Surrender to the Darkness




~~~~ Disclaimer: I don't own Yugioh. ~_~ I don't own any of these cuties. ~_~ I also don't own the movie, "Dogma". It belongs to Kevin Smith, who happens to be my favorite director. ^_^ Suing me would be a pointless waste of time since I'm broke and have nothing anyways (unemployment sucks). Credit for the title goes to Taryn (anime AndrAIa), because I'm lame and couldn't come up with one myself. ^_^ ~~~~


Chris: Tigerlily, read the warning…


Tigerlily: Warning!!! This fic has:

~ yaoi goodness - no lemon, just a bunch of random groping and fantasies

~ lots of bad words (thanks mostly to Bakura)

~ major angst and darkness (This chapter is actually pretty fluffy. Angst will return next chapter.)

~ horny and lustful yami's



Chris: If you don't know what yaoi is, then this probably isn't for you. Yaoi and shounen ai deals with male x male relationships.

Tigerlily: So if ya don't like that sort of thing do us all a favor and hit the bricks. If you do flame us for it, you will be torched. *pulls out her trusty flamethrower*

Chris: So, if you can't say anything nice, then don't say anything at all.

Tigerlily: So keep your damned mouth shut! You have been warned!!


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Chapter 2

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~~~Bakura's POV~~~


It's been a month since I got this damn body. I don't know how, but I'm certainly determined to put it to good use… of course it took me three weeks to come to that decision. Yes, that's right. It took me three weeks to deal with this new reality. But what do you expect? I've been dead for 5,000 years! I'd like to see how you'd react if you suddenly woke up next to your hikari, stark naked with no warning. Hmph, that's what I thought.


So for three weeks I was slightly more insane than usual and very confused. For example, I've always enjoyed causing Ryou pain and watching him bleed. I longed to taste his blood. I have a blood fetish, deal with it! So anyway, now that I could, I found I couldn't bring myself to hit him much less make him bleed. Kuso! It's not fair, I tell you! Fate is against me and the Gods are mocking me! I know it!! Just as I was about to hit him, he looks at me with those… those EYES!! Those big brown eyes so full of innocence and fear. Fear of me! I suddenly felt very… dirty and ashamed.


I retreated into the ring for three weeks and only came out while he was asleep. Of course he never knew it and still doesn't. But when he was asleep, I'd come out and watch him. Yes, watch him. I couldn't help myself, he's so enthralling to look at. His snowy white hair with its lavender sheen. His smooth and soft alabaster skin. And yes, it is as soft as it looks. I couldn't help but reach out and stoke his cheek one night. It was so thrilling, my whole body… tingled. That's the only word I have for it because it really is indescribable, but it was such a rush! And in the moonlight he seemed so ethereal and almost heavenly. A little sleeping angel.


After three weeks I realized I wanted to see those huge brown eyes again. But I wanted to see them with love shining though, not fear. I realized I was in love with my weak, but gentle and kind hikari. In love with his snowy white hair with it lavender sheen. In love with his smooth and soft alabaster skin. And in love with those huge chocolate brown eyes that you could drown in. I longed to drown in them. I burned to touch him, to kiss him, to hold him in my arms and feel each and every breath he takes. I wanted to drown in his very essence.


Damn! I'm getting soft in my old age. Who would have EVER thought that Yami Bakura, the most notorious and feared tomb robber of his time would fall in love? If anyone had even suggested it, I would have killed them on the spot or sent them to the Shadow Realm. Heh, heh. That's always fun. But yes, the evil and vile tomb robber is in love… with his hikari no less! The very same one I tortured all these years, gleefully. I enjoyed hearing his cries of pain and his pleas for me to stop, it was fuel for the fire. But now I hear them whispering in my head and I feel disgusted with myself and ashamed. Damn body. If I ever find out who did this to me… I'm not sure if I'd kill them or kiss them and say thank you… Maybe I can do both?


When I finally came out of the ring to face him, he was terrified. Can't say I really blame him. I've given him no reason to love me or trust me. It made me feel sick, the thought that I might never gain his love. I so wanted his love. I'd make him fall in love with me. I had to. I can't bear to live without it now. He stood there waiting. I'm sure he expected me to hit him. Instead, I told him I was sorry.


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flashback
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"I'm sorry, Ryou."


