Hee hee... yeah... so... this is the first chapter.

I kinda wrote it on a whim so... yeah.

Vocaloid is not mine ;-;


Ever since. Always.

Forever?

No.

Len knows he's in love with Kaito ever since he met him. Ever since he looked into those deep blue eyes that were more endless than the sea, he wanted to love him more than a brotherly love. He knew he loved to be around him. He knew he loved how idiotic and kind the man was. He thought he knew he would always have the same feelings for him. So many years have passed that these feelings built up through actions into a great tower that would last forever.

"I'm getting married."

How little time it took for mere words to break it all down.

--

Len's smile slowly faded. Him and Kaito were alone in their room sitting on the floor. He couldn't believe what he had heard the older man say.

"You're getting married?" The blue haired man nodded happily.

"When?"

"Oh um…" Kaito looked to the side to think. "In a couple of months. I think a little bit after Christmas. The twenty-seventh? Yeah on the twenty-seventh." The older man looked at the blond and smiled.

Len blinked. Why don't you just stab me right now? "Why did you pick that day?"

Kaito shrugged. "We thought it sounded like a good date. We asked all our other friends and they said they were free on that day too."

"Oh." said Len. The room got silent.

"Is… something wrong Len-kun?" Kaito asked carefully.

Len shook his head. "No… I… It's just… never mind."

Kaito titled his head. "What's wro-"

"Congratulations Kaito-nii!" Len faked a smile and felt his heart twinge. "I never thought you would be able to get married!"

Kaito laughed. "Yeah me either."

"So who is it?" Len balled his hand into a fist and tried to dig his nails into the skin so he could forget about the pain in his chest. He watched as the older man blushed. Len dig his nails deeper.

"I met her a year and a half ago. She works at the ice cream store. Her names Marin." Kaito answered.

Ice cream store? "How come you never talked about her?"

"I didn't think it was much…"

You're so dense. "Then how did you guys propose?"

Kaito laughed and scratched the back of his neck. "She was the one who proposed to me." He put his arm down. A healthy flush appeared on his face. "I was so surprised-and happy. I didn't expect it to happen…"

"When did it happen?" Why didn't I know?

"About a month ago"

"Oh."

Silence.

"Len-kun?"

Len looked up at the blue haired man.

"Are you mad at me?" Kaito asked, worry clear in his eyes. Those deep blue eyes that Len fell too deep in love with.

Len could only shake his head. He could feel his throat clogging up and new he would sound upset if he spoke. Of course it would, his heart was in turmoil. He felt a hand being placed on his shoulder.

"You don't seem like it…"

Len closed his eyes that were threatening to spill and smiled. He swallowed back his hurt so he could answer properly. "I'm just surprised." He said, barely above a whisper.

Kaito rubbed his shoulder. "Alright. I'm going to go then. I'll see you later?"

Len nodded, refusing to look at the man. He felt the man pause at his spot for a moment before he left the room. Len looked up at the ceiling.

He's getting married. On my birthday. To someone I never even knew existed until today.

A tear rolled down the side of his cheek.

And she works at an ice cream store. How do I compete with that?

--

It was dinner time. Today's dinner was a nice plate of ham and corn with potatoes as a side dish, made by Meiko. Everyone was eating and being excited. They had just heard the news from Kaito and couldn't believe it themselves. Everyone except Len.

Len slowly picked at the food on his dish as the rest of his family spoke to the man sitting next to him. He really didn't want to eat, but he didn't want to be rude either. Right now he was wishing he could go into his room and hide in the closet until someone told him that it was all a lie and his love really wasn't getting married. Too bad life sucks.

"I'm so glad for you Kaito-san!" said Miku. Len looked up at the diva confused. He was sure she was in love with the blue haired man also. He figured she would be heart broken also, but her face said otherwise. The pig-tailed girl held a happy smile on her face and her eyes.

"Is she pretty?" Gakupo asked with a glint in his eyes. A pink haired woman took a stab at his hand with her fork.

"What do you think you're going to do if she's pretty?" Luka asked as she glared at the purple haired man.

Gakupo shrunk down in his seat. "N-nothing!"

"I can't believe you didn't tell us." Meiko said. She reached for the bottle of salt and put some on her corn. "Were you doing something naughty with the girl? Is that why you didn't want to tell us?~" Meiko smirked at Kaito who was bright red.

"N-no!" Kaito looked down at his plate and started to mix the mash potatoes with his corn.

"Ehhh?" Meiko leaned forward. "Are you sure?"

Kaito nodded fiercely.

"Are you sure you aren't moving too rashly?" Luka asked.

Kaito smiled and nodded. Len crushed a corn piece with his spoon.

