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Clare's POV
Eli had to go back to New York after an amazing two weeks we spent together, but I was accepting of it. I felt like everything was falling back in place. I didn't think anything could stop us, we were on a roller coaster that only went up. After graduation in two weeks I'd be on the next flight to New York to be with Eli. I was excited that everything we ever wanted was coming true.
"Clare can you please get out of the restroom I'm going to miss my flight, Eli shouted."
I couldn't get my head out of the toilet. Every time I picked my head up it would fall back down automatically and the throw up wouldn't stop. I was sure I had the flu, but I didn't want to miss saying goodbye to Eli so I pulled myself up and forced myself to walk out of the bathroom. "I'm sorry Eli I think I'm just coming down with something, let's go."
"Clare you're sweating like crazy and you're white as a ghost you need to stay here there's no way I'm letting you leave here like this."
"I'll be fine, I'm not going to miss saying goodbye to you, I refuse." I was talking a big game but in truth I felt like I was dying, I thought I would pass out at any moment if I didn't sit down. "Just let me sit down for a sec and we can go." I sat down for about five minutes and I finally felt some relief. "OK let's go Eli."
Eli's POV
Clare looked sick as a dog but I selfishly was letting her accompany me to the airport. I needed to say goodbye before I got on that plane, I had to look in her eyes and see that these last two weeks were real, and that when I left Drew wouldn't be a problem. As much as she loved me I knew somewhere inside of her she really cared about him. Sometimes I was even scared she loved him, not the same way she loved me but in a different way. A safe way. When I wasn't around I knew he was her rock, and I hated it.
"Clare when you get back into town can you promise me you'll go see a doctor. I know you hate it there and that talking about your cancer isn't your favorite subject but you have to be more careful than others do."
"I don't want to live my life in fear every time I get sick, but for your sake I will go to the stupid doctors office."
"Thank You Edwards." Clare and I arrived at the airport and after sitting there for an hour they finally called my flight number. I looked over to her and I saw a tear roll down her cheek, my heart sank. "Clare please don't cry, I already can't handle this as it is. Seeing those blue eyes in pain is enough to make me never go back."
"Then please stay, she sobbed."
"Clare you know I can't do that, my break is over."
"I know and I'm sorry it's just I have this gut feeling that something is off, and you going is just making it worse."
"You're worried about your cancer, aren't you?"
"No it's not that, Eli."
"Tell me this doesn't have to do with the meat head"
"No stop worrying, it's just a bad feeling I'm sure it's just my stomach bug though. They just called last call for flight C, you better get going."
I pulled Clare into my chest and I took in her smell one last time before kissing her on the forehead. "Goodbye blue eyes, Ill see you in two weeks. I Love you and don't let that meat head bother you, because I know he will try."
"Don't worry about Drew, and I love you too."
As I boarded my flight I couldn't stop thinking about what Clare had said about her bad feeling, It was eating me alive thinking about something bad happening to her.
Clare's POV
It took everything in me to not throw up all over Eli when he kissed me goodbye to board his flight, and even though I acted as if I wasn't scared about my cancer coming back I was terrified that it had. The room was spinning and I didn't have Eli to drive me to the hospital. I knew I couldn't drive myself, and since Alli wasn't picking up I knew I only had one friend who could help me, Drew. I knew I shouldn't call him, especially when Eli was worried about him already, but I had no choice.
"Drew, I need your help I don't feel too good."
"Clare what's wrong? Stop breathing so heavy I cant understand you."
"I'm at the airport I think I'm sick again please come get me, I don't want to cause a scene by calling an ambulance."
"Just hold on tight I'll be right there."
Drew showed up within 15 minutes and I saw the worry on his face, it made me feel bad for calling him but I was out of options. While he was driving way over the speed limit, Drew began asking questions like when I started feeling bad and for how long. When I explained to him that it was hours ago he became angry with me.
"Really Clare? You were that sick yet you came here just to say bye to HIM? Your relationship is ridiculous, and quite frankly unhealthy for you. I should catch the next flight to New York and kick his ass for letting you get like this."
"Drew Eli doesn't know how bad I'm feeling. It comes and goes, and the dizziness didn't start until after he left. Eli would never do anything to hurt me, if you're going to act this way I'll walk to the hospital because you're making everything worse."
"I don't mean to make it worse but it just makes me so mad because you know damn well and good that I would of said screw the flight and taken you myself if I was Eli. He's selfish and does nothing for you, but put you in bad situations. I wouldn't do that, not ever."