He has a bewildered look on his face. It 's rather cute, the way his eyes blink in shock. Does he think he'll wake up or I'll disappear, like a figment of his imagination? Sorry Ryou, this is reality. Finally he gathers enough sense to say a word.


"What?"

"I'm sorry, Ryou… I'm sorry I hurt you. I'm sorry I made you bleed. And I'm sorry that I enjoyed it. I won't lie to you or patronize you with, 'I didn't know what I was doing'. I knew exactly what I was doing and I enjoyed it. I regret it now. I'm ashamed I did it. Nothing can change what I did. Your life with me has been a living hell, I know that now. And I'm sorry. Even though I don't deserve it, I hope one day you can forgive me."

"But… why? Why now? I can't believe having a body now would affect you so much like this. The only thing that kept you from killing me outright before was because you needed my body. If I died, you'd go right with me. So why don't you kill me now? You always said you wanted to… not that I want you to kill me, but still!"

"Because I love you." He gawks at me for a few minutes and once again finds his voice.

"Y-y-you love me?"

"Yes, I do. It's really mostly this body's fault. But Ryou, I've felt things I haven't felt in 5,000 years! Things I couldn't feel before now. It took me these past three weeks to come to grips with it, to accept it and to remember what it was. And so now I've come to say, I love you. I'm sorry. Please forgive me… someday… and maybe one day love me too."


He looks shocked. Can't say I really blame him. But… he's not running away, he's not cursing at me for being a 'sexual deviant' and he's not screaming he hates me or can never love me. Not a bad sign… I may actually have a chance. I quickly make up my mind and decide to 'go for it'. I lean forward to kiss him. My lips gently touch his and he pulls slightly away but I press on and soon our lips meet full force. I feel his whole body tense, he's afraid because he thinks I'm going to hurt him in some new and improved way. After a minute though, he relaxes and melts into the kiss. Yup, I definitely have a chance. His lips part slightly and my tongue gladly takes the invitation. Mmmm… he tastes like chocolate covered cherries. I can't help but grin. I'm so… happy. Don't think I truly felt it even when I was alive. I like this feeling. I don't want it to ever end. But alas, all good things must come to an end and so did the kiss. He stood there, eyes heavy and dazed with a rosy glow on his cheeks. He's so cute, I want him more than ever now. "Aishitaru." I whisper huskily in his ear as my lips graze and kiss his cheek. He lets loose a small soft moan and my whole body starts to burn and ache. I stroke his cheek as I pull away and look him clearly in the eye before I disappear back into the ring. You know what they say, always leaving wanting more. That and I wasn't too sure how well I could control myself. I can't risk losing him. I must be very careful and he must be sure of what he wants. I certainly know what I want. Although I could take that forcefully, what I really wanted had to be earned. I'll make him fall in love with me.


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So here I am, one week later. I've thoroughly enjoyed making him fall in love with me. After a couple of days he calmed down somewhat. In other words, he didn't run the other way when he saw me. He doesn't flinch from my touch anymore, in fact he leans into it. You know for someone so innocent, he sure knows how to kiss very well… especially with that tongue of his. Mmmm… chocolate covered cherries… or even better, chocolate covered Ryou.


I walk into the living room and see my light sitting on the sofa with his legs tucked under him and a bag of chocolate covered cherries in his lap. He's watching some movie, I don't recognize it. I plop down next to him and not so subtlety start nuzzling his neck.


"What are you watching, koi?" He moans as I nibble the curve of his neck.

"Bakura! That tickles, you know that?!" He moans again. I'm on a roll.

"Hai. But I can't help it, you just too irresistible. Now what are you watching?"

"Dogma." He smirks. Yes my hikari actually smirked. I think I'm rubbing off on him. I wonder what else he'll pick up?

"What's it about?" I ask as I elicit another moan from him… I think he's actually purring.

"Angels and demons. Heaven and hell. Potential end of the world." I reach my hand under his shirt and start to rub his nipple while continuing my nuzzling.

"Sounds depressing." He giggles.

"Actually, it's quite funny. I think you'd like it… but somehow I don't think you're really interested in it right now."

"Really? Whatever gave you that idea?"


He reaches for the remote to turn the movie off and returns to my embrace. His moan deepens as he repositions himself so I'm laying on top of him. I feel his arms around me as he suddenly bucks his hips against mine. Damn I'm good.