Gakupo giggled. "That's so sweet!!~ Only a year and you two are already getting married!" The purple haired man gasped. "Is it going to be a big wonderful wedding?!~"

Kaito shook his head. "Marin said she wanted a small wedding. Nothing too extravagant. She said it's too embarrassing."

"Oh!" Miku had one hand in the air. "Did you tell Rin-chan yet?"

Kaito shook his head. "I planned on calling her and telling her after dinner."

Len's mind drifted to his sister. His twin had left to go to America for a learning program with Master. She had become interested with the country for a bit now and Master was willing to go with her to watch over her. They were both staying at Leon's house for the trip. Len was offered to go along too. He refused since he wanted to stay here in Japan with Kaito. Now he wondered if it was actually better if he went.

"-n?"

Len snapped out of his mind. "Wha?" He looked at the green haired diva.

"Are you alright, Len-kun?" Miku asked. "You've been so quiet."

Len looked around. They were the only two left at the table. "Oh… sorry, I must have spaced out for a while." He looked down at his plate about to attempt eating it until he realized everything was smashed and mixed together.

Miku nodded. "Here, I'll put your dish in the sink since you don't seem hungry."

Len nodded and handed the plate over to the diva. He watched as the girl got up with her plate and his in hand and walked over to the sink. "Where'd everyone go?"

Miku turned on the sink. "They left to get ready for the night."

Len looked at the table. "Oh."

The sound of washing dishes filled in the silence. The blond looked at the diva. She was smiling faintly as she washed the dishes. It bothered Len a little that she could smile even though he knew she was heartbroken. Or was she?

"Miku-nee?"

"Hmm?" Miku placed the clean plate of the dish rack to dry off. She turned around to face the blond.

"Aren't you heart-broken?" Len watched as the smile of the girl's face faltered. Miku sighed and sat down at the table next to the blond.

"Is it obvious?" She asked quietly.

Len shook his head. "I knew you liked Kaito-nii for a while. I was… a little confused since you were smiling."

Miku laced her hands tighter. "I do like him. A lot." She sighed. "He looks so happy… what else am I supposed to do?" She shook her head gently. "I should be happy too, since he's happy, right? That's how it's like when you love someone, right?"

Len looked at his own hands. Miku had a point, even if she was his love rival. If you loved someone, you should be happy for them if they were happy. Only, it was so unfair.

"I guess you're right- Miku-nee?"

Len was shocked when he looked back his older sister. Her small frame was shaking and her eyes were closed. Still, tears flowed from them and almost touched her smile as they rolled down her cheek.

"Heh…" Miku wiped a tear away. "If I'm right, then why does it hurt so much?" There was a silent plea of desperation in her voice that made Len feel bad. She put her face in her hands and began to cry freely, unable to control it any longer. The sobs filled the empty kitchen.

Len put his arms around his sister and held her as she cried, not knowing what else to do. He didn't know how to answer Miku's question when he himself was asking that.

--

Kaito dialed the number that was on a piece of paper he had. He was now working on calling Rin to tell her the good news. He finally managed to calm his nerves but hearing the phone ring started to bring them back. His heart stopped when the phone was picked up.

"Hello?" asked a mans voice on the other line that Kaito recognized.

"Leon?" Kaito asked.

"Kaito? Is that you?" Leon laughed. "How have you been!"

Kaito laughed too. It had been a while since he last heard form Leon. It was always good to talk with old friends. "I've been fine. Is Rin-chan there with you?"

"Yeah, yeah! Here hold on, let me get her- Rin! Kaito's asking for you!"

Kaito listened to the phone while he waited. His heart was beating excitedly.

"Hello?" asked a girl voice.

"Rin-chan?" asked the blue haired man.

"Hey onii-san!" Rin said. "How are you? You wanted to talk to me?"

"I've been good. I wanted to tell you something." Kaito twirled his finger around a piece of fringe on his blue scarf to try and calm himself down again.

"Hmm? Like what?"

Kaito took a deep breath and held it for a moment. He let it out and said, "I'm getting married."

There was silence on the other line. Kaito was starting to get a little worried. "Ri-?"

"OH. MY. GOSH!" Rin squeeled. "Oh my gosh, oh my gosh, ohmygosh!" Kaito could practically see the blond girl jumping up and down. "Oh my gosh when are you getting married? I didn't miss it did I? Well no I possibly couldn't since you said you were getting married and that means that it's going to happen not already happe-"

Kaito laughed. "No you didn't miss the wedding. It's on the twenty-seventh of December so you have some time. I wanted to know if you'd like to be the flower girl-"

"Wait" Rin said in a serious tone. Kaito raised an eyebrow. "The twenty-seventh of December?"

