.
Monica, not realizing what he said, "I think you'd like to know what your wife has been up to."
Ross looks at Rachel, then back at the gang, "I'm sorry, do we know you or something?"
"It's Moni..." Just realizing, "Wait a minute?" Looks at Rachel, "So it's true? He really doesn't..."
"Why would I lie?"
"Rachel, who are these people?"
Rachel looks at Monica, "They..." stresses, "were our friends."
Monica's shocked, "We gotta... we gotta go..." She turns around and pushes the gang out.
Ross says, satisfied at the outcome, "Well that was fun, did you see their faces?"
Rachel feels very guilty at what just happened, "Yeah, um, listen I'll be right back, okay?"
"Hurry back"
"I will." She kisses him before leaving. She catches up to the gang waiting for the elevator.
Monica, doesn't see Rachel, shocked that Rachel was telling the truth, "Did you see him look at us? He really didn't remember."
"Hey guys"
Monica gets upset to see her, "What do you want? Did you come to tell me 'I told ya so' What?"
Rachel looks at her and hugs her. While they're hugging, truly meaning what she says, "I am so sorry. You're right."
Monica breaks the hug, "About what?"
Rachel takes a deep breath, "I really did want Ross all to myself. I just want to spend as much time as I can with him."
Monica sarcastically says, "So is that why you proposed to your doctor?
Rachel's surprised, "You know about that?"
"Joey overheard you."
Joey says to Monica, "What did I say about keeping it a secret?"
Monica looks at him, weirdly, "Um, nothing Joe."
Joey thinks about it, "Oh, Right."
Monica looks back at Rachel, "I mean, you're already talking as if Ross already died."
Chandler tries to get her to stop, "Monica, don't."
"No it's okay, really. I shouldn't of..." Looks at Monica, "Look I was having a..."
Monica cuts her off, mad, "If you say 'meltdown…I swear I'm gonna…"
"Monica! Have you realized just how hard this is for me?"
"Oh and this isn't hard for me one bit." Yells, "Hello! Ross is my brother, okay? I've known him a lot longer than you have."
Rachel attempts to get through to her another way, "Monica, Do you know what I've been doing the last hour and a half?"
Monica, in a snotty way, says, "Planning your wedding?"
Rachel can't believe she's being this difficult, "Will you stop with that?" Calms, takes a deep breath, "Look, the last hour and a half I've been playing in my head ways to tell our children that daddy's gone and is never coming back. And that even though that they can't see daddy, he's there in their hearts." Monica looks like she's finally getting it, and feels bad, "What do I tell Emma?" (AN: I don't own her) "She's not even born yet and she might not have a father her whole life." Starts getting teary eyed again, saying that last part. "I know this is hard for you and I'm sorry I just..." Starts to cry
Monica hugs her and they cry together, "Oh honey, it'll be okay. I'm so sorry"
They break the hug, "You have nothing to be sorry for. I'm the one..."
"You know what? Let's not do this, it's nobody's fault."
"You're right."
"Well we're going to go home and..."
"Wait…you guys should go see him first."
"No it's okay, you need to be with him right now. We'll come by tomorrow, all day okay?"
"Are you sure, because..."
"Yeah" She looks at the gang, "Is that okay guys?"
Chandler, Phoebe, Joey, "Yeah; sure; Etc."
Monica looks back at Rachel and smiles, "Go be with him."
"Thank you Monica"
"We'll see you tomorrow. Okay?"
Rachel hugs them one by one.
"Thanks so much guys. Oh and I'll tell Ross everything. About the proposal and such…"
"You don't have to Rachel."
Smiles, "I need to, he deserves to know. I'm sorry I told you he forgot who you were. I'm even more sorry I told him that "
"It's fine Rachel, I honestly don't know what I would've done in your situation." They leave
Rachel goes back to Ross' room
Ross, glad to see her "Hey I thought maybe you went home. What took you so long?"
"I love you so much."
Ross looks at her weirdly, "Is everything alright?"
"What? Yeah everything's fine. I just had to talk to Monica. Ross, I was being selfish earlier and I need to apologize to you."
"For what?"
"Well for telling you that our friends didn't want to be here. I actually insisted that they could leave, because I wanted you all to myself."
Ross gets a little upset, "Why would you..."
Rachel feels bad, and breaks down, "I don't know! I don't know Ross…I mean I proposed to our doctor…" disgusted with herself. "And I…"
"What?"
"I'm sorry, but I'm scared Ross…I'm so scared."
"No honey, it's okay. I'm sorry. If you were in this accident and that was me, I know I'd want you for myself. Who knows what crazy things I might've done."
"I'm sure you wouldn't of proposed to the doctor."
They smile slightly, "You're right, I don't think it would come to that, but…you didn't mean it, so it's all good."
"Thank-you Ross…for being so understanding in all of this."
They don't say anything, Rachel takes a deep breath because of what she's about to do. She pulls up a chair next to the bed and takes his hand.
Ross begins, "Rachel I..."
Rachel cuts him off, "Ross, Let me talk, please?" She stresses this next sentence, "If and only if something does happen to you," To herself, "I can't believe I'm doing this." To Ross, "Like if you..." Doesn't want to say it, "If you don't...if you...
Ross helps her, "Die?"
"Yeah, um, what I'm trying to say is..." Shakes her head. To herself, "I can't do this." To Ross, "I can't Ross, I can't say my goodbyes, it's just too damn hard."
Ross is surprise that she was going to say goodbye, "So you think I'm going to die?" She looks down "Look Rachel, you don't have to say goodbye, I just want to know that you love me."
Rachel tells Ross her feelings in the next chapter. Please review! I love every review that I get and everyone that I get them from J Chapter 3 will be up soon.
Okay it's kind of getting more dramatic…so I hope you guys are still liking it.