~~~Ryou's POV~~~


This has to bee the strangest week of my life. Actually the whole month has been pretty odd, but this past week has definitely topped it. One month ago, I woke up with my yami asleep next to me. That was odd in itself since he never wanted to be near me unless he was hurting me. It's hard to believe now he ever hurt me, but he did. But what was really strange was he was that he was as naked as the day he was born… oh and the little detail of him having a real flesh and blood body! Needless to say, I was quite shocked. And when all the possibilities surfaced to my mind, I thought I might die of fright.


It took him a few minutes to realize he was naked and had flesh and blood body. He was in an absolute rage for an hour, throwing things and cursing in Egyptian and Japanese. It was a rather interesting combination. He was furious that anyone could and would do this to him. I imagine he felt very vulnerable, something he most definitely was not used to. After he finished his fit, he realized the same possibilities that I had an hour ago. I knew then I was in serious trouble.


Before, he had to make sure I didn't die. Although it never stopped him from beating me to an inch of my life. He enjoyed causing others pain. Watching them bleed. But I was his favorite, or at least the most easily accessible. Now with his own body he could kill me at his own leisure. He did so enjoy watching the suffering of others. I had been huddled in the corner of my room, while he had his little tirade. If I was smarter, I would have gathered the courage to run out of the door an hour ago. But I wasn't and now I was going to pay a heavy price.


He walked towards me, with an even and steady pace. The smirk on his face, the gleam in his eyes promised a great deal of pain. I knew what was coming. He stood before me and said, "Well, well, well little hikari. It seems your usefulness is at an end." I looked up at him as he drew back his fist ready to strike. Our eyes met and to my surprise, he actually hesitated! He stood there ready to strike it seemed forever as I saw confusion dance across his features. Finally he lowered his fist, growled, muttered something about the Gods mocking him and disappeared into the ring for 3 weeks. Once again, I was quite shocked.


He finally came out of the ring a week ago. When he did I was very much afraid. I was in the kitchen making dinner for myself, and when I turned around from the refrigerator he was standing right there. That alone nearly made me jump out of my skin! I had no idea what he would do. I stood there quietly, not daring to move a muscle. I had no desire to give him any reason, no matter how bizarre to hurt me. It's safer to stay still unless he tells me otherwise.


He stood there watching me for a minute. Looking into my eyes, seeing clear to my soul he uttered 3 words I'd never expect to hear from him, "I'm sorry, Ryou." I was stunned and absolutely floored! I couldn't help but think that this was maybe just a sick dream. He'd never uttered those words to anyone. I don't think he's ever been sorry a day in his life. I couldn't believe my ears and could only spit out one word, 'what'. I can be so eloquent sometimes it even amazes me. This was not one of those times. I was too dumbfounded to come up with anything more intelligent.


He continued with what he was exactly sorry for, and admitted that he enjoyed it. But now he felt regret. A deep and overwhelming regret. I could even feel the emotion wash over through our link. I don't think he realized it had. He asked for my forgiveness. How could I after all he had done? How couldn't I, know that he regretted it with every fiber of his being. He was sincere in what he was saying, but how could I forgive what he did to me; what he did to anyone who tried to get close to me or be my friend. He had forced me to isolate myself for the sake of others around me.


For some perverse reason, I felt the need to push my luck and ask him why he felt this way. He had the opportunity to kill me as he always wished he could, so why didn't he? Sometimes I think I must have a death wish. But still, I couldn't help but wonder why and when I asked, his answer seemed even more unbelievable. He loved me. Yes, me the weak hikari who doubles as a portable punching bag. It was official, he had gone insane. Not that he was exactly sane before, but this was a total change in personality. Nothing he has ever said or done has terrified me more. Or so I thought until he expressed his desire that one day, I could love him too! That and the fact that he kissed ME!! I was seriously freaked out and yet, I couldn't help myself and gave into the kiss. And WOW, what a kiss!! When he finally pulled away, I was left rather dazed and I know I had to have been blushing! I felt so… warm and content. I heard him whisper, "Aishitaru," in my ear before he disappeared back in the ring.


I didn't see him again until the next morning. He had decided he would make breakfast for us. He hasn't had to cook in 5,000 years, but he had seen me do it enough that he thought he could too. He failed miserably, but he was so cute. Muttering again how the fates were against him and the Gods were mocking him. As I said before it was cute, but I still felt nervous around him. He was trying so hard. The gesture was sincere and the thought was sweet. I decided then that I would forgive him.


It took a couple of days for me to not tense up at his presence or flinch at his touch. I'm surprised I was able to grow accustomed to it so quickly. But I did enjoy his caresses, his kisses and the way he held me in his arms. I actually felt safe there. I never thought I would feel that with him, but I do.


