I am now a member of the Spider. Well, actually, only a temp. I gained the leader's trust. It's nothing really. We just have a mutual understanding. But hey, he knows those kind of things… Love and such…

The question is… why did he immediately put me together with Illumi and Hisoka!?

Idiot…

Now I have to train some newbie with the two of them. And the training will take part at a hunter exam. The boss is the only who knows that I'm a woman so the others are questioning my position and my capabilities. Well, I can prove that I'm more of a man than them! Though I cannot show it through sexual things… You know, I don't have anything to show to them so all I could do is look at them and show them how strong I am…

What could have happen if I'm born as a man?

Walking… The warm winds brush my face as I close my eyes, reclining on a fence…

Opening my eyes as a faint scent and light footsteps could be heard…

Making girls and women's knees tremble at my gaze…

I pulled down my cap and made my collar higher. I could feel my face reddening as I walk behind the group.

"Are you cold, Ni-sama?" the youngest of the newbies said. The others keep on walking, not minding. However, when I did not answer,

"Such a thin man to be a trusted member…" somebody mumbled.

I couldn't feel anything. I have just thought of things that seems perverted, and that made me invulnerable. I hid my face and grin. I should never think thoughts like these when I am not alone…or I'm dead.

"Maybe he's gay," one murmured back.

Somehow, their words make me happy.

Swwwiiiissshhhh

I fell. An arrow pierced my collar.

The newbies were scared. They backed away. Then one of them said:

"Can't even dodge an arrow…"

I can't take it anymore!

"H-he-heheheheh…" I tried to refrain myself from laughing… but I can't. I sat right up with a big grin on my face. I looked up and they look at me as if I'm crazy… Well… I am insane. The newbies guarded up themselves in case I am. Hisoka and Illumi look normal. Hisoka still has his smile and Illumi has his expressionless face.

I can't hold back. I have been holding back since the day I left my son. Not being with most of my love ones turn me back to the person I am before. INSANE.

I sensed a rustle in the bushes and trees. I do not care anymore. I attacked.

One.

Two.

Three.

Four…!

The counting goes on! How many are them? I didn't stop throwing knives at the rustles that I sensed came from men until I cannot hear any of their rustle anymore.

I heard thumps after thirty seconds. I did not mind to bother, I've calmed myself now.

I stood and felt a presence in one of the places that I threw a knife on. I do not really mind but since it was close, I tracked the presence. I was dumbfounded. A kid was there with a bleeding knife on his thigh. I looked around.

"What's a kid doing here?" I asked to him quietly, looking at his wound. I've sorta mastered the voice of a handsome young man.

"I-I was wa-taking a walk!" he suddenly sobbed.

"Hush," I ordered as I quickly pulled the knife and wipe the blood off it, "be steady."

He yelped when I pulled the knife but he stayed steady. I poured the fresh water in my water bag on his wound. I tied it then.

"Do you think you can walk?" I interrogated.

He looked at me with eyes saying I guess. He does not seem to be scared of me now.

"Hey!" somebody called.

I faced the person. A boulder was looking at me. His muscles looked a lot like boulder and he was one of the newbies. He looked at the kid.

"We don't have time for brats," and he left.

"Come," I said, walking away. I do not care whether he follows me or not, but I will not deny that I felt grateful when I heard his steps following mine.