"Yeah…" Kaito said slowly. There was silence until Rin giggled.

"Awesome. That can count as an awesome birthday present." Rin sighed. "I get to see my klutzy onii-san get married-"

"Wait, what birthday?" Kaito asked confused. He thought Rin had mistaken the wedding as a party. "It's a wedding."

"You didn't forget did you?" Rin asked.

"…"

"Oh wow you forgot. Hm. That's alright. You were probably too in love to realize it."

"Realize what Rin-chan?" Kaito was really confused by what Rin was saying. What did he not realize?

"The twenty-seventh of December is me and Len's birthday, remember?"

Kaito almost dropped the phone.

--

Len was in his room lying down with his face buried in his pillow. He had been like this for the past hour now. He was trying to clear his mind so his heart could stop being stupid and feeling like someone was crushing it. The feeling was only getting worse because a certain blue haired man wouldn't stop appearing in his head.

Think about bananas Len… your favorite food…

"We'll be team banana split!" Len said excitedly.

The blue haired man laughed. "And we'll be unstoppable!"

"GRAAAAH!!" Len yelled into his pillow. Everything he thought about reminded him of the blue haired man. "Stop appearing in my head!"

"…Len-kun?" asked a concerned voice.

Len lifted up his head and looked at the doorway where Kaito was standing. He immediately sat up straight and tried to fix his hair he knew was messed up from the pillow. "K-Kaito-nii! What is it, what's wrong?"

Kaito laughed. He walked over to the blond and sat on the edge of his bed. "Nothing's wrong…" He looked at his hands that wore blue nail polish. Len remembered when he asked if he could paint the man's nails. It turned out disastrous because the blond couldn't stop his hands from shaking while he put on the nail polish. "Not really…"

"Kaito-nii?" Nothing upset Kaito too much. He always had an upbeat and kind air around him. It was odd to see him sad.

The blue haired man looked at Len. As Len stared back into those deep blue orbs, his heart felt constricted. Stupid useless organ.

"Why didn't you tell me?" the blue haired man asked.

Len looked away. He didn't want to keep staring in fear that he'll end up in tears because those eyes filled with love when they looked at someone else that wasn't him. "Tell you what?"

"Tell me that I planed the wedding on your birthday?"

Len's eyes widened for a moment. He thought the older man wouldn't figure it out. He closed his eyes. "It's not like it matters."

Kaito took Len's face and slowly turned him so they were face to face. "It's the day you were born. Of course it matters."

Len felt his face flush at the gesture. He batted away the older man's hand. Len plopped down onto his bed and stuffed his face into his pillow. "No it doesn't" he murmured.

"Len-kun…" The blond felt the older man stroke his back.

"It doesn't matter if it's my birthday or that I was born on that day fourteen years ago. You're getting married on that day." Len could feel tears welling up in his eyes with each word he said. "It's better if you had just forgotten. I'm not as important as the person you'll be sharing the rest of your life with anyway. You already proved that by forgetting my birthday. Hey, she even works at an ice cream store, your favorite thing in the world. Way better than me."

Kaito tried to gently turn the blond over so he could see his face. "Len-kun, don't say tha-"

"No." Len said, refusing to turn over and let the older man see the pathetic state he was in. "Leave me alone."

"Len-"

"Go."

Kaito sat and stared at the blond. He could see him trying to stop himself from shaking. "Len-kun are you cry-"

"What part of go don't you get?!" Len yelled into his pillow as he felt tears spill, startling the older man. "You idiot!" He had this sudden urge to want the older man to hate him now. Maybe if he did, he wouldn't care about what Len did and he could go kill himself. It was a sad thought, but it comforted him in a way. If he died he wouldn't have to see Kaito with whoever this 'Marin' person was. If he died then he could wander around in a dream-like state and be oblivious to everything.

If he died, he wouldn't have a heart that would be hurting this badly.

Len gasped when he felt a force turn him around and pin him down. Len's hands flew up to cover his face, only to be pinned above his head by a stronger pair. Len closed his eyes and turned his head to the side to avoid looking at the man above him.

"Len, look at me." Len shook his head.

"Look at me." The voice said more sternly.

"No." Len's voice cracked.

"Why are you crying?"

The blond shook his head again.

Kaito was getting a little furious with the boy now. "Why won't you tell me? Are you mad at me?" The boy he pinned underneath him didn't move. "Or do you hate me now?"

Len opened his eyes and looked up at the older man in disbelief. Len giggled. Soon it turned into laughter, making the older man a little confused. Len smirked. "Hate you? It's more the opposite." A sharp pain struck his heart. He bit his bottom lip as his vision blurred.

"How do I hate you… when I love you?"


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