So here we are a week later on the couch. I was planning on watching one of my favorite movies, "Dogma". But Bakura felt the need to nuzzle on my neck. Not that I mind. Whenever he touches me I get this fluttery feeling in my stomach, it almost tickles, but I do enjoy it. I enjoy my time with him now. I never thought I'd see that day, but here it is. Our little make-out session is getting a little more intense now that I've positioned myself right under him. I want it so badly now. I need it, I burn for it. I want him, every inch of him. I feel his hand rubbing my hip, so close to my groin. Suddenly my pants are very constricting and I want to take them and his off. Yes, this hikari is no where near as innocent as Yuugi Mutoh. Just as I reach down to the button Bakura's jeans, there's a knock at the door. I suddenly find myself very annoyed.



~~~Bakura's POV~~~


I'm absolutely thrilled. It seems my koi is ready to go to the next step with me. I must say, I'm rather surprised that he'd be willing at all. But then who am I to argue? I taste his mouth again as I reach down to free him from his jeans. Before I can even loosen the button, some baka comes knocking on our door.


"Ra damn it! The Gods are mocking me again!! I swear, I'll fucking kill whoever's at the door!"

"Ignore it. They'll go away and come back later." My little hikari pants.

"I have absolutely no problem with that, koi." He giggles.

"Koi? I'm your koi?"

"Was there any doubt?"

"I just never thought you'd call me that. I like it."


I lean down and take his mouth again when that damn baka starts pounding on the door even harder than before and starts shouting.


"OPEN THE DOOR TOMB ROBBER! I KNOW YOU'RE IN THERE!"

"I was right, it is a baka… A Pharaoh no Baka." I growl.

"I suppose you're going to want to definitely kill him now, aren't you?" He sighs in defeat.

"I KNOW YOU CAN HEAR ME, BAKURA! OPEN THE DAMN DOOR NOW!! AS YOUR PHARAOH I COMMAND IT!!!"

"Only a little."


I smirk and he groans. I get up to answer the door and swing it open glaring daggers at the stupid pharaoh and his lousy sense of timing.


"First of all, you are no longer The Pharaoh! You're just some lame ass little bastard who's living in the past of his glory days! Second of all, even if you were still The Pharaoh I still wouldn't obey you!! In fact, I'd go back to rob your fathers' tomb again along with yours! So tell me what the HELL do you want, so I can tell you to piss off already! I was in the middle of something very important!" I bark at him.

"I need your help. I want you to kill me."


Dear Ra, I think someone up there likes me after all.


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Chris: Yeah, I know what you're thinking. Where the fuck is the angst? This is too fluffy, blah, blah, blah. But I assure you it serves a purpose. Jealousy is a marvelous thing. It makes normally sane, rational people total and complete asses.

Tigerlily: In other words, Yami's going to suffer. He's so tortured…bastard!

Yuugi: Hey! That's my line!

Tigerlily: Here's a dirty magazine, go taint yourself.

Yuugi: Oooohhhh! Boy Love Explosion! ^_^

Chris: Anyway, I got so many reviews! I'm stunned to say the least. And absolutely in awe that you actually liked it. I feel so giddy. ^__^ Wow! 14 Reviews… well actually 13 because Hikari no Yami's got posted twice. Wonder how that happened? But still, 13 reviews!! *does a dance of joy* So Thankies to lupusdragon, anime AndrAIa, I love Yugi and Kurt so :p, RyuArashi, Wolfspeaker, Borath, Kira-chan, Karenu-anime, MMW, Hikari no Yami (twice ^_~), Kanatasha, YamiJupiter15, and Mira-chan and Yami Mirakai. I wuv you guys! ^_^

Tigerlily: And for being so nice, you all get Talking Yuugi Plushies! ^_^ He says, "Bastard", "Fuck" and "Mmmm, Yami"!

Chris: Y'all also get my apologies. I know most of you all want a happy ending for Yami and Yuugi but that isn't going to happen… exactly. There will be two endings to this fic. The one I like because I'm evil and the happy one to keep half of you from murdering me. And trust me, you will when I'm finished.

Tigerlily: Yeah! Yami's going to *hand suddenly goes over her mouth*

Chris: Don't tell!! It has to be a surprise!

Yami: Just what do you have planned exactly?

Chris & Tigerlily: …nothing.

Bakura: I know the ending. *sing song voice* But, I'll never tell! *begins to laugh hysterically*

Yami: *peeks into Chris's ear to see what's going on in her head* WHAT THE?!?! YOU EVIL SADISTIC BITCH!! HOW COULD YOU! *starts to strangle Chris* HOW COULD YOU MAKE ME DO THAT?!?!?! CHANGE IT RIGHT NOW!! AS PHARAOH, I COMMAND YOU TO!!

Tigerlily: Hey Yami, stop strangling her or the happy ending will never come.

Yami: NO!! Not until she changes it!

Yuugi: YAMI! What are you doing?! Why are you trying to kill her?

Tigerlily: *whispers the ending into his ear*

Yuugi: O_O *runs over to help Yami* EVIL! EVIL! EVIL! *starts to hit her with his little baby fist*

Chris: HAH! *choke* You hit like *choke* a girl!! Mwahaha*choke*hahaha*choke*hahahahaha! Bow *choke* before my *choke* EVIL! *choke* X_x

Tigerlily: Remember to review! They make Chris happy! ^_^