"Just like when you broke me out of the hospital and took me to Degrassi where I got coughed on by sick kids when I had Cancer? No one is perfect Drew not even you, so please give him a break."
"We're here Clare."
Drew and I walked in silence to the entrance of the emergency room, I felt bad for our argument. The nurse's eyes got wide when she saw how pale and sweaty I was. She quickly took me to the back and they took many blood samples. She gave me strict instructions to go home and rest. I felt like this was a repeat of before, my whole life was about to change again and I knew it. I was positive my cancer had returned.
"Ms. Edwards we will call you in the morning with results don't worry too much now dear."
"Thank you, I'll try not too."
"You just make just that handsome boyfriend of yours let's you get some rest"
I laughed at the smile that came on Drew's face when she said that, and I didn't have the heart correct her so I nodded and smiled. They gave me some medicine to help me sleep through the night and it worked pretty well. I woke up feeling refreshed, and my energy level was higher than it had been in a long time. Drew refused to leave after he drove me home from the emergency room, so he slept in front of my house in his truck. I admired the dedication.
"Drew, wake up."
"Did they call? Are you ok? What's going on?"
"They haven't called yet Drew, calm down. My mom made breakfast. Would you like some?"
"I don't think I could eat, I'm so nervous Clare."
Just as he said that my phone began to ring. I stared at for a few seconds afraid to answer. This phone call could change everything, or at the least make me look like an idiot for overreacting. I had to just answer. I had to.
"Hello, yes this is Ms. Edwards."
"Yes, your results came in and we'd like to inform you that you're 7 weeks pregnant. We understand the news may be a shock so whenever you are ready to schedule a follow up appointment you can call us back at this number. Until then stay off your feet as much as possible, you have severe morning sickness."
I hung up on the nurse without saying a word and I sat on the sidewalk. I felt like I was going to going to puke, again. I knew it wasn't the flu, I knew something was wrong but I never for even a second thought it would be this. Everything Eli and I had planed would have to be put on hold. My journalism career and his film making one. There was no way he would react well to this. Drew was on his knees by my side shaking my shoulders begging me to tell him what the nurse had said. I was looking at him in the eyes but no words would come out. I didn't want Drew to know before Eli, but I also couldn't let him wonder if I was going to die or not, so I just said it.
"I'm pregnant Drew."
"You're what?"
"Eli and I are going to have a baby. I didn't think this was a possibility they told me how slim my chances were to have a child after my cancer."
"You're going to keep it?"
"Of course I am Drew, this is my baby. My baby with Eli. I know I'm young and this is going to make everything so much more difficult but I want this more than I ever thought I would."
"Clare Edwards, I love you. I don't want you for a second to think that child changes the way I feel about you. Him or her is apart of you I could never hate it, but I think it's time I step away. If you and your new family are ever going to have a chance to be truly happy I cant be involved. I love you enough to walk away."
The tears were falling from my eyes because I knew this was goodbye, a part of me loved Drew but I'd never love him like I love Eli Goldsworthy and anyone who saw the way I looked at him knew that. I Was about to lose my best friend.
"I love you too Drew, goodbye."
I kissed him on the cheek and I walked away.
Eli's POV
I had called Clare about a million times with no answer and I was freaking out. I finally fell asleep at four in the morning when the ring tone to mine and Clare's song "Tonight I Love You" by The Latency started to go off. I shot up immediately and pressed answer.
"Clare are you ok? I have been trying to get ahold of you all damn day. What did the doctors office say?"
"Eli."
"Clare?"
"Eli."
"What the hell Clare spit it out."
"I'm pregnant."
"Is this a Joke, if you're joking it's not funny."
"I knew you'd be upset, I knew it! It took all day for me to gain the courage to call you and tell you and this is why. I understand if you want to bail, I wont force you to stay."
"Clare no, it's just I signed us up for a whole two months of couple massages and they don't give out refunds. Now that We're not going to be living in New York those appointment are going to go to waste. Maybe that's the wrong thing to be worrying about...I'm sorry. I am beyond happy that you and I are going to be bringing a beautiful baby into this world. The doctors said this may not even have ever been a possibility. This is a blessing. I'm not very religious or spiritual, but I know we only have one life, and as crazy as it sounds for me to be saying this the timing and the moment seem so right for this to be happening. I love you Clare Edwards, I'm coming home."
So obviously there is going to be a baby. I'm going to skip a bit into the future with this story, so there will only be flashbacks of the pregnancy. I'd love suggestions for names. Until next time :)
