Blaine decides when his first class finishes he is definitely cutting today, no way is he going to be able to sit through a whole day of school and Warblers practice without hearing a single thing to say his boyfriend is okay. When Blaine texted him this morning he thought he would at least get a small reply, but he is left with an empty message box and a heavy heart filled with concern.
9:22am. Blaine sighs, eight more minutes.
9:29am. So close, Blaine is literally sitting on the edge of his seat, waiting.
Tick. Tick. Tick. Come on.
The bell finally sounds and Blaine is the first to leave, all but raining down the corridor to get to the parking lot. He finally jumps into his car, turns the ignition on and is now on his way to Lima, just two more hours. Two more hours till he has his boyfriend back in his arms.
Burt decided to stay home this morning from work, he's the boss anyway, and he's just really concerned for his son as he still hasn't emerged from his room. Burt sighs and runs a weary hand over his head as he collapses in his armchair. His son will always be a mystery to him.
Burt's head shoots up as soon as he hears the doorbell ring, confused as to who would be here right now he goes to the door to open it and it reveals… a young man, in a Dalton uniform… eyes wild as he looks up at him.
"Who are you?" Okay, that didn't seem to be too polite, but this boy shows up on his doorstep very dishevelled looking as if he was a deer caught in headlights. Maybe he's the reason my son is so upset.
"Sir…" Burt stands there, arms folded, looking him up and down, papa bear mode activated.
"Sir…" Wow okay, Blaine thinks, this is really scary. This is obviously Kurt's father but what really catches his attention is his lack of knowledge as to who he is. Okay. So maybe Kurt hasn't told his family about them yet. That's okay; god knows Blaine isn't ready to tell his family yet, not even wanting to go there. "I'm… a f-friend of Kurt's and I was wondering if he's home…? I mean he didn't show up today at school and I'm worried about him…" He trails off nervously.
Burt takes one last hard look at him and the steps aside to let him in. He sighs heavily, obviously feeling very tired and worried, "He's been in his room all morning and I just can't seem to get him out. I have no idea what's wrong so knock yourself out. His room is the first one as you come up the landing."
"Thanks sir." Blaine turns his attention back onto his boyfriend and his concern only doubles as he now knows why he didn't show up today, but why is he so upset? Today's his birthday.
He climbs the stairs eagerly, finally making it to his door where he hesitates… should he be doing this? Kurt obviously wants to be left alone but… it will drive Blaine crazy if he doesn't figure out what's wrong.
He knocks gently on the door awaiting a response, but receives none. He tries again but to no avail. "Kurt… it's me… please let me in…" He speaks so softly, not wanting to startle him.
He hears a quick sniffle through the door, and then without much warning the door is wrenched open and out comes Kurt, falling gratefully into his arms.
Finally.
But… he's crying… no sobbing in his arms… what happened?
"Hey, hey, hey, come on… shhh shhh shhh…" He tries to calm him down as much as he can by just holding him, holding him as tight as possible, because that's all he can do.
"Kurt…" It's his Dad, and Blaine can hear him slowly coming up the stairs towards him, but Kurt just freezes. Blaine can feel him shaking his head where it's tucked into the crook of his neck and before he knows it he's being pulled into his dark room, and then he hears the door being firmly locked.
"What…?" And then there he is, back in his arms where he is all but breaking down. He's shaking so violently and the sobs continue and Blaine just keeps rubbing soothing circles down his back. "Hey, Kurt, come on… just tell me what's wrong… baby please."
That has Kurt smiling at least, Blaine can feel his lips curve up into that adorable smile that he reserves only for him. He chuckles a wet laugh into his neck at the pet name, rolling his eyes at his ridiculous boyfriend, he finally looks up him with his eyebrow raised, "Really?"
Blaine laughs a little at his expression, the signature Kurt Hummel look, "It go you laughing though." Kurt gives another weak chuckle and pulls him over till they're near the bed, and Kurt just flops down on the right side patting the other side to encourage Blaine to join him. He has a moment of hesitation, not wanting to go against any rules Kurt's Dad may have but when he sees the sadness and desperation in his boyfriend's eyes he goes willingly, accepting the comfortable weight of him as he lays half on top of him, his head laying on his chest. Kurt listens for a little while to his heartbeat, letting it lull him to a peaceful like state.
"Things at home have been… hard." Blaine was a little startled, with it being so quiet when Kurt finally began to talk. He kisses softly into his hair to let him know he's listening and that he's here. Kurt sighs deeply before he starts again, "Ever since Carole and Finn have moved in it's as if… I'm not there and I don't… matter. I just let it go because I knew they needed their space and time with my Dad… but I thought by now things would be back to normal, but…"
Blaine knew about his new family situation but he doesn't talk about it much… I guess this is why. "I mean things did get a little better when the whole Karofsky thing happened, I finally saw that he care you know, like he actually saw me for the first time, since all this happened…" he sighs deeply once more, feeling like the weight of the world is on his shoulders. "But… now I'm at Dalton, it's like I don't exist again because I'm just not there most of the time, but that still hurts. It wasn't until today that I knew the full extent of how much they notice, or even care…"
Blaine feels as if his own heart is breaking, feeling as if somehow this was his fault for not noticing either. I mean how could he be so oblivious to his boyfriends hurt? He was just as bad…
"And please don't think this is your fault, because honestly, you're the only one who has really helped me through this even if you haven't realised you have. You look at me as if I'm there and I'm the only one who matters and for that I thank you."
"You never have to thank me for doing something for you like that, because I want to. Please know that Kurt because you deserve everything." Blaine just hugs him closer, kissing his temple.
Kurt inhales deeply, the familiar scent of his boyfriend letting it wash over him for a moment before he continues on, "Before my Mom died birthdays were a huge thing in our house, she was always more excited than I was… running around after me all day, favourite meals all day… you know… just trying to make me feel special… But after she died things did change a little, I mean it wasn't as big as it was before but Dad still made the effort to make my Mom's special chocolate chip pancakes and is always in the kitchen with a big hug and my presents." Kurt smiles a little as he thinks of the first time they had to do this without his Mom around, with Kurt walking sleepily into the kitchen so confused. "He always made the effort because he knew how much it meant to me. And if he really cared he would have seen how much this one would mean to me with new people coming into our family… I just needed the reassurance… the reassurance that even though things are changing for us that some things will still be the same."
Blaine starts to feel the hot tears soak through his shirt probably before Kurt realises he's crying. "I really miss her Blaine. It's the first time in a long time where I really miss her presence and I can feel her actually missing from my life."
Blaine can feel his own tears leaking from his eyes as they trickle down his cheeks. "I woke up this morning and when into the kitchen and he… forgot. He forgot my birthday, Blaine. He forgot the day his only son was born and the really fucking hurts."
He thought his tears were bad before but once Kurt finally admits what has really been bothering him this whole time he lets go completely. The sobs are heart breaking and sad. Blaine never wants to hear him this upset ever again. And Blaine just holds